muckiness

so today started out okay. I mean sure i was tired, but the sun was out haha for once this week...honestly the weather's been bleh all week. then things didn't go so well..

i got my math test back...88%..yea yea i know 88 is good...but considering i was getting like..97, it's going to totally drop my mark : ( made me kind of upset...but then i got over it. And i was so tired....during choir i was hungry AND tired so DOUBLE WHAMMY and my tummy hurt : ( oh it wasn't fun. But i have my girls nat & jane 2 cheer me up lolz i love my bear daughter and my cat.
....so those things...no big deal, i get over them. *sigh then during dinnertime, that's when this day went bad. near the end of dinner, my mommy told me that her hand was starting to get numb. Apparently, her muscle near her shoulder is always tense and it's been like that for a few years. And now it's getting so tense to the point where her hands are starting to feel numb..like all the time...and that's kind of scary...and she was just talking about how she works so much and what not that she's always tense and like...stressed and what not.

So after dinner, as i sit there, doing my math homework, i figured, i could always go and do the dishes and what not. So i go and tell her that i could do the dishes tonight and she said, "One day of dishes isn't going to help. If you did it everyday, maybe it will" . ouch. that hurt. I mean i was only trying to help. But i guess she was really upset so she told me to go back and do my work. And then my dad came home from bringing my brother to scouts...*sigh...then they fought. And it hurts...actually it SUCKS seeing my mom like this, seeing her feel so misunderstood and just so...weary and not knowing how to fix it. and it's hard because my mom is the kind of person that always thinks about others before herself. No matter how stressed and tired she is, she'll still be doing the things she does. so it hurts even more to know that she's in this condition because of doing stuff for my family. so now what?

well i went up and prayed and cried and it's amazing how God is constantly there to listen. so now what?

I dont know...i guess i'll pray some more.