yeayea gooooo PHAROS

haha last night fellowship was INSANE. soo much fun. i'm TOTALLY loving my cell group haha we're all so loud haha well k not all of us. silas isn't hahaha and donna & collin are doing awesome jobs. : ) good job guys haha the games were awesome too. yummy gummy bears : ) ahha and philip is SO random ahha. and silas was indifferent. haha

Who are we?
PHAROS PHAROS

I can't hear you
PHAROS PHAROS

Who's gonna shine?
PHAROS PHAROS

Say it again!
PHAROS PHAROS

yeayea man. haha and *stompstomp* clap aha totally fail ahhahaa

im excited...God is good : ) and today worship practice was so much fun : )haha this week's set is SOO FUNKY hahaha totally in LOVE with it haha

and uni fair today! soo cool haha i saw candeee haha then she kept runnin back 2 me
"Agnes phil is here tooO!!!"
"WHAT?!?!?!? WHERE WHERE?!?!"
*both of us runs to queens*
"PHIL!"

haha yes that sums it up haaha omgsh it was SOO cool!. hahaa i hafn't seen phil since...my baptism woahh ages agoo haha man i missed uu. and u still gotta hear my singing ;) haha and i saw tenzin and alex & ryan from school...i also saw shannon : ) haha soo awesome. haha and kitty & sam haha and queen's is MIGHTY attractive aha so onto queens i go? we'll see what God has in store for me

haha so everybody ditched today leaving me, carole, davis, alvin, samson, and cheryl behind haha
it was soo joax though. haha first period, we ran away from Mr. Bruni into Ms. Spence's class and hid : ) haha then Mr. Bruni decided to plot against Ms. Spence. haha so during 3rd period, we switched our classes around while she was out. haha

"So miss, Bruni wanted to know how much butter you can churn in an hour"
"oh tell Bruni to shut up"


haha all on tape : ) haha

so the physics and chem war has began ahha im soo excited for this sem now hahahaha soo joax.

and during grad when we play it...haha oh man.

and me, davis, carole, alvin, and eugene also went to the park : ) and where:
- i poked alvin's adam's apple
- alvin hurt me : ( i feel in the mud haha
- davis pushed me SOO high on the swing i got scared
- alvin was teaching eugene how to swing HAHA i've NEVER seen somebody do that before and being SOO happy too
- alvin refused to sing to us
- me and carole failed and doing a chin-up and climbing the pole

: ) haha fun day that could've TOTALLY been productive by going to uni fair. oh well haha

Today is mondayyy

monday is sleepy day : )

haha so here's my revised schedule of everythingg haha mann so much to do

and calvin is mean haha but now he knows not to mess with me & nat jeh haha =] haha u liking those birdies on ur sheet? hahaha they're mocking u HAHA soo joax. and nat bringing calvin's bag all the way to the street ahhah "oh calvinnn" haahhha and us listing evil things that we can do w/ his bag. haha so joax. and kenny likes phantom of the opera. he likes to sing it too. haha

so here goesss:

tues: bio & chem quiz
wed:
thurs:
fri:
sat: uni fair
sun:

mon: algeo unit test, chem lab due
tues: chem unit test
wed:
thurs: bio unit test
fri: dyng comes home! : )
sat:
sun: eric's bday dinner

yea that's two weeks right there haha and i still hafnt added worship practices & other projects teachers like to kill me with. and scholarships and university applications

yea that's all now :) time to go back to chem so i can once again ace that quiz tomorrow : P

this weekend was fun : )

Friday
Worship practice is always a blast : ) haha so much fun doing marvelous light and what not and darren's sexy guitar solo thingy. Bible study and having rachel sing for koinonia :) nice job girl :) you have an awesome voice. USE IT. lol. Bible study went alright. We kinda went over time. >< haha but it's okay. haha it was cool just having a light discussion and what not. Then afterwards...we were talking about worship...actually silas brought it up to me. lolz. and we talked and i almost cried because i totally was jus overwhelmed with all the stuffs...like friday & sunday worship and chair and school. soo overwhelming. so i had a good talk with silas just trying to figure things out. lolz thanks si for helping me cut things out when i can't do it myself (ie. cutting me off worship) lolz. He counselled me cuz that's what counsellors do right? haha and got home...cried a little, prayed a heck lot and tried out that thing that candy taught david : ) ahha it helps man. it's like...this big weight lifted off my shoulders : )

Saturday
Worship practice...darren picked me up >< my bad totally did not know he was in prayer meeting...i want to go...like im serious. i think i'll go next week : ) but isn't there job fair? im mad confused. ahha anywaysss yea and we did hear our praises. haha omgsh i was soo highh it was insane :) haha there was soo much energy that day...im not exactly sure why but it was so fun : ) haha then lunch with auntie & uncle i've never met before ahaha they're from california...i mean they're my great...uncle & aunt...my grandpa's friends. so yea...
Then had sharon's dinner. haha it was fun : ) haha the chicken was chewy and the lime key pie is soo good : ) ahwesome. and her lovely box of condoms and her Jesus action figure LMAO haha so joax. and me thinking that the water jug ACTUALLY turned water into wine. haha then we went back to sharon's house and watched elizabethtown : ) haha k at first we got running scared...omgsh that movie..is all swearing & blood >< so gross....5minutes into it..i cant take it anymore ahha SO then we went back & got elizabethtown. lolz. : ) ORLANDO BLOOM IS SO GOOD LOOKING : ) hahaha justin thinks im a pansy. lolz

Sunday
Sundays are always exciting. : ) because worship is exciting. haha and i loved pastor lou's sermon today about us being the friends of the paralytic. of making God's reality, our reality and His story our story. : ) and then im also excited for october worship : ) ahha i don't know...worship for the past month has been like...therapeutic for me hahaha it's like the time where i can put EVERYTHING away...outta my head and jus sing and have fun : ) Thanks worship team : ) u guys are absolutely amazing.

so now back to school. haha
mon - physics quiz
tues - bio, chem quiz
wed - math test
thurs -
fri - terry fox run
sat - university fair

that sums it up : ) for now. ahha

+ God has blessed me with an awesome start to school : )
- relational burdens
- stress over universities and scholarships
+ love opening up my email and finding numerous emails from my awesome uni prends : )
+ as draggy as classes are, i have friends to always make me laugh : )
- it's raining
- i'm still scared of being chair
+ i'm singing all of october too : )
+ i get to go spend time with my mommy (finally!) on PA Day
+ DOWNTOWN next week with my lovelies after uni fair : )
- i'm in so much pain : ( pmsing sucks!
- i'm lacking in devos
+ finally applying to volunteer @ hospital
+ my coolest girl misses me and i miss her :P

sooo good overthrows bad. it kicks bad in the BUTT so u kno what i'm going to do?

live everyday with a smile on my face. live everyday knowing that i have a choice to feel grumpy or feel happy. and u know what i choose? I CHOOSE HAPPY : )

what do you choose?

guess wuuuut?

I'M SPECIAL

MSN NICKNAME: mel misses senga (senga is me...)

:) i feel special and there's a mario star on top of my head :) so i make mel happy. haha i make mel hyper over msn. you're so FAR AWAY

cuz you know (x3) [lazy]
i love you

I MISS YOU

achung misses mng

my day consisted of the following:

- haven and gloria's wedding CONGRATS

- wanting to eat up cute little kids : P haha "I want one"

- trying to curl my hair and failing (darren: it looks pretty straight to me) -_-"

- tonz of dramatic moments lolz

- worship practice

- talking about prom and what not.

- joax in the parking lot :P

that's about it : )

girls/guys night

hahaha total joax yesterday! : ) omgsh i love kna. so last night was girls/guys night. haha music video went alright. haha they were suppose 2 dance like..nsync haha and tim's group ended up jus making up their own thing haha : P awesome stuff. and darren states that nsync is fruity. haha. and i heard that andy can dance haha that i gotta see sometime : P the next game, the guys and girls hadta dress like each other haha jt had the best doo ever : P and all that makeup haha eyeshadow and lipgloss :P haha soo joax. and the basement reaked of perfume and cologne. hahaha the last game was soo joax. haha they played sharades with guys & girls words haha

the guys list was as follows:
purple nurple
Ro-Sham-Bo (which darren demonstrated to me last night =/)
Door Knob
Standing While peeing
5'o clock shadow ( i totally don't get that)
Sausagefest
Speedos
Silent but deadly
Testosterone

the girls list was a little changed so in the end we did:
metopause
tampon
gynecologist
tweezers
halter
ovaries
fallopian tubes

haha so joax. man andy chung is so pro it's kinda scary. hahaha. and soo joax during halter top one mike was guessing randomly he's like...training bra...crossover bra and all this stuff haha so joax. : )

and tim tied up my hair so that i had like a bun on the TOP of my head : ( and darren was evil and took a picture...so did chowchow. oh pooo

haha last night was joax : ) i laughed so much my face hurted. and jimmy & steven came to visit. omgsh in the end, at the back, there was like...a circle of older boys like...jason, darren, jc, chung, & jimmy. haha

and exciting...WE HAVE SOUND IN THE BASEMENT! : ) smank you mistake! : )

want pictures? let me know.

okay so it's official....

this day sucks

i hate algeo

and algeo hates me

that sums it up : )

so i just had a test that i screwed up on ....four questions...28 marks. i just HAD to screw up on the question with the most marks..gosh i better get part marks for doing the steps right. ughh so angry. like it's not fair...i knew how to do it too! just when i think algeo isn't all THAT bad, im proven wrong : ( gosh. i was honestly gonna cry after that test. so upset man. it's weird. i've never reacted so badly to a test before. but i mean...grade 12 i constantly feel like....you gotta do good...it's your last chance and you've gotta take everything seriously...like it counts SO much : ( and you know what else!!??! i just tried to register to scholarshipscanada.com and now i don't know how...what am i suppose to put when they ask me for my primary area of interest and there's like..highschool & post secondary & all that stuff? totally confused. someone help me please. so im mad right now. or sad...im jus...UGH

or as mel would call it...

im lou-ing!

but

happy birthday 2 dwin : )

as of yesterday, i have entered into my

last year of highschool

...a little scary...a little unreal, but i do feel like i'm in grade 12. wow haha

and God is good : ) blessing me with soo much these past two days. First, He fixed all my worries before I went to school...6 hours before I went to school haha :) then my classes are amazing..worst schedule ever, but just listen.

Sem 1
Physics - Bruni
Bio - Barker
Geo and Algebra - Treap
Chem - Spence

haha just look @ it...can u say screwed? haha but at the same time, i feel somewhat assured that I'm going to be okay. For those of you who don't go to my school, these are the best teachers ever for those courses. I also have the best classes, ahah having my awesome friends and trisia in 5 of my 8 classes :P haha and kenny in 4 of my 8. haha and all the science teachers are getting together to make sure they don't kill us. : ) So im grateful. so here's a summary of each of my classes:

Physics: I have a great teacher. He actually cares about your education and tells us not to worry. I have an awesome class, haha with Trisia and Kenny at first. Then all of a sudden, calvin appears. And NOW i found out alton is in my class now too! : ) haha this is exciting. haha a buncha smart butts ahha

Bio: My teacher tried to be outgoing and tried to get to know us. She is away a lot, but i had her before and although she's strict, she can teach. She explains things really well and stuff too : ) and i have hollie in my class haha : ) haha but...i have Kenny sticking stickers on my back...and flicking me and stealing my stuffs. omgsh haha im going to come out of that class with bruises. lolz haha so mo liu.

Geo & Algebra: first day of learning..and i already don't know how to do my homework. HAHA so saddd :( ahha imma like fail. : ( k no...i'm going to get a 90 haah i dun care. haha and i have trisia, calvin, kenny. I realize that the people in my class are very repeated. haha it's always the same people :P

Lunch: lunch is joax haha : ) everybody has lunch C i love it. ahha and i see my daughter everyday..well one of them anyways :P haha and today we got these cool lighters aha thanks kenny! :P haha lunch is so joax : ) as usual haha

Chem: haha FINALLY a class with natalie. ahha omgsh i haven't had a class with her since grade 9 first sem. it's a miracle we're still so close. hahaha omgsh i love you. haha and yes now you're not going to fail :P haha but i'm going to be MAD distracted. haha and we have alton & calvin too haha so joax writing in alton's agenda and "I stand on a chair" haha classic. My teacher is awesome. She's so nice, so cool : ) haha

so i have awesome classes : ) God is good. what more could i ask for?

so summer is officially over. some good times this summer : ) so here are some pictures that sums up my summer...basically...missing the times @ wonderland :P haha

bbq @ gdon's for alton


VBC






Mel's house : )








Softball








CCSA Banquet












Grad Night


















I <3ed this summer : ) good times.

summer's greatest lesson

so...it's the last weekend of summer, the second last day before the final year of highschool starts and i'm sitting here thinking about the question my dear friend Cheryl Li asked me on tuesday.

What was biggest lesson this summer?

This summer I must say, has been different. There's been some happy times and some times where I just want to crawl in my bed and cry. There's been times where i laughed so hard my face hurt and times where I just don't want to face reality. This summer, I must say has been filled with lessons as well as blessings beyond belief. I thank God for allowing me to wake up every morning and know that there is a purpose for each day. So I've learned two VERY important things this summer.

Love
This word brings up so many emotions. Pain. Joy. Disappointment. Confusion. Growth. Satisifaction.
I've learned that love really isn't as easy as I thought it was. Love takes so much more than just three words to show someone you love them. This past summer, my grandfather passed away and as much as I loved him, I never felt that I loved him enough. After he died, i felt guilty that I guess I never spent as much time with him as I should have. For a time, I felt a huge amount of regret overcome me, of things I wish I did. I guess I never really knew how much I loved him until his funeral and I jus cried my eyes out, realizing how much he loved me and truly how proud of me he was. Grandparents, my grandparents anyways, sometimes don't know how to show how much they love you. But I realized that every smile, every laugh, or just that simple look on his face when he was able to go out to eat or see the whole family together, that memory is enough to put a smile on my face.

I also learned that I'm so afraid to love. It's true. After what happened last summer, I've been so scared to love, so scared of hurting somebody. And yet that fear is the very thing that got me into a mess because as much as I'm scared to love, I want to love. to the point where I no longer knew where my border was. I learned that loving an imperfect person is hard but heck that's what love is right? otherwise it'll be darn easy. I learned love can be disappointing but at the same time can be so amazing because it can make someone do crazy things. Before the summer, one of my counsellors told me that my view of love was very immature, that view of love being that it can create a lot of pain. But this summer allowed me to see those amazing, selfless parts of love, those unforgetable moments that are forever irreplaceable. So thank you.

I am also amazed by the fact that God could love a person like me.

Time
I learned that time doesn't wait for you. You want to do something? GO DO IT. ha i should follow my own advice shouldn't i. This summer, i learned to cherish EVERYTHING from a simple lunch to amazing chillage with people. From family dinnners to joax at the mall. I realized that every moment counts and everything is equal. Everything I do is going to count for eternity. EVERYTHING. So even when I feel like nobody is watching me, God is. So why not make the most out of my time? and do everything with a smile : )

so yes that is my blog for today. If you read it, congratulations because it's SO long. haha