keep smilin

i am...
very tired
sick
fustrated
stressed
confused
worried

BUT
i'm still smiling
God is still providing

Praising Him in the storm :)

no more posting till exams r done (Jan 30th) until then... :)

stressed..yet blessed

wow...

these past two days have just been...chaos. What happens when you don't trust in God and when you don't believe in yourself. *sigh finally broke down and cried yesterday becuase i felt like i couldn't do it anymore. I had so much to do, so much i want to do, so many expectations to follow and yet....so little time. I felt better after talking to people today and konw what i realized? yes i am stressed...yes school is hectic, yes school does suck very much when exams are two weeks away but you know what?

i'll get through it =) I just know it....when i draw strength from God i can do anything =) superwoman or as jon calls me, "supereggs" =) and becuase i am greatly blessed

I am blessed with...
the amazing emails from mel, jon & my cell group
the endless support from my friends
the support from my parents
the people who always tell me to never give up
the people who never gave up on me
a brother who knows i have a lot to do and does my chores without even asking =)
counsellors who are constantly praying for me and just being there
an amazing worship team to work with and just to be able to have a time where i could laugh
and finally...

and Faithful God who never ceases to amaze me...who continues to shower me with blessings beyond anything

reminder: God will never give you more than you can handle =) If He brought you in it, He can bring you THROUGH it =)

living testimony

Something interesting happened this week at school...so here goes

At the beginning of this new year, i prayed to God that He would show me a
way to shine His light because so many times, I felt like I wasn't doing
much. I felt like everybody else, nothing really different about me that
people could see. Amazingly He showed me a way, that was definately not
easy. The first day i came back to school, a friend of mine cracked a joke
about me taking my faith seriously and gave me the nickname of Nun Chung.
Yea heck i thought it was funny at first...I mean i didn't think it was a
big deal. Until things got a little out of hand. When i talk, when i do
things, people refer it to me being "nun-like", making fun of me for taking
my religion so seriously. And yes, you may think that it's okay because it's
my friends and i shouldn't take it seriously. But honestly, truthfully, it
hurts. It hurts when people make fun of something that means so much to you.
It hurts when people don't take you seriously anymore because you're not
like them, becuase you're "different" It annoys me, it makes me feel like
there's something wrong with me. I mean...who likes to be made fun of?
constantly too? It is this week that I realized that it was what I have
asked for. If you think about it, a normal person would fight back with
swearing and what not and telling the person to shutup. But I'm different. I
am a child of God. THAT makes all the difference. I found myself praying
more for guidance, for patience, for strength. And even in this situation, I
prayed for humility. It was hard for me and God knew that. But throughout
the week, the more i prayed, the more i was made fun of, the closer i felt
to God. It was pretty amazing. I mean sure it still hurts, but knowing that
I'm not alone in this makes me feel ten billion times better :)

We are living sacrifices, we are like...breathing walking testimonies. God is faithful regardless :) He provides

sunday fun =)

highlights of my Sunday

1) Darren making up melody's essay "Hi my name is Melody. Today I want to talk about friends. I have none."
2)jon lecturing me about hitting people ><"
3) hitting darren =) which is acceptable =P
4)going to wendy's with darren, jason, jon and cheryl and talking about mary-kate and ashley
5) talking to silas about worship stuff =P
6)talkin to jon while waiting for my brother =)

highlights of prestudy

1) warcraft: "noo why isn't it dying!" *frantically pressing button*
2)talking to stuffed animals
3)"the world is against you. Who do you trust?" "nobody?"
4)"jon wong do you sing to bsb songs?"
5)"jon dear...people talk to stuffed animals not burgers"
6)"what did you talk about for bible study?" "lumps"

haha =) good way to end the holiday
missing all of you back in university

your grace is enough

i was watching 7:22 tonight...and there was this one thing that the worship leader...not steve fee...another worship leader...and he said one thing....he said, "Regardless of how you came in this room, through this door, we were all born in a messed-up state, and we have a great God who gave His awesome son Jesus to be the payment for our mess, not just the kind of remedy the situation a little bit, but to give us life that is forever and eternal. If you're here tonight with this burden and you think you can't measure up to God, you can, because He gave us a way through His son and He took our punishment. And that's what we're about."

That made me realize something for fellowship, for church. That at the end of the week, it doesn't matter how you come into church, into fellowship, we were all in the same state. We go hungry for His love, a night with His people to worship Him. When we go into church and worship, we become one. Differences don't matter anymore because we have one thing in common, each of us was saved.

Believing that Jesus died, that's history.
Believing that Jesus died for you, that's salvation.

Father, Your Grace is Enough

go check out 7:22
http://www.722.org/flash/722.html

happy new year

happity happity new yr =) or should i say...happy bday like gendi :P tonza fun at gendi's house last night =) yayyy =) haha good times just wanna say that this was an AMAZING year =) the good times..the bad times...the retarded times =) hehe i love you all thanks to all my amazing friends for making this yr...pretty darn amazing..haha and now im gonna elaborate...haha...kinda thanks everyone!

Eric - awesome listener, my boy girlfriend =P
Jon - putting up with my annoying whining and being incredibly awesome
Cyrus - the big brother i never had =P
Darren - my physics tutor with no shame or guilthaha =)
J. Fok - haha your amazing stories =P
M. Fok- being my favourite and hottest ah gor hahaha
Issy - the crazy girl who laughs 24/7
Candy - greatest advisor =)
Melody - stupidest flying person i know
Sharon - Orlando bloom obsessor
Jane - lil miss princess =P
Natalie - being retarded with me
Bev - haha the entertainment of my life
Kenny - giving me something/someone to laugh at
Alton - living in a Ziploc container
Hollie - my chem buddie and happy bday girl =)

And everybody else you know who you are =) i love you guys to bits! haha especially all you older people who i love so much =)

Best times in 2005

• softball
• kna cabby retreat
• winter retreat
• surprise bday parties (darren, jason, etc, etc)
  
• hanging out with uni ppl
  
• grad night
• doing worship w/ darren, jay, & mel
  
• haha joax in grade 10 haha with nat, jane & bev
• ahha retarded times at the park with my crew
• chilling with the church gang movies and what not
• ottawa trip
  

haha all so vague =P can't remember much...haha suffered from alzheimers =P haha kk that's all

i love you guys!

and most important

LOVING HIS GRACE AND BLESSINGS =) woot!