after fellowship

okay so im still angry...(If you don't know why, you need to read the post before)

and it's now at the fact that i cant go. Yea it sucks. it sucks to constantly let people down and it sucks to constantly be let down. *sigh

i don't know...my parents actually sat down and talked to me about my schedule & stuffs after fellowship. it was a pain. I looked at my calendar...and iuno.

I really wanted to go. I was looking forward to it all week. and now... *sigh maybe it's God's will.

I don't know...either way i have to accept it right? Sorry guys. I know im a failure lolz as darren tsang puts it.

SO instead of my weekend being mainly softball and waterloo

it is NOW: softball, homework, family gathering

i'd prefer the first one....but *sigh. agnes is tired now...

tired from school...tired from sleeping @ 12...tired from crying.

let's hope tomorrow softball will cheer me up

talking to mel, jon, grace and andy did a little good :) thanks guys <3

edit** haha copying sharon now...know what im also upset about? the fact that my dad tells me it's not a big deal and i can go another time..Here's my question....why should i think he's going to let me go next time if he wont let me go this time? He said i can go when i can drive...yea what makes me think he'll let me drive all the way to loo? At this rate...i'll never be able to go visit the loo-erssss