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haha k FINALLY time to tell all about my weekend.

Saturday
hehe so i spent my ACTUAL birthday doing homework. i know...im a nerd. haha don't be jealous haha and i went to bible olympics. hehe that was fun. and i got a surprise at my door =) hehe thanks

Sunday
k so this was like greatest day ever. haha umm. i was out from like....9:30-6:30. hehe exciting. went to church and Sunday school was pretty good =) haha pastor lou is oh so smart. hehe and kitty was also very smart and helpful that day =) unlike my other undecisive friends =P haha so we decided to go out for lunch to pickle barrel. =) it was yummy. i had some spanish rice thing...it was HUGE. haha it was sooo funny that day =) highlights.

• darren wanting to order...breakfast =/ u're weird
• issy's goal was to scream across the other table =) hahaha k i TOTALLY failed at telling that story
• jimmy eating jam...was he really THAT hungry?
  
• then kenneth eating...honey? what WAS he eating?
  
• me getting "tipsy" over ellena's cocktail HAHA I WAS NOT TIPSY
• jason's smile
• me and issy getting soo high.
  
• taking pictures =) that's always fun.
  

hehe then we went to see the prestige =) ahha it's soooo PSYCHOTIC. and darren is now officially obsessed =/ he thinks he's a magician...he calls himself the great danton. scared. haha and he's in electrical engineering. ahha he's going to build some wacked up machine to replicate things. scaryyyy haha it was so intense. HAHA and a birdie died! and this little boy was crying. i was like...awww the birdie dieddd. it was sad =( then i screamed twice. haha in unison with kitty. we're cool =)

that is all.

so i did my physics test today. not so bad =) haha i now have the motivation to work. i just needed a little push. a little break from it all
hehe cant wait to PA day when i can finally have a day...to watch movies. HAHA i have soo many new ones @ home =P so many cartoonsss yayyyyyy ^^ hehehe

so as for picturesss here is a preview =)


me & bellaaa


jc, issy, & i


jason, eric & i


hahahaha kissyyy


HAHA i LOVE this picture.


hahaa lookie issy and mike =P


kitty, cheryl, & i =)


he's very hungry. lol.


now he wants to eat me haha


jimmy & i

hehe k and for the rest of them...
go here: http://www.imagestation.com/6611360/3958638334

friday night : )

Finally 17 =)

haha last night was soo joax. aww man house parties RULE. ahha so i get there and jane and dwiny are already there. dwiny was there first...AMAZING. haha and they were playing so old school old school game. SOO old school. haha but it was so funny. then we were watching i not stupid..that singapore movie : ) ehhe i love it. haha Terryy!! ahha =P when kenny's done with the second one, i want it! haha so me & jane were watching the movie and laughing. then we got too hungry to watch LOL. so we ate a little. freak by the time my mom came with food, we were too starved and ate all the other food already. haha so we weren't as hungry. haha but yesterday was TOTAL joax. watching friends during dinner. haha and being entertained by nat's hamster. hehe i love it =) soo cute. i love bebe.

i had a good time talking to bev last night :) see hun u said we never talk haha we ended up talking last night :) hehe it felt nice. haha everyone is yelling downstairs and we're upstairs in nat's room all dark and talking. : ) ahha then dwiny comes in. HAHA and bev goes to the bathroom and doesnt close the door LMAO. AHHA edwin's like..I CAN SEE YOU IN THE MIRROR! haha joax joax. then haha edwin tells us bout hte time where he was singing jenny from the block LMAO! hahahaha edwin singing jenny from the block HAHAHAHA aww man. soo joax. then we went downstairs and i played a little piano...played ddr AHHA so joax when gordon and calvin plays. AHHA calvin like..rolls up his pants and gordon dances in a circle HAHAH he SPINS. LMAO soo joax. aww man. and camy is so light that the mat doesnt detect her HAHA or so tuntun said. when we were taking group pictures hahaha so joax. haha omgsh alton sat on my face! FREAK haha eh was going to punch nat jeh i think and he jus slides down and sat on my face. im like..OMGSH ALTON'S BUTT IS IN MY FACE! haha eww so grossssssss a moment i will DEFINATELY NOT forget (sadly)

haha we had cake : ) hehe it was sooo yummyyy THANK YOU GORDON :) hehe then after, we went to go lie in nat's room, typical tradition. haha the let's all go sleep on the floor, bed, and chairs of nat jeh's room AHHA and count the stars on her ceiling. ahha and gordon took the pillow away from me : ( poooo. ahha and me & jane were laughing @ EVERYTHING. haha and i got money for my goat :) hehe thanks guysss :) and ppl started leaving. haha ohh and can't forget about the joax conversation with me, jane, gordon, calvin & monique about SJM people. AHHAAA aww man. good times.

THANK YOU
thanks trisia, bev, jason, dickson, dwin, camy, alton, kenny, calvin, jon ng, carole, davis, monique, gordon for comingg :) hehe
thanks to my daughter for her awesome note haha
thanks everyone for the money : )
thanks jc for first one to call me @ 12am haha
thanks carole for calling me SECOND :P haha at 12:01am
thanks mel : ) haha first txt! at 12
thanks freddy for the ecard
thanks jc for ur presents :) hehe love them
thanks to my bestest girls : ) hehe u guys made last night AMAZING

thanks everyone :) lots more to go. haha

pictures coming soon :)

post about today later.

hehe

im glad we're cool again :)

hehe im so excited for next weekend!

and i bought presents for other people today...well this whole weekend..and i actually found stuff! in like..two hours. pretty good man. haha i felt very proud of myself. :) productive shopping.

hehe and im finally pmsing :P AHAHA so im not randomly angry anymore! :)

k im a little weird. back to biology!

so i decided...

this year for my birthday...i want to buy a goat for those families on the other side of the world : )

i was talking to my parents about poverty during dinner today and i honestly almost cried.

so time to do something about it!

so i found the chinese version of the world vision christmas catalogue and asked my mom if we could buy a cow. Then she was like...see this is why you shouldn't have bought your ipod. i was like..that's true...then my dad was like..why don't you get your friends to buy a cow as a present for your birthday?

so i said...YEA!

so no more wanting stuff for myself.

time go give give give.

time to buy some people a goat.

hehe excited.

wow...

This weekend had a lot of hitting going on. Lots of yelling from God. not like..angry yelling. more like.."wake up" yelling.
So Friday was Missions Night and God really really spoke to me. What Pastor Lou said that night I will never forget. When talking about missions, he said

The question is not whether or not you're ready. I'm sure all missionaries weren't ready. The question is ARE YOU WILLING? If you are willing, God will automatically be ready and He will make you ready.

that night was kind of like...a nudge at the heart. Throughout this week, this question echoes in my head. are you willing?

so i stand....emptyhanded...filled with fear...but more filled with love and faith...and say.

Here I am Lord.

Use me.



I never really truly understood God's love until today. I mean...I guess I'll never fully understand why He would die for someone like me but I got a totally different meaning out of it today at Sunday school.

"This is love: not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins." - 1 John 4:10

I learned today that we are incapable of loving God. It's called total depravity. Love is when we have nothing to offer God and YET he still loves us. We are incapable because we are useless to God. kinda hit me like a ton of bricks.

God who is SO BIG loves us, even though He doesn't get anything out of it.

That is love. It REALLY doesn't get better than this.