people say they care...but do they really? I mean you talk to them...they tell you they love you...then when you really need them...they're not there...they turn their back on you like they no longer care. I mean...I don't expect them to be there for me 24/7...that's asking quite a lot...but I mean..just once...i want you to show that you care...do you really care...or are you just using me...or hanging around me just because you think you gotta put up with me
*sigh...I've just been thinking...how so many times in my life I've changed, moving from one group to the next. And there are some friends..that are worth keeping forever...some people that you know will care and stick by your side no matter what. And I dunno...i guess sometimes people that i do care about...just seem to drift away...not sure why...but i miss them...not that i dun see them...just like..we don't talk as much...or whatever...not as close and stuff..
i know that God placed those people in my life for a reason...regardless of how annoying...or stoopid they are...and i guess i've been able to see that...people do matter...every single one of them..when you make fun of them....or wish something bad towards them..it's like..saying they don't deserve to live...dude..who are we to say that they are unworthy? honestly...I hear people at school saying that they hope somebody dies...or somebody breaks their leg or something..out of pure anger...and wut are you saying? that they shouldn't be living? that they're a waste of flesh and blood? it doesn't make sense....people are like..oh don't waste your breath or time talking to that person or what not...everybody is worth my time...it's a fact..it's not because i see things differently..it's a fact...and so you know what...i'm going to stick to that...I mean Jesus died for us when we were his enemies...when those he died for mocked him ...and we can't even give some sort of time to those who we think are just a little annoying? There's good in everyone...I know that...call me naive or whatever you want...but that's how i see it...and it helps..it really does...
....don't judge me if you don't know me
2 comments:
hey hunn....awww, what's wrong? don't think that people don't care, becuase i KNOW that there are people who love you to bits. sometimes it's a spiritual battle when someone isn't there for you right when you need them or God could be trying to show you something. i remember last summer there was a time where i really really needed someone to talk to yet every single friend who i could turn to was busy or not there at the moment. i cried out to God asking Him why and how He could let this happen yet at that moment, i realized something, God was there for me.
okay, i think i got off track there, but about this person who you think doesn't care. hmmm. remember, actions speak a lot louder than words. i'm just wondering, is this person a guy? sometimes it's hard to depend on a guy friend 24/7 even though you can get really close sometimes. maybe this person isn't dependable enough for you even though you want them to be.
i totally understand what you mean when you said you have friends who just drift away, like they're there, but things aren't the same so it really feels like they aren't there. i've learned that things change even if you may not want them to. continue to look forward and press on towards the future and aim to make that as best as you can.
as well, i agree with what you saying that nobody is not worth your time. [double negative there hahaha] you're right how it's different people's perspective on things and i really admire the one you have for those who may not be the most desirable to hang around. God does want us to love our enemies no matter how annoying or mean they may get because He did create them making them His creation and we all know that God don't make no junk! you aren't naive, actually, you're more mature than many of those around you. i personally don't think you should stop hanging around them just cuz they're a certain way although making them your best friend could be a bit extreme.
you are one awesome lil' girl, you know that?! keep it up and continue staying strong in your faith. if you ever need to talk, call me, and i'm usually around. i don't wanna say i'm there 24/7, cuz i'm not, but i do want to be here for all my friends.
side note here: our coffeehouse is next week, it would be awesome if you and Candie could come and visit! lemme know alrightie?
okay, i gotta get back to my work.
much love,
your SIC
-toRi;
i love you toriii :)
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