okay so im in comm tech...and i just finished my bio test. It was okay i guess..i don't know....im scared : ( i need these grades man. needa pull it up to like...a 95 before exams cuz i know im going to drop after exams.
okay i've gone through half of the week and...survived.
I survived...i'm so surprised. so you know that long list of stuff i had to do...well here's what's left.
Math Test next period
Religion ISP essay due friday
Pig dissection package due friday
Comm tech careers package due tomorrow
i believe that is it...
i've gone through half of my stuff
how amazing is that : )
Praise the Lord for He is faithful and carries us through
a few more days to go...then iuno..nothing for next week so far....i REALLY hope there's no homework this weekend....that's not going to happen. haha
okay posting HOPE pictures tomorrow..just for u trisiaaaaaa : P <3
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Saturday, May 27, 2006
sunshine makes me happy : )
so eggie survived her saturday through the grace of her amazing Father. eggie woke up at 8 in the morning and watch family shows and did homework. Then she went out and played softball : ) which was fun haha man i hafn't played in a while. and during practice, i sadly had to break it to pretty barry that...he wasn't very pretty. BUT i did love your flower : ) and andy told me to practice softball in my head for the past few weekends :P because i'm not allowed to go to softball until exams are over : ( which is june 23.
Then agnes went to car wash : ) which was awesome. a huge success and i had tonz of fun.
but agnes came home with a sunburn..that doesnt hurt =/ lolz. so yes
and agnes finished her website and all the writeup for bio cpt : )
agnes feels like a champ
actually no..God is a champ for carrying me through : )
and it's so hot...totally the weather to wear skirts : ) yayy skirt and sandals season! im excited haha
OH and i watched my first episode of captain planet today! AHHA it's so old school
Then agnes went to car wash : ) which was awesome. a huge success and i had tonz of fun.
but agnes came home with a sunburn..that doesnt hurt =/ lolz. so yes
and agnes finished her website and all the writeup for bio cpt : )
agnes feels like a champ
actually no..God is a champ for carrying me through : )
and it's so hot...totally the weather to wear skirts : ) yayy skirt and sandals season! im excited haha
OH and i watched my first episode of captain planet today! AHHA it's so old school
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
eggie is...
tired
hungry
confused
overthinking
unmotivated
being made fun of : (
looking forward to summer
excited for school to end
excited for softball this saturday
learning that God gives and takes away and that He NEVER leaves
doing well in school : )
loving the sun (finally) this week
so the good overweighs the bad : )
and that my friends is what keeps me going
tired
hungry
confused
overthinking
unmotivated
being made fun of : (
looking forward to summer
excited for school to end
excited for softball this saturday
learning that God gives and takes away and that He NEVER leaves
doing well in school : )
loving the sun (finally) this week
so the good overweighs the bad : )
and that my friends is what keeps me going
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
victoria weekend
so yesterday was the last day of victoria weekend. I've waited for this weekend for AGES. haha well like...two weeks ever since the end of my PA day at the beginning of may. SO yea : ) it was fun. I am satisified. Got some work done, got to chill with peeeps :) it felt nice. So recap time!
Friday
Cell group night :) it was fun, chilling with Melody Ng :) and flying in the mall hahahhaa i love little kids hhaa so joax mel while everybody was running around fillin out the scavenger hunt It turned out alright : ) i hope people bonded and i think pat and bev had fun : ) haha yayyersss. AHAH soo joax with bev after haha "maybe if we peek into the kitchen enuf times, they'll give us food" hahaha soo high omgsh! haha and yes i am beverly's mother : ) hehe and bev being a pig stole waffles from eric's group haha soo joax Friday was fun : )
Saturday
guitar lessons with JW at 11:00 : ) im getting betterrrr i can tell haha i feel happy : ) haha but bar cords : ( i cant do bar cords..oh well more practicing. haha my fingers have blisters haha so not fun haha it's okayyy it's worth it. Then i went home ate lunch..then DA VINCI CODE! haha omgsh we shouldn't have watched with like...three girls hahahhaa soo freaky! haha me and jane SCREAMED! haha that movie was quite disturbing. but it was fascinating too..kinda weird....and stuffs so yea. haha it was pretty good though. I gotta go reread the book becuase i forgot most of the stuff lolz
Sunday
Went to church, silas ditched us for sunday school haha took pictures with mike and issyy haha then after sunday school, talked with my friendsss haha and darren took a picture of his mouth on my fone..so now my background is...darren's mouth. haha and the more i look at it, the more it looks like his mouth haha darn you darren tsang haha and when i first look at it i thought they were lights. lolz then...at night..JFOK's SURPRISE BIRTHDAY THING : ) haha that was fun haha soo joax haha we shouldn't have put the streamers there though. haha but it was fun : ) i had fun haha i won one game of super smash bros against cy, eric & jon. hahaa yayyy :) im a champ haha one game was all i needed. haha made me feel happy haha and there was soo much foodd omgshhh soo good thank you auntie irene! haha so much meat...and veggies and fruits : ) haha i hadn't eaten that much in a very very long time haha it was good though. haha then had jason's cake : ) hehe it was good :) i like mango moose. then tim laughed @ me for thinking wedges and wedgies were the same thing : ( haha and yea : ) it was fun in general. i played gtar a little bit after watching family guy haha i had fun : ) hehe
so yes that is my weekend time to go finish studying the circulatory system. yay exciting
Friday
Cell group night :) it was fun, chilling with Melody Ng :) and flying in the mall hahahhaa i love little kids hhaa so joax mel while everybody was running around fillin out the scavenger hunt It turned out alright : ) i hope people bonded and i think pat and bev had fun : ) haha yayyersss. AHAH soo joax with bev after haha "maybe if we peek into the kitchen enuf times, they'll give us food" hahaha soo high omgsh! haha and yes i am beverly's mother : ) hehe and bev being a pig stole waffles from eric's group haha soo joax Friday was fun : )
Saturday
guitar lessons with JW at 11:00 : ) im getting betterrrr i can tell haha i feel happy : ) haha but bar cords : ( i cant do bar cords..oh well more practicing. haha my fingers have blisters haha so not fun haha it's okayyy it's worth it. Then i went home ate lunch..then DA VINCI CODE! haha omgsh we shouldn't have watched with like...three girls hahahhaa soo freaky! haha me and jane SCREAMED! haha that movie was quite disturbing. but it was fascinating too..kinda weird....and stuffs so yea. haha it was pretty good though. I gotta go reread the book becuase i forgot most of the stuff lolz
Sunday
Went to church, silas ditched us for sunday school haha took pictures with mike and issyy haha then after sunday school, talked with my friendsss haha and darren took a picture of his mouth on my fone..so now my background is...darren's mouth. haha and the more i look at it, the more it looks like his mouth haha darn you darren tsang haha and when i first look at it i thought they were lights. lolz then...at night..JFOK's SURPRISE BIRTHDAY THING : ) haha that was fun haha soo joax haha we shouldn't have put the streamers there though. haha but it was fun : ) i had fun haha i won one game of super smash bros against cy, eric & jon. hahaa yayyy :) im a champ haha one game was all i needed. haha made me feel happy haha and there was soo much foodd omgshhh soo good thank you auntie irene! haha so much meat...and veggies and fruits : ) haha i hadn't eaten that much in a very very long time haha it was good though. haha then had jason's cake : ) hehe it was good :) i like mango moose. then tim laughed @ me for thinking wedges and wedgies were the same thing : ( haha and yea : ) it was fun in general. i played gtar a little bit after watching family guy haha i had fun : ) hehe
so yes that is my weekend time to go finish studying the circulatory system. yay exciting
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
muckiness
so today started out okay. I mean sure i was tired, but the sun was out haha for once this week...honestly the weather's been bleh all week. then things didn't go so well..
i got my math test back...88%..yea yea i know 88 is good...but considering i was getting like..97, it's going to totally drop my mark : ( made me kind of upset...but then i got over it. And i was so tired....during choir i was hungry AND tired so DOUBLE WHAMMY and my tummy hurt : ( oh it wasn't fun. But i have my girls nat & jane 2 cheer me up lolz i love my bear daughter and my cat.
....so those things...no big deal, i get over them. *sigh then during dinnertime, that's when this day went bad. near the end of dinner, my mommy told me that her hand was starting to get numb. Apparently, her muscle near her shoulder is always tense and it's been like that for a few years. And now it's getting so tense to the point where her hands are starting to feel numb..like all the time...and that's kind of scary...and she was just talking about how she works so much and what not that she's always tense and like...stressed and what not.
So after dinner, as i sit there, doing my math homework, i figured, i could always go and do the dishes and what not. So i go and tell her that i could do the dishes tonight and she said, "One day of dishes isn't going to help. If you did it everyday, maybe it will" . ouch. that hurt. I mean i was only trying to help. But i guess she was really upset so she told me to go back and do my work. And then my dad came home from bringing my brother to scouts...*sigh...then they fought. And it hurts...actually it SUCKS seeing my mom like this, seeing her feel so misunderstood and just so...weary and not knowing how to fix it. and it's hard because my mom is the kind of person that always thinks about others before herself. No matter how stressed and tired she is, she'll still be doing the things she does. so it hurts even more to know that she's in this condition because of doing stuff for my family. so now what?
well i went up and prayed and cried and it's amazing how God is constantly there to listen. so now what?
I dont know...i guess i'll pray some more.
i got my math test back...88%..yea yea i know 88 is good...but considering i was getting like..97, it's going to totally drop my mark : ( made me kind of upset...but then i got over it. And i was so tired....during choir i was hungry AND tired so DOUBLE WHAMMY and my tummy hurt : ( oh it wasn't fun. But i have my girls nat & jane 2 cheer me up lolz i love my bear daughter and my cat.
....so those things...no big deal, i get over them. *sigh then during dinnertime, that's when this day went bad. near the end of dinner, my mommy told me that her hand was starting to get numb. Apparently, her muscle near her shoulder is always tense and it's been like that for a few years. And now it's getting so tense to the point where her hands are starting to feel numb..like all the time...and that's kind of scary...and she was just talking about how she works so much and what not that she's always tense and like...stressed and what not.
So after dinner, as i sit there, doing my math homework, i figured, i could always go and do the dishes and what not. So i go and tell her that i could do the dishes tonight and she said, "One day of dishes isn't going to help. If you did it everyday, maybe it will" . ouch. that hurt. I mean i was only trying to help. But i guess she was really upset so she told me to go back and do my work. And then my dad came home from bringing my brother to scouts...*sigh...then they fought. And it hurts...actually it SUCKS seeing my mom like this, seeing her feel so misunderstood and just so...weary and not knowing how to fix it. and it's hard because my mom is the kind of person that always thinks about others before herself. No matter how stressed and tired she is, she'll still be doing the things she does. so it hurts even more to know that she's in this condition because of doing stuff for my family. so now what?
well i went up and prayed and cried and it's amazing how God is constantly there to listen. so now what?
I dont know...i guess i'll pray some more.
Sunday, May 14, 2006
why stress?
stress...
it kills people doesn't it.
people seemed to be amazed at the times where i just...stay calm when i have billion things to do.
I think I've come...to a realization that I'm not doing everything for myself anymore. I mean yea my future depends on my marks...but im getting good grades for God. I mean He doesn't need them. But i'm doing it for Him, knowing that He gave me an opportunity to even go to school as much as it is a drag sometimes. When it's no longer about me...no longer about...what's going to happen to me and all about how this is going to praise Him, I automaticaly do my best knowing that that's what He deserves.
So breathe...take a moment away from all that work, all those projects, problems
and pray. and put it all in His hands
because I mean stressing is just what Satan wants us to do. Not trust in God. Not have faith in Him that we'll be carried through it. Don't fall into that trap. I know i've fell into too many times. It's like these holes you keep falling into. You gotta learn to walk AROUND them.
breathe. pray. and smile : )
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. - Proverbs 3:5
it kills people doesn't it.
people seemed to be amazed at the times where i just...stay calm when i have billion things to do.
I think I've come...to a realization that I'm not doing everything for myself anymore. I mean yea my future depends on my marks...but im getting good grades for God. I mean He doesn't need them. But i'm doing it for Him, knowing that He gave me an opportunity to even go to school as much as it is a drag sometimes. When it's no longer about me...no longer about...what's going to happen to me and all about how this is going to praise Him, I automaticaly do my best knowing that that's what He deserves.
So breathe...take a moment away from all that work, all those projects, problems
and pray. and put it all in His hands
because I mean stressing is just what Satan wants us to do. Not trust in God. Not have faith in Him that we'll be carried through it. Don't fall into that trap. I know i've fell into too many times. It's like these holes you keep falling into. You gotta learn to walk AROUND them.
breathe. pray. and smile : )
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. - Proverbs 3:5
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
The Father's embrace
okay so edit. haha just like how sharon does with her posts :P lol Yesterday was a horrible day...and i mean it was horrible for many reasons:
a) none of my teachers were here and my tests and stuffs got moved which totally ruins schedule
b) i broke three guitar strings while TUNING people usually break their's playing..i broke mine tuning :( so sad
c) i no longer had motivation to do anything in life...starting to fall apart
d) and finally...im just tired...so tired
and i couldn't take it anymore. I mean...meetings after meetings...people after people coming to me asking for help. And how can i say no? love others right? But...there comes to a point...where you do it out of...just doing it...the purpose is lost...it becomes meaningless...And last night...i found out just how depressing and dangerous that could be.
Last night, I no longer had the motivation to do anything. I felt like...i was just going through this day, wishing it would end. And i have friends who say, "What's wrong?" or "Is there anything I can do?" ..Truth..there wasn't anything anyone could do...because the only thing I needed...was God. and then people at school go, "omgsh agnes is so spiritual" It has nothing to do with being spiritual. It has everything to do with focus, the thirst of wanting to be found, to be embraced, to talk to someone who is CONSTANTLY there and knows EXACTLY what is going on.
GOD
And how amazing He truly is. As i said, i couldn't do any work and so i decided to go upstairs at 10 because I knew unless I fixed things up with God, nothing else will be fixed. It's kinda weird...it's like...when I fall away from Him, everything crumbles. I mean at first, it seems okay, then slowly, things start to just..die. And so i sat in my room last night...crying...praying...well crying while praying. And for the first time in a VERY LONG time..i prayed...a genuine prayer, pleading for His strength, confessing that I'm so weak and so confused and just SO tired. And people are like..oh crying solves nothing....but crying to God...solves everything. and i mean EVERYTHING. After a good half an hour of tearful prayer, I felt better. Not just like..oh better for a day...but not alone, embraced by my awesome and faithful Father. And that was it. All it took for me to come back again, all it took for me to feel content, happy. It's funny...reminded of that Rob Bell video this morning...about how when we mourn, that's when God can hold us the closest.
And last night, I felt the embrace of my Father : )
a) none of my teachers were here and my tests and stuffs got moved which totally ruins schedule
b) i broke three guitar strings while TUNING people usually break their's playing..i broke mine tuning :( so sad
c) i no longer had motivation to do anything in life...starting to fall apart
d) and finally...im just tired...so tired
and i couldn't take it anymore. I mean...meetings after meetings...people after people coming to me asking for help. And how can i say no? love others right? But...there comes to a point...where you do it out of...just doing it...the purpose is lost...it becomes meaningless...And last night...i found out just how depressing and dangerous that could be.
Last night, I no longer had the motivation to do anything. I felt like...i was just going through this day, wishing it would end. And i have friends who say, "What's wrong?" or "Is there anything I can do?" ..Truth..there wasn't anything anyone could do...because the only thing I needed...was God. and then people at school go, "omgsh agnes is so spiritual" It has nothing to do with being spiritual. It has everything to do with focus, the thirst of wanting to be found, to be embraced, to talk to someone who is CONSTANTLY there and knows EXACTLY what is going on.
GOD
And how amazing He truly is. As i said, i couldn't do any work and so i decided to go upstairs at 10 because I knew unless I fixed things up with God, nothing else will be fixed. It's kinda weird...it's like...when I fall away from Him, everything crumbles. I mean at first, it seems okay, then slowly, things start to just..die. And so i sat in my room last night...crying...praying...well crying while praying. And for the first time in a VERY LONG time..i prayed...a genuine prayer, pleading for His strength, confessing that I'm so weak and so confused and just SO tired. And people are like..oh crying solves nothing....but crying to God...solves everything. and i mean EVERYTHING. After a good half an hour of tearful prayer, I felt better. Not just like..oh better for a day...but not alone, embraced by my awesome and faithful Father. And that was it. All it took for me to come back again, all it took for me to feel content, happy. It's funny...reminded of that Rob Bell video this morning...about how when we mourn, that's when God can hold us the closest.
And last night, I felt the embrace of my Father : )
Monday, May 08, 2006
Saturday, May 06, 2006
abc...it's easy as 123
okay so update from my last post...i wrote my mom a note that morning..and everything turned out okay! :) so yessss
anywhoosss PA day yesterday :) haha nat and jane came over and we ddr-ed haha soo joax and we watched a lil of high school musical haha it was fun haha soo joax jane looks like she wants to fly when she ddrs haaha then bible study...went alright i guess...just needing a lito more concentration. but thanks Ivan for leading most of it! :)
This morning..i had guitar lessons with JW : ) haha yayy and i have a guitar too! thanks liann and anita! : ) and JW's story was soo cool!!!! :) PTL
so i drove to insurance class today which was all the way in scarbrough and i survived! i drove back too! it wasnt THAT bad i guess..but now im tired. and i cant go bbq @ JC's house again this week because..well agnes has a religion test monday then a math and bio test tuesday : (
oh so sad
cabby meeting tomorrow :) k back 2 nerdinggg
anywhoosss PA day yesterday :) haha nat and jane came over and we ddr-ed haha soo joax and we watched a lil of high school musical haha it was fun haha soo joax jane looks like she wants to fly when she ddrs haaha then bible study...went alright i guess...just needing a lito more concentration. but thanks Ivan for leading most of it! :)
This morning..i had guitar lessons with JW : ) haha yayy and i have a guitar too! thanks liann and anita! : ) and JW's story was soo cool!!!! :) PTL
so i drove to insurance class today which was all the way in scarbrough and i survived! i drove back too! it wasnt THAT bad i guess..but now im tired. and i cant go bbq @ JC's house again this week because..well agnes has a religion test monday then a math and bio test tuesday : (
oh so sad
cabby meeting tomorrow :) k back 2 nerdinggg
Thursday, May 04, 2006
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*sigh...so much on my mind...it's not always easy dealing with your parents
so what happened was...two nights ago...i had a lot of bio homework and i was very fustrated..so my mom came in and asked if i wanted help. So willingly i said yes. When she was doing it, i was getting just...angry because I just didn't care anymore. My homework was SOO stupid! my teacher PURPOSELY whited out words for us to fill in....like..WHAT?!??!!? so retarded...so i got really pissed off...and i kind of ended up giving my mom attitude. Then she got angry and she was like...just because you're angry at your teacher doesnt mean you have to show it to me. And she got really angry...and it was like..11:30 at night. So the next day..she decided....to not talk to me so i haven't talk to my mom for 24 hours :( And she wont until i say sorry and i dont know how to because im scared because she's so angry. *sigh and then i'm giong to end up crying again...gosh..couldnt work last night because of it all in my mind.
*sigh i hope everything goes better today
so what happened was...two nights ago...i had a lot of bio homework and i was very fustrated..so my mom came in and asked if i wanted help. So willingly i said yes. When she was doing it, i was getting just...angry because I just didn't care anymore. My homework was SOO stupid! my teacher PURPOSELY whited out words for us to fill in....like..WHAT?!??!!? so retarded...so i got really pissed off...and i kind of ended up giving my mom attitude. Then she got angry and she was like...just because you're angry at your teacher doesnt mean you have to show it to me. And she got really angry...and it was like..11:30 at night. So the next day..she decided....to not talk to me so i haven't talk to my mom for 24 hours :( And she wont until i say sorry and i dont know how to because im scared because she's so angry. *sigh and then i'm giong to end up crying again...gosh..couldnt work last night because of it all in my mind.
*sigh i hope everything goes better today
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