HAHA

haha the wonders of a mac book HAHA

























i love kcab hehe if i got a mac then this is wut i would do with my life. AHAH

k so christmas break started as of friday :) good stuff. man. good times w/ jane shopping haha having some girlie time. and getting chicken little from kenny & calvin :) thanks kiddies u're the best! haha i love their card =P anywhoosss then went to jc's house =) hehe had dinner with peeps. hehe u can ask me if you want to know more. ;)
saturday was...kcab party =) haha good times and what not haha total fun taking pictures HAHA i loveee kcab! and then sunday....was...baptism..that's today! yayy party with my cousinss :P haha i love my cousins. they're amazingg...kk so for the rest of the christmas...here's my schedule

25 - christmas! grandma coming home : )
26 - boxing day
27 - jam & dinner day
28 -
29 - downhere concert!
30 -
31 - new years chillage..dunno where yet. =P
1 -
2 - trisia's house party =)
3 -
4 - going into loo? we'll see =P
5 -
6 -
7 -
8 - school =(

and somewhere in january...some cell group partayy. haha and then...i also hafta do university stuff and projects. haha

so book me =P or you lose. HAHA and cy u still owe me hot chocolate and hsieh u owe me wings =) ahaha

that's all. : )

happy.

so this weekend has been quite..the awesomeness =) hehe my madly hectic week was FINALLY over on friday. got a test and a quiz this week and i'll be DONE =) CHRISTMASSSS hahaha soo exciting. and this weekend was just soo relaxing. aww man soo much chillage..

Friday
- got to church and stressed like mad on retreat forms. *sigh. it's okay they're done now...but...yea...we still got tonzz to do. madly stressing over retreat. ughhhh *pulls hair out* haha
- pretty christmas cookies =) that i thot tim & tiff made....i didnt see the package okayyyyy goshhhh
- relentless practice =) went okay. jw had to go though. well we did whatever we could =)
- i was amazed that darren could finally reach that note...pretty darn impressive. haha

Saturday (greatest day)
- woke up at 8:15 for 9 practice for relentless
- went to church and darren got me a mcmuffin!!!! =) excitinggg haha i was very happy. but the paper was see-through. ew. haha darren wasnt too happy. considering he had to go back to get the mcmuffin for mee..
- had practice =) it was awesomee. hahaha me & sharon playing with sounds HAHAHA *tweet tweet* *gunshot* *car screech**thump* HAHA we killed a bird on the piano. haha so joax. and aww man the solos and wut not SOO cool. props to darren & jc man =) u guys..figured it out..amazingly hahaha i heard it..i was like...this is TOTALLY the works of the boys. hahaha
- at night, we had christmas celebration AHAH SOOO JOAX
- relentless =) u guys did awesomeee. ahha awesome fun.
- i will follow you performance was hilarious. haha the adults are amazinggg
- tim's little....dancing on stage with freddy....with the chicken dance
- haha translating was quite interesting. freddy should've jus translated his whole sermon himself. haha
- the MCs. were so joax
- i was introduced to a guy name joses about 4 times. =) he's really nice. his name rhymes with moses. he's from waterloo. haha
- went to wendy's after..where they cracked open eric's phone
- i attempted to throw into darren's mouth..like...a crumb of mcnuggets
- me & cheryl's random fobby highness HAHA man i love u girl
- me getting high from the hot chocolate

Sunday
- went to sunday service
- darren's going to get me 5 sausage mcmuffins for christmas. ew
- little kids are SO cute =)
- went to jc's house to play wii
- boys were being gay when it comes to parking. dumbbutts
- haha michael was like wheezing while boxing HAHA making noises when he breathes
- me trying to see my present. booo i wanna see ittttt. haha jon and sharon said it was nice...so i trust them. hahah
- eric..scarring darren for LIFE with his....dancing?

haha that's all =) AND IM GOING TO SEE HAPPY FEET LATERRR =) EXCITING. hehehehe

ehehehhe soo cute

HAHAH i typed in happy feet...i also found this. HAHA

people are weird.

update.

k soo havent updated in awhile...so since i dont have a test tomorrow (finally, a day off this week) i can update! haha soooo here's wut's happening

+ lovin all those talks me & nat have =) ehhe we're so alike. haha so joax
+ lovin those emails everyday
+ lovin those txt msgs everyday hehe 3 months of txting is amazing =P
+ friends constantly reminding me that it's ALMOST christmas
+ friends constantly encouraging me and tellin me to just...hang in there
+ excited for chillage during christmas
+ slowly letting stupid tests go. i'm done with them..moving on
+ im excited for downhere =D hehe

hehe so i really cant think of anything bad...either than i failed my physics test today. darn failing 3 tests in the past week is DEFINATELY not fun. but..not giving up. and not dwelling on it either cuz one of my friends reminded me that you just gotta move onn and learn to deal with it right? =)

awesome now time to do prep for my physics performance task...hoping i dont fail. ahaha

k so it sucks.

it sucks getting the physics test back that you thought you did well on and actually did pretty bad on. The teacher doesnt think it's bad. but you do. and on top of that, this test dropped you three percent. yes it sucks.

so i ended up getting it today after i got back to the science center and honestly when i found out it dropped me three percent. i was ready to cry. but u kno let's not cry in front of the teacher now. that's bad. i mean he knows im upset already. no need to make it worse. so on my way to my locker. i see gordon. and i showed it to him. i couldnt help it anymore. i started to cry. not like...wailing kinda cry. more like..silent tears kinda crying. and unlike everyone else, he seemed to be very understand. Gordon is always very understanding. I mean yea three percent..i kno im not allowed to complain cuz im still getting high 80s but at the same time...it's like..it's disappointing. and i just cant drop. i just..can't. and i tried to stop myself from crying..too bad the harder i tried..the more tears came out. so i said...

k agnes u gotta stop. it's not worth cryin over

then it hit me...

this crying shows a lot. it made me realize that
a) my marks are WAYY to important to me. i dont know HOW many people tell me this and i dont listen to them.
b) I placed school before God.

that's a bad thing. that last one there..BAD very BAD. *sigh. and i could tell. at the beginning of the year, school wasn't all that bad...i enjoyed it...got high marks...and credited them all to God..but slowly as the semester progressed..as things start to pile up...you think that maybe you can handle it yourself. oh....SOO WRONG. very very wrong. and also, after i got my marks, im dumb and i boast about them. heh. God sure taught me a lesson. not to like smite me or what not. but i mean. humility. that's it right there. no matter how good, bad, okay i do at the end of this year...humility. it all comes down to...how i reacted to all of them. it's funny when i get good marks..i say God u kno thanks for all this. then when i get bad marks...i cry.

*sigh time to go do things the RIGHT way.

balance.

God first

humility.

Everything is beautiful
Even when the tears are falling
I don't need a miracle to believe
Even in the crashing down
I can hear redemtion calling
And everything is beautiful to me
-Everything is Beautiful-Starfield

chillageeee

haha k FINALLY time to tell all about my weekend.

Saturday
hehe so i spent my ACTUAL birthday doing homework. i know...im a nerd. haha don't be jealous haha and i went to bible olympics. hehe that was fun. and i got a surprise at my door =) hehe thanks

Sunday
k so this was like greatest day ever. haha umm. i was out from like....9:30-6:30. hehe exciting. went to church and Sunday school was pretty good =) haha pastor lou is oh so smart. hehe and kitty was also very smart and helpful that day =) unlike my other undecisive friends =P haha so we decided to go out for lunch to pickle barrel. =) it was yummy. i had some spanish rice thing...it was HUGE. haha it was sooo funny that day =) highlights.

• darren wanting to order...breakfast =/ u're weird
• issy's goal was to scream across the other table =) hahaha k i TOTALLY failed at telling that story
• jimmy eating jam...was he really THAT hungry?
  
• then kenneth eating...honey? what WAS he eating?
  
• me getting "tipsy" over ellena's cocktail HAHA I WAS NOT TIPSY
• jason's smile
• me and issy getting soo high.
  
• taking pictures =) that's always fun.
  

hehe then we went to see the prestige =) ahha it's soooo PSYCHOTIC. and darren is now officially obsessed =/ he thinks he's a magician...he calls himself the great danton. scared. haha and he's in electrical engineering. ahha he's going to build some wacked up machine to replicate things. scaryyyy haha it was so intense. HAHA and a birdie died! and this little boy was crying. i was like...awww the birdie dieddd. it was sad =( then i screamed twice. haha in unison with kitty. we're cool =)

that is all.

so i did my physics test today. not so bad =) haha i now have the motivation to work. i just needed a little push. a little break from it all
hehe cant wait to PA day when i can finally have a day...to watch movies. HAHA i have soo many new ones @ home =P so many cartoonsss yayyyyyy ^^ hehehe

so as for picturesss here is a preview =)


me & bellaaa


jc, issy, & i


jason, eric & i


hahahaha kissyyy


HAHA i LOVE this picture.


hahaa lookie issy and mike =P


kitty, cheryl, & i =)


he's very hungry. lol.


now he wants to eat me haha


jimmy & i

hehe k and for the rest of them...
go here: http://www.imagestation.com/6611360/3958638334

friday night : )

Finally 17 =)

haha last night was soo joax. aww man house parties RULE. ahha so i get there and jane and dwiny are already there. dwiny was there first...AMAZING. haha and they were playing so old school old school game. SOO old school. haha but it was so funny. then we were watching i not stupid..that singapore movie : ) ehhe i love it. haha Terryy!! ahha =P when kenny's done with the second one, i want it! haha so me & jane were watching the movie and laughing. then we got too hungry to watch LOL. so we ate a little. freak by the time my mom came with food, we were too starved and ate all the other food already. haha so we weren't as hungry. haha but yesterday was TOTAL joax. watching friends during dinner. haha and being entertained by nat's hamster. hehe i love it =) soo cute. i love bebe.

i had a good time talking to bev last night :) see hun u said we never talk haha we ended up talking last night :) hehe it felt nice. haha everyone is yelling downstairs and we're upstairs in nat's room all dark and talking. : ) ahha then dwiny comes in. HAHA and bev goes to the bathroom and doesnt close the door LMAO. AHHA edwin's like..I CAN SEE YOU IN THE MIRROR! haha joax joax. then haha edwin tells us bout hte time where he was singing jenny from the block LMAO! hahahaha edwin singing jenny from the block HAHAHAHA aww man. soo joax. then we went downstairs and i played a little piano...played ddr AHHA so joax when gordon and calvin plays. AHHA calvin like..rolls up his pants and gordon dances in a circle HAHAH he SPINS. LMAO soo joax. aww man. and camy is so light that the mat doesnt detect her HAHA or so tuntun said. when we were taking group pictures hahaha so joax. haha omgsh alton sat on my face! FREAK haha eh was going to punch nat jeh i think and he jus slides down and sat on my face. im like..OMGSH ALTON'S BUTT IS IN MY FACE! haha eww so grossssssss a moment i will DEFINATELY NOT forget (sadly)

haha we had cake : ) hehe it was sooo yummyyy THANK YOU GORDON :) hehe then after, we went to go lie in nat's room, typical tradition. haha the let's all go sleep on the floor, bed, and chairs of nat jeh's room AHHA and count the stars on her ceiling. ahha and gordon took the pillow away from me : ( poooo. ahha and me & jane were laughing @ EVERYTHING. haha and i got money for my goat :) hehe thanks guysss :) and ppl started leaving. haha ohh and can't forget about the joax conversation with me, jane, gordon, calvin & monique about SJM people. AHHAAA aww man. good times.

THANK YOU
thanks trisia, bev, jason, dickson, dwin, camy, alton, kenny, calvin, jon ng, carole, davis, monique, gordon for comingg :) hehe
thanks to my daughter for her awesome note haha
thanks everyone for the money : )
thanks jc for first one to call me @ 12am haha
thanks carole for calling me SECOND :P haha at 12:01am
thanks mel : ) haha first txt! at 12
thanks freddy for the ecard
thanks jc for ur presents :) hehe love them
thanks to my bestest girls : ) hehe u guys made last night AMAZING

thanks everyone :) lots more to go. haha

pictures coming soon :)

post about today later.

hehe

im glad we're cool again :)

hehe im so excited for next weekend!

and i bought presents for other people today...well this whole weekend..and i actually found stuff! in like..two hours. pretty good man. haha i felt very proud of myself. :) productive shopping.

hehe and im finally pmsing :P AHAHA so im not randomly angry anymore! :)

k im a little weird. back to biology!

so i decided...

this year for my birthday...i want to buy a goat for those families on the other side of the world : )

i was talking to my parents about poverty during dinner today and i honestly almost cried.

so time to do something about it!

so i found the chinese version of the world vision christmas catalogue and asked my mom if we could buy a cow. Then she was like...see this is why you shouldn't have bought your ipod. i was like..that's true...then my dad was like..why don't you get your friends to buy a cow as a present for your birthday?

so i said...YEA!

so no more wanting stuff for myself.

time go give give give.

time to buy some people a goat.

hehe excited.

wow...

This weekend had a lot of hitting going on. Lots of yelling from God. not like..angry yelling. more like.."wake up" yelling.
So Friday was Missions Night and God really really spoke to me. What Pastor Lou said that night I will never forget. When talking about missions, he said

The question is not whether or not you're ready. I'm sure all missionaries weren't ready. The question is ARE YOU WILLING? If you are willing, God will automatically be ready and He will make you ready.

that night was kind of like...a nudge at the heart. Throughout this week, this question echoes in my head. are you willing?

so i stand....emptyhanded...filled with fear...but more filled with love and faith...and say.

Here I am Lord.

Use me.



I never really truly understood God's love until today. I mean...I guess I'll never fully understand why He would die for someone like me but I got a totally different meaning out of it today at Sunday school.

"This is love: not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins." - 1 John 4:10

I learned today that we are incapable of loving God. It's called total depravity. Love is when we have nothing to offer God and YET he still loves us. We are incapable because we are useless to God. kinda hit me like a ton of bricks.

God who is SO BIG loves us, even though He doesn't get anything out of it.

That is love. It REALLY doesn't get better than this.

yesterday was the greatest day : ) hehe

so im eating dinner...and melody decides to call me and ask what i'm doing...and i had to go to dinner..so i couldn't talk to her..like...15minutes later...she calls again...and she says

m: "look outside your door!!"
a: "omgsh are you here?!?!?"
m: "no i'm in waterloo -_-"
a: shuddup!

so i open the door and there's mel. omgshh haha such a surprise. but i did have a bit of suspicion. lolz. :P and then we called andy & darren and tricked them and they thot i was in loo :) hehe it was fun. haha and mel i'll buy u a cookie this week...not homemade..but i'll get you one :) hehe it's awesome seeing u. stupid girl not being able to come back for my bday :(

then we went to tiff's house to cook haha and my group is so cool : ) haha silas can't wash his fryer properly...haha and it was very old hahaa but it was so cool! i've never seen the whole fry-ingness happen before :) it was exciting. haha and then i touched timbit's lion >< by accident. lol. then...we made fish and chips and i took pictures : ) and then rachel stabbed a lemon.hehe and our whole fellowship was cheering her on. haha good times last night : ) i <3 my cell group.

then we went out to bbt after fellowship. It was me, silas, chung, tiff, betty, freddy, porshia, kitty, ivan, and donna. haha omgsh so joax that my face hrurt so much in the end and i was so exhausted and i almost lost my voice. ahha the bbt was really good too :) hehe feddy's treat. :P haha so joax. :P stories from scott missions hahaha too many good times tiff : ) haha i dont even remember what we talked about last night =/ haha something about metrosexual hahaha and something about...ms.J or something hahaha i dont even remember..but i was just too funny haha i <3 you guys. went home @ 12. omgsh ahha never went home @ 12 before :P hahaha darren, jason, sharon, david & jon look! haha a record :P

so yesterday i was bored before fellowship and made this:




hehe :)

Uncertainty.

I've realized recently that I freak myself out a lot by exaggerating everything a heck lot more...to only myself. It's kind of scary...I'm in my last year of highschool...I'm applying for universities and scholarships...I'm learning to be indepedent. And yet throughout it all, starting from the beginning...it's been rare since i asked...what's God going to do. And not just in fellowship and church but in my LIFE. What does HE want for me? What's He doing THROUGH me?
Even as I am currently writing the last essay for the Canadian Mert award, there's this sense of uncertainty, this sense of fear that things won't go exactly the way they are in my head. It's still very surreal to me that I'm in grade 12...i mean I don't feel any different...sure we feel older and we know everybody in the school...but what about my future? it scares me that it seems so close. I mean I have to apply for universities and what not. and as I'm rushing and planning my future, I hear this little voice. "What if things don't work out this way?" What if I don't get into the university i want to get into? (Queens) and What if I don't get any scholarships and don't have a 90 average and cant get into my program? Then what?

then i hear this other little voice (i'm not psychotic) and it says.."Why are you worrying so much? Whatever happen to giving it up to God this year and letting Him lead you where He wants you to go. Until last year, I never really understood how you can glorify God's kingdom by going to school. I mean...why don't we all just go out and do missions or something and not go to school? But as I study biology and physics and chemistry and all those fun other subjects, i begin to realize and see God in everything. Every little thing i learn in biology amazes me because I realized...God created it all...I mean EVERY little intricate thing. amazing. it's breathtaking.

and in my head i have this little plan that I'm going to serve God by being a (insert occupation) in the future and going to ( insert university) and all that jazz. but at the same time God is saying.."What if i don't want you there?"

I have this amazing fear that i wont get into Queens...because then I wouldn't know what to do. I scared that maybe God doesn't want me there. But then I remembered this:

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. - Jeremiah 29:11

and there's reassurance. So even though I'm sinking into a whole sea of uncertainty, it's like there's this little bubble around me that I cant see, helping me understand that everything is going to be alright.

today was cool : ) cept i failed this morning

i didn't turn on my phone...so darren shows up to my door early haha and not bearing a sausage mcmuffin. darn ahha if only i turned on my cell fone. haha oh well. so we went to worship practice : ) hha i tried carrying the congas...to heavy and so i carried the drummer stool instead : ) hahahahahha HUGE difference there. haha then darren made fun of me for the noises i made when i was carrying the electric because it was HEAVY! haha i thought it was. then jw started taunting me tooooo. i was like..are you guys going to taunt me for the rest of my life? they're like..are you going to be like this for the rest of your life? uh oh. ahha then darren walked into the mic stand : ) it was funny. it was like my time to laugh at HIM. i felt accomplished

worship practice was awesome : ) actual worship was even better! haha. i was so filled : ) the whole place was so filled. it's like..you can feel it when people are genuine in their worship. it was exactly what JW said worship should be:

Well chosen

well understood

well played

then i did children's worship ....wow they actually sang today. pretty impressive i must say. haha went back downstairs...and eric stole my jacket, stretched it by wearing it, then tim started taking off my fur. XP i dont like u guys. sunday school is awesome too! : ) talking about leadership : )

then i went shopping!!!!! got a sweater and two scarf belts :) hehe happy :) then i finished bio, which i actually didn't mind doing...i like genetics :) and now im sitting here doing algeo and talking to people : )

thanks mel n dt for trying to reassure me that my 90 really isn't sucha big deal. <3>

saturdayness

k so i went to the open house for UTSC yesterday...i don't really want to go there. haha so 3rd choice. yes. haha the place is very crowded. I don't know...i'm excited for queens in two weeks though! haha

went to worship practice after and talked to darren a little. He was trying to tell me that 90s aren't a big deal. haha as usual, i don't listen haha *sigh i gotta start learning to have less expectations. As much as i want 90s, it's disappointing to know that I might not get them this year. It's even more fustrating knowing that no matter how much i study from the textbook, my teachers are psychotic and think NOTHING like the textbook. *sigh. needa get through this sem, then i'll be fine. forget physics...i'm going to try my best and if i get 80, then 80 it is. haha darren would be happy with an 80 haha : P

so yes. worship practice was AH-MAZING :) haha so fun and loud aha i like it loud now haah i think 4 weeks of loud music got me used to it :P haha no need for earplugs for meeee haha so i'm starting two songs....im scared when i start songs haha i realize my confidence really aint so high...like i don't mind doing stupid things but when people tell me im good at _________, i don't believe them. haha so yes. i'm scared for tomorrow because i'm leading TWO SONGS. ho gang ahhhh haha and totally loving hsieh's christina aguilera style. ahha even though it messes me up :P haha i'll live. haha and darren's awesome electric-ing skills aha omgsh the boy can play everything =/ pronessss haha and when sam says that he'll try...it means he's going to pro it on his first try HAHA :P really really cool : ) the song set is..well picked, well understood, well played. i think that was it :) haha then on the car ride home me and darren made up a new word haha i'm a FREAK with a PH and a C so it's PHREAC HAHA omgsh we have issues. =/

k back to biology in hopes to pass my genetics unit

imu

Christ's Entrusted Servant

k so i think i've prolonged the whole "let's blog about my weekend" long enough. so let's recap about my amazinggg weekenddd

Friday
so fellowship and i drove :) haha got there a little early and helped set up chairs :) it's been a while since i did something so small and felt so good. haha then talked to silas and then i shared before worship started. Wow it was awesome and weird...sitting on the other side. haha but it was just so much more amazing. haha it feels SO good to take a break : P haha sorry rach looks like you'll be taking over for a while :P haha but u're SO good! honestly! haha and jackie is learning how to use the shaker haha. and silas' gtaring always makes me smile haha so pro man. Skit night was mad fun too! : ) i was in a group with daniel, collin, rach, and byron. haha it was so joax, me being stupid and ditzy haha and all the other groups skits were good too! it was AWESOME. haha so joax. i have them all on video :P u want, come talk to me. And the counsellor skit was wicked man. haha tiff was all gangsta and tim was being all nuts haha aww man it was good :) Then after fellowship, i got the phantom of the opera piano book (YES! now i can play) and a cup that TOTALLY describes me haha. thanks.

Saturday
omgsh greatest day EVER. So i woke up at like....7:45...early i know...and got ready for scott missions. I was so excited! i was like excited about it all week! i mean it was so different...never done it before :) ahha so Barry drove me and nat and tommy & joanna down to scott missions and when we got there, we took out all the clothing and what not to bring inside. Then this other couple comes up and wants to deliver some clothes too and since we were already in a line, we offered to bring them in for them. and they were so grateful. They were like...oh wow thank you and they were all smiling and what not : ) it made me so happy. So then we went in and i went downstairs to pack and store and bag food. I must admit, at first i was like...aww i wanted to cook. But when i went down there, i was like..WOW so much food! there was like..an IMMENSE amount of food. and i felt this little tug from God and He said, "I want you to be down here. I have great plans for you." And i smiled because i knew that God never EVER breaks His promises. So first i was bagging rice with tiff and natalie and it was so cool : ) haha it was so much fun just talking to them and getting to know them more and serving with them. It's so different when you're doing something so small with people and you can fellowship so easily. And it was also awesome serving with nat, totally diff serving with someone from school. We were very productive : ) haha and the gloves were mighty tight :P haha and i have sweating problems. hahaha tiff & nat would know : ( Then we bagged granola bars and barry came to join us and help us : ) it was just so cool fellowshiping with them and serving with them.

The whole feeling of humility came upon me, knowing that I'm only doing something so small, yet God can do great things with it. As I bag those granola bars and the powder milk and the rice, I wonder who's going to get these and how big of an impact it would make on these people. I remember one thing that nat said that day that I honestly wouldn't forget. After seeing that people come in here to eat and to find a place where they can just come in for a meal she said, "I feel so happy for them, that they get a place like this to eat" It may not seem much, but at that point, i knew God was using us in His big awesome plan. Isn't that amazing? God, who is so BIG and so AMAZING decides to use US in his plan. Totally blown away man.

Scott missions totally made my week : ) watching so many people do such little things so willingly is amazing and very humbling (is that a word?) And fellowshiping is even better haha so many good times : )

the rest of the day ended well with worship practice and my first time playing piano for sunday service and then my second uncle's wedding reception. ahha totally hype and fun haha dancing was awesome. haha and the DJ rocked. even my PARENTS were dancing. haha that says something. hahahahaha and dessert was AMAZING. i'm a big fan of dessert. haha yummy

Sunday
SO played piano for worship haha i think i should stick to singing and give sam back the piano haha. Dr. Dennis spoke and his message was so inspiring. To bless or to curse. To have a balance of everything. To be a CES (Christ Entrusted Servant) and not a CEO (I don't know what this stands for : P) and then jw sunday school : ) I love JW teaching sunday school haha it's so cool. we took a spiritual gifts test and my top two are music and prayer. and my lowest was leadership..hmm is God trying to tell me something here? But one thing that STRUCK me was the question:

Did God entrust me with this responsibility?

one of my biggest fear is serving in a specific area because I want to, not because God wants me to. Perhaps God has called others to serve, to do a better job.

so yes tonz of lessons this week :) God's taught me

that the little things matter as much as the big things,

that He has called all of us to do something different

that He chose to put us into His plan (wow)

God's taught me a LOT just the past two days.

He gives and takes away.

so two days ago...had the greatest day cuz
a) i was getting a 93 in chem
b) i was getting 95 in algeo
c) i prayed during a test and got soo much better than i expected. TOTALLY His doing

then today:
a) i'm getting 87 in chem
b) i messed up on my algeo test.
i can say im was okay about it...but it was upsetting i guess..it's hard...when u have such high marks..one mistake and they can go down so much. *ugh fustrating. i needa 90 average on that midterm man. But we'll see where God takes me

yea that sums it up.
but im thankful because

- He taught me to not be boastful & prideful
- He gave me AWESOME friends
- He gave me amazing teachers who care so much about me
- He gave me somebody who cares so much about me
- He gave me family that knows that i might fail sometimes and it's okay

so yes : ) k now i needa work. *hai bio quiz tomorrow and i can't bomb that either.

HAHA last night was sooo joax haha .... that was totally the funniest dinner i've had in a VERY long time. hahaha aww man. so we get there at like...7:20 and waited till like 8:10 before we got our table. omgsh there is SO no point in reserving anything haha. and while we're waiting they're like..talking about stories from eric's party on friday. haha as funny as it was..boy am i glad i wasn't there to see the chaos. ahha so the highlights of yesterday:

• haha jason being blinded by my mirror
• darren' soiling himself like..a heck lotta times yesterday
• issy and her whole plate of udon
• kenneth and his 15 scoops of ice cream
• ally g jokes
  
• eric laughing so hard he started crying
• darren CONSTANTLY imitating me
• haaha guys laugh like "hehehe" or in REALLY high voices hahaa me & sharon witnessed HAHA
• the guys constantly touching each other =/ haha
• jason touching darren and singing "sexy lovee" haha
  
• darren getting rice stuck up his nose...spiting it back out and eating it....or jason said it was fish =/
  
• THEN like 10minutes after...the same thing happened to me. cept i wasn't that gross
• jason's impersonation of eric on friday ahha
  
• me going insane over a cute kid
• me & eric's awkward sitting positions
• mike being stuffed into darren's trunk and creating a titanic handmark...or i think that was issy
  

i dont remember anything else but everything was jus too funny. i cried NUMEROUS times last night because of laughing haha and eric ended up crying too hahaha and i remember laughing so hard i couldn't breathe...and i ate a LOT. omgsh i felt soo sick the last sushi i hate was like going to come outta my mouth. haha aww man but i hafn't laughed that hard ina REALLY long time haha thanks guys haha i woke up this morning..with my back hurting from last night and still full fromm last night. haha aww man.

pictures from last night are here:
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2100950008

and pictures to kenny's bday are here:
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2100952724

enjoy friends :)

i love

- celebrating God's awesome presence : )
- getting some space
- seeing my uni friends back for thanksgiving
- seeing people willing to serve
- loud worship haha
- smiles and laughter
- hugss
- God
- cookies
- the new chris tomlin CD
- spending time w. my cousins

the end :)

k so worship practice made up for my crappy start of a day.

haha it was soo cool! omgsh so loud dough. haha my eardrums and my voice will die soon

haha props 2 darren, jon & sam.... amazinggggggg haha sams pianoing makes me smile ahha and my singing make his lungs quiver =/ hahaha

okay now

and sharon is going 2 get me a time machine for my bday so that darren wont have to drive me home in two minutes : ) haha and he wont b scared when my fone rings haha

and hollie thinks im funny

so im happy now hahaha

and i get to see my cousins 2nite

i LOVE my cousins

eeeeeeeeeeee^^ i got the new Chris Tomlin CD today... : )
and the Philip Yancey book "Prayer , does it make a difference"

How can I keep from singing Your praise? - Chris Tomlin
How can I ever say enough?
How amazing is Your love?
How can I keep from shouting Your name?
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing


now that's a song i could TOTALLY relate to.

busy busy busy

haha okay so for the record...hollie you're SOO much cuter than i am LMAO! hahaha i <3>

as for this week...omgsh no more posting haha enuf is enuf. haha i failed my algeo test today. like...80 fail okay hahaha but it still matters! it matters when i want that 95 in algeo :( haha but yes. if i get a 90 on that test it will be MIRACLE. it was pretty cool though...i totally had NO idea how to do one of the questions...so i decided to pray. i don't know about you but i've never prayed DURING a test, especially when there's like...10minutes left. then last 5 minutes i figured out how 2 do it! haha i probably lost some marks cuz it's kinda weird but it was so cool! : ) so yesh. but im still gonna get 80 haha
then i discovered the lab report i did is missing a conclusion lolz! way to end it. ahha ah well it doesnt count anyways :P

k so this week is crunch week for meee. so dun bother me unless u're special hahaha and thanks for the laughs last night phil & nels : ) it was awesome talking to you guys hahha i was TOTALLY high on the "phil&nels" drug ahhaa i love u guys. (we eat air HAHA) and phil cheated on me & nels for the bathroom : P LMAO

k so this week:

mon - algeo test, chem lab
tues - chem test, physics assessment quiz
wed - bio assessment quiz
thurs - physics quiz, meeting w/ freddy, interviews for HOPE
fri - physics lab, interviews for HOPE, thanksgiving dinner or kenny's bday, mel comes home
sat - family dinner, worship practice
sun - eric's bday dinner

nxt week:
mon - thanksgiving, no school : )
tues -
wed - physics slingshot due
thurs - bio test
fri -
sat - scott missions, chillage w/ jc
sun -

haha today was quite fun. haha

woke up @ 7:00 and called jc @ 7:15 to wake him up. got dressed and ate then darren came to pick me up AHHA omgsh. funniest thing this morning. ther'es a man walking his dog

a: "aww it's so cutee"
d: "haha should i run over it?"
a: " no dont! aww it's so cute and fat"
d: "so fat = cute?"
a: "yes : )"
d: "so you're not cute?"
a: "nop"
d: "do you want to be cute?"
a: "umm...nop...well...okay end of conversation"
d: "HAHA"

then during worship:
a: "so darren, am i cute?"
d: " you should get him to answer that question for u"
a: "oh shutup"
d: "j is agnes cute?"
j: "yes?"
a: *gasp*
d: hahahahhaahahah
a: *tells j whole story of this morning
j: oh im sorry...
d: hahahahaha he thinks you're VERY VERY CUTE
a: OH SHUT UP!

so im fat according 2 darren haha it's darren's fault cuz jc had no idea wut we were talking about. ahhaha and darren almost got angry todayyyy haha a man @ tim hortons was awfully close haha

and PJ's sermon was good today : ) it really made me think. haha and his salty pork chops haha

and worship was awesome : ) haha totally filled man. totally lifting. and i am ABSOLUTELY in LOVE with darren's drumming and jc's guitaring and sam's piano-ing. u guys are AMAZING. sooo sick man! and i always hafta go pee EVERYTIME I do worship!!!! EVERYTIME : ( haha and sam went too! i was like...i hafta go pee and sam was like....oh i jus went HAHA u're evil sam. haha and i can see @ the end of it that rach & jackie liked it LMAO jumping up & down and going insane hahaha i can see u 2 from up there u know! haha i can see EVERYTHING AHHA :P

then alton came over. haha and we did our physics project :) yayyy now we know wut 2 do :) haha and alton is dumb : ) i built the sphere and he couldnt do it. ahha i win.

that's it : ) haha i hafta finish my chem lab now. i've been slacking 2 days ahhaha enuf is enuf time 2 work now. hahah but shower first. goodbye now!

Take my fret, take my fear
All I have, Im leaving here
Be all my hopes, be all my dreams
Be all my delights, be my everything

And I will worship You, Lord
Only You, Lord
And I will bow down before You
Only You Lord
-only you (DCB)

thanks sharon :P

yeayea gooooo PHAROS

haha last night fellowship was INSANE. soo much fun. i'm TOTALLY loving my cell group haha we're all so loud haha well k not all of us. silas isn't hahaha and donna & collin are doing awesome jobs. : ) good job guys haha the games were awesome too. yummy gummy bears : ) ahha and philip is SO random ahha. and silas was indifferent. haha

Who are we?
PHAROS PHAROS

I can't hear you
PHAROS PHAROS

Who's gonna shine?
PHAROS PHAROS

Say it again!
PHAROS PHAROS

yeayea man. haha and *stompstomp* clap aha totally fail ahhahaa

im excited...God is good : ) and today worship practice was so much fun : )haha this week's set is SOO FUNKY hahaha totally in LOVE with it haha

and uni fair today! soo cool haha i saw candeee haha then she kept runnin back 2 me
"Agnes phil is here tooO!!!"
"WHAT?!?!?!? WHERE WHERE?!?!"
*both of us runs to queens*
"PHIL!"

haha yes that sums it up haaha omgsh it was SOO cool!. hahaa i hafn't seen phil since...my baptism woahh ages agoo haha man i missed uu. and u still gotta hear my singing ;) haha and i saw tenzin and alex & ryan from school...i also saw shannon : ) haha soo awesome. haha and kitty & sam haha and queen's is MIGHTY attractive aha so onto queens i go? we'll see what God has in store for me

haha so everybody ditched today leaving me, carole, davis, alvin, samson, and cheryl behind haha
it was soo joax though. haha first period, we ran away from Mr. Bruni into Ms. Spence's class and hid : ) haha then Mr. Bruni decided to plot against Ms. Spence. haha so during 3rd period, we switched our classes around while she was out. haha

"So miss, Bruni wanted to know how much butter you can churn in an hour"
"oh tell Bruni to shut up"


haha all on tape : ) haha

so the physics and chem war has began ahha im soo excited for this sem now hahahaha soo joax.

and during grad when we play it...haha oh man.

and me, davis, carole, alvin, and eugene also went to the park : ) and where:
- i poked alvin's adam's apple
- alvin hurt me : ( i feel in the mud haha
- davis pushed me SOO high on the swing i got scared
- alvin was teaching eugene how to swing HAHA i've NEVER seen somebody do that before and being SOO happy too
- alvin refused to sing to us
- me and carole failed and doing a chin-up and climbing the pole

: ) haha fun day that could've TOTALLY been productive by going to uni fair. oh well haha

Today is mondayyy

monday is sleepy day : )

haha so here's my revised schedule of everythingg haha mann so much to do

and calvin is mean haha but now he knows not to mess with me & nat jeh haha =] haha u liking those birdies on ur sheet? hahaha they're mocking u HAHA soo joax. and nat bringing calvin's bag all the way to the street ahhah "oh calvinnn" haahhha and us listing evil things that we can do w/ his bag. haha so joax. and kenny likes phantom of the opera. he likes to sing it too. haha

so here goesss:

tues: bio & chem quiz
wed:
thurs:
fri:
sat: uni fair
sun:

mon: algeo unit test, chem lab due
tues: chem unit test
wed:
thurs: bio unit test
fri: dyng comes home! : )
sat:
sun: eric's bday dinner

yea that's two weeks right there haha and i still hafnt added worship practices & other projects teachers like to kill me with. and scholarships and university applications

yea that's all now :) time to go back to chem so i can once again ace that quiz tomorrow : P

this weekend was fun : )

Friday
Worship practice is always a blast : ) haha so much fun doing marvelous light and what not and darren's sexy guitar solo thingy. Bible study and having rachel sing for koinonia :) nice job girl :) you have an awesome voice. USE IT. lol. Bible study went alright. We kinda went over time. >< haha but it's okay. haha it was cool just having a light discussion and what not. Then afterwards...we were talking about worship...actually silas brought it up to me. lolz. and we talked and i almost cried because i totally was jus overwhelmed with all the stuffs...like friday & sunday worship and chair and school. soo overwhelming. so i had a good talk with silas just trying to figure things out. lolz thanks si for helping me cut things out when i can't do it myself (ie. cutting me off worship) lolz. He counselled me cuz that's what counsellors do right? haha and got home...cried a little, prayed a heck lot and tried out that thing that candy taught david : ) ahha it helps man. it's like...this big weight lifted off my shoulders : )

Saturday
Worship practice...darren picked me up >< my bad totally did not know he was in prayer meeting...i want to go...like im serious. i think i'll go next week : ) but isn't there job fair? im mad confused. ahha anywaysss yea and we did hear our praises. haha omgsh i was soo highh it was insane :) haha there was soo much energy that day...im not exactly sure why but it was so fun : ) haha then lunch with auntie & uncle i've never met before ahaha they're from california...i mean they're my great...uncle & aunt...my grandpa's friends. so yea...
Then had sharon's dinner. haha it was fun : ) haha the chicken was chewy and the lime key pie is soo good : ) ahwesome. and her lovely box of condoms and her Jesus action figure LMAO haha so joax. and me thinking that the water jug ACTUALLY turned water into wine. haha then we went back to sharon's house and watched elizabethtown : ) haha k at first we got running scared...omgsh that movie..is all swearing & blood >< so gross....5minutes into it..i cant take it anymore ahha SO then we went back & got elizabethtown. lolz. : ) ORLANDO BLOOM IS SO GOOD LOOKING : ) hahaha justin thinks im a pansy. lolz

Sunday
Sundays are always exciting. : ) because worship is exciting. haha and i loved pastor lou's sermon today about us being the friends of the paralytic. of making God's reality, our reality and His story our story. : ) and then im also excited for october worship : ) ahha i don't know...worship for the past month has been like...therapeutic for me hahaha it's like the time where i can put EVERYTHING away...outta my head and jus sing and have fun : ) Thanks worship team : ) u guys are absolutely amazing.

so now back to school. haha
mon - physics quiz
tues - bio, chem quiz
wed - math test
thurs -
fri - terry fox run
sat - university fair

that sums it up : ) for now. ahha

+ God has blessed me with an awesome start to school : )
- relational burdens
- stress over universities and scholarships
+ love opening up my email and finding numerous emails from my awesome uni prends : )
+ as draggy as classes are, i have friends to always make me laugh : )
- it's raining
- i'm still scared of being chair
+ i'm singing all of october too : )
+ i get to go spend time with my mommy (finally!) on PA Day
+ DOWNTOWN next week with my lovelies after uni fair : )
- i'm in so much pain : ( pmsing sucks!
- i'm lacking in devos
+ finally applying to volunteer @ hospital
+ my coolest girl misses me and i miss her :P

sooo good overthrows bad. it kicks bad in the BUTT so u kno what i'm going to do?

live everyday with a smile on my face. live everyday knowing that i have a choice to feel grumpy or feel happy. and u know what i choose? I CHOOSE HAPPY : )

what do you choose?

guess wuuuut?

I'M SPECIAL

MSN NICKNAME: mel misses senga (senga is me...)

:) i feel special and there's a mario star on top of my head :) so i make mel happy. haha i make mel hyper over msn. you're so FAR AWAY

cuz you know (x3) [lazy]
i love you

I MISS YOU

achung misses mng

my day consisted of the following:

- haven and gloria's wedding CONGRATS

- wanting to eat up cute little kids : P haha "I want one"

- trying to curl my hair and failing (darren: it looks pretty straight to me) -_-"

- tonz of dramatic moments lolz

- worship practice

- talking about prom and what not.

- joax in the parking lot :P

that's about it : )

girls/guys night

hahaha total joax yesterday! : ) omgsh i love kna. so last night was girls/guys night. haha music video went alright. haha they were suppose 2 dance like..nsync haha and tim's group ended up jus making up their own thing haha : P awesome stuff. and darren states that nsync is fruity. haha. and i heard that andy can dance haha that i gotta see sometime : P the next game, the guys and girls hadta dress like each other haha jt had the best doo ever : P and all that makeup haha eyeshadow and lipgloss :P haha soo joax. and the basement reaked of perfume and cologne. hahaha the last game was soo joax. haha they played sharades with guys & girls words haha

the guys list was as follows:
purple nurple
Ro-Sham-Bo (which darren demonstrated to me last night =/)
Door Knob
Standing While peeing
5'o clock shadow ( i totally don't get that)
Sausagefest
Speedos
Silent but deadly
Testosterone

the girls list was a little changed so in the end we did:
metopause
tampon
gynecologist
tweezers
halter
ovaries
fallopian tubes

haha so joax. man andy chung is so pro it's kinda scary. hahaha. and soo joax during halter top one mike was guessing randomly he's like...training bra...crossover bra and all this stuff haha so joax. : )

and tim tied up my hair so that i had like a bun on the TOP of my head : ( and darren was evil and took a picture...so did chowchow. oh pooo

haha last night was joax : ) i laughed so much my face hurted. and jimmy & steven came to visit. omgsh in the end, at the back, there was like...a circle of older boys like...jason, darren, jc, chung, & jimmy. haha

and exciting...WE HAVE SOUND IN THE BASEMENT! : ) smank you mistake! : )

want pictures? let me know.

okay so it's official....

this day sucks

i hate algeo

and algeo hates me

that sums it up : )

so i just had a test that i screwed up on ....four questions...28 marks. i just HAD to screw up on the question with the most marks..gosh i better get part marks for doing the steps right. ughh so angry. like it's not fair...i knew how to do it too! just when i think algeo isn't all THAT bad, im proven wrong : ( gosh. i was honestly gonna cry after that test. so upset man. it's weird. i've never reacted so badly to a test before. but i mean...grade 12 i constantly feel like....you gotta do good...it's your last chance and you've gotta take everything seriously...like it counts SO much : ( and you know what else!!??! i just tried to register to scholarshipscanada.com and now i don't know how...what am i suppose to put when they ask me for my primary area of interest and there's like..highschool & post secondary & all that stuff? totally confused. someone help me please. so im mad right now. or sad...im jus...UGH

or as mel would call it...

im lou-ing!

but

happy birthday 2 dwin : )

as of yesterday, i have entered into my

last year of highschool

...a little scary...a little unreal, but i do feel like i'm in grade 12. wow haha

and God is good : ) blessing me with soo much these past two days. First, He fixed all my worries before I went to school...6 hours before I went to school haha :) then my classes are amazing..worst schedule ever, but just listen.

Sem 1
Physics - Bruni
Bio - Barker
Geo and Algebra - Treap
Chem - Spence

haha just look @ it...can u say screwed? haha but at the same time, i feel somewhat assured that I'm going to be okay. For those of you who don't go to my school, these are the best teachers ever for those courses. I also have the best classes, ahah having my awesome friends and trisia in 5 of my 8 classes :P haha and kenny in 4 of my 8. haha and all the science teachers are getting together to make sure they don't kill us. : ) So im grateful. so here's a summary of each of my classes:

Physics: I have a great teacher. He actually cares about your education and tells us not to worry. I have an awesome class, haha with Trisia and Kenny at first. Then all of a sudden, calvin appears. And NOW i found out alton is in my class now too! : ) haha this is exciting. haha a buncha smart butts ahha

Bio: My teacher tried to be outgoing and tried to get to know us. She is away a lot, but i had her before and although she's strict, she can teach. She explains things really well and stuff too : ) and i have hollie in my class haha : ) haha but...i have Kenny sticking stickers on my back...and flicking me and stealing my stuffs. omgsh haha im going to come out of that class with bruises. lolz haha so mo liu.

Geo & Algebra: first day of learning..and i already don't know how to do my homework. HAHA so saddd :( ahha imma like fail. : ( k no...i'm going to get a 90 haah i dun care. haha and i have trisia, calvin, kenny. I realize that the people in my class are very repeated. haha it's always the same people :P

Lunch: lunch is joax haha : ) everybody has lunch C i love it. ahha and i see my daughter everyday..well one of them anyways :P haha and today we got these cool lighters aha thanks kenny! :P haha lunch is so joax : ) as usual haha

Chem: haha FINALLY a class with natalie. ahha omgsh i haven't had a class with her since grade 9 first sem. it's a miracle we're still so close. hahaha omgsh i love you. haha and yes now you're not going to fail :P haha but i'm going to be MAD distracted. haha and we have alton & calvin too haha so joax writing in alton's agenda and "I stand on a chair" haha classic. My teacher is awesome. She's so nice, so cool : ) haha

so i have awesome classes : ) God is good. what more could i ask for?

so summer is officially over. some good times this summer : ) so here are some pictures that sums up my summer...basically...missing the times @ wonderland :P haha

bbq @ gdon's for alton


VBC






Mel's house : )








Softball








CCSA Banquet












Grad Night


















I <3ed this summer : ) good times.