for 3ternity

today sermon PJ was talking about our purpose right? and there was something he said that was sooo true...he said that compared to eternity, our life on earth is like a weekend vacation. Sometimes we tend to get all settled in and make sure everything is comfortable and all, but in the end, you're gonna have to leave anyways and in the end, none of it will matter. And it's so true to our lives. I mean so many times I make big deal outta things that really don't matter. Many times we sit there making sure we're happy, making sure we're living life to the fullest. But are those deeds that you see as fullest really pleasing to God? I mean we can just sit there and let the time go by, thinking we're bored and have nothing else better to do...but every minute counts, why not do something that will count for ETERNITY. I mean yes it's exam week..and yes ppl are stressed..and yes ppl wannna get good marks...But i really don't think God cares whether you get a 70 or a 90 on that exam. Sure, He might care how HARD you TRY but in the end, it doesn't really matter becuase it doesn't count for eternity. But instead..try doing something that would count..like praising Him, spreading His Word, praying, doing devos, things like that =) things that are perfect and pleasing in HIS eyes. so what you waiting for? go out there and SERVE THE LORD! =) haha
and don't worry about exams THAT much
it's not the end of the world if u dun get the mark u want to

later days~

carrying the cross

http://www.donghaeng.net/english/cross.htm

i came across this the other day...and just made me think...i mean...we can be like that too..a lot of times...almost giving up...wanting God to give us less problems..less loads so that we can take the shortcut, get there easier. There are times where it seems like our load we can never carry alone..but WE ARE NOT ALONE!...I mean...it may be hard to see God in the bad times...because there are times when I wonder why God is letting this happen you know? but I've come to learn that even my limits, my load, my burdens are a blessing too...because God is testing me, testing my faith, allowing me to live and grow stronger. =) and that's the beauty of it. You always get something better in the end =) hehe but yea =) remember this:

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. (1 Corinthians 10:13)

people who don't really care

you know what...you tell me you care...you call me your best friend..HA! you're really funny..u know what..sometimes you're just so selfish it bothers me soo much! like..honestly...I know i'm suppose to help you and stuff expecting nothing in return..and i do..but when you only care about yourself and just don't care about me..this one way relationship..i wonder if you're even a friend...honestly..and u know what? i really don't care if u read this..because maybe you just need to know the truth...u think i'm joking all the time..sometimes i just aint..i still care...but just yea..simplest things that jus build up..

blessed

It's hard to be thankful for things when you're in the spiritual desert. There are just times where it feels like there is nothing to be thankful of. Sometimes we are so into our little problems we tend to forget the little beauties around us. It's hard, to be thankful all the time, but that's what i gotta learn to do more of. Lately, I've been complaining a lot...mainly on school..and well...for Bible study on friday, Jess gave us all a challenge....try not to complain about your homework...i was like..aww man..that's hard...so let's see...i didn't complain on saturday..and i felt better...really complaining blinds you...from seeing the thinks you should be grateful for, things you may often take for granted. And well i took a lot of things for grated this past week...my friends, my family, and even God. I take for granted the fact that He blessed me with so much. I take for granted His everlasting love and mercy...but..u know what...this weekend..my friend was able to help me see...see those beauties in life...those little things that matter the most....those things...that we see everyday as normal, yet 3/4 of the people in the world don't have. The roof on your head, the food placed on your table, the clothes on your back, everything comes from God. And you know what? as many times as you have heard this..i think we all need a reminder once in a while...to see how beautiful life really is. I mean..we are truly blessed people...so yes =) i think this week is going to be better....i know i have a lot of work..but still...i mean..there are kids out there...in Ethopia and other 3rd world countries..who would love to be you, who would love to go to school..you & i are given the opportunity..and yes...homework may be a waste of time..but sooner or later.you gotta do it..so why not do it with a thankful heart?

-later dayz-

trusting people

Some people can just be really fake. As bad and mean as that may seem, it is also very true. I'm not saying you have to be totally transparent. But when you dislike yourself so much that you decide to lie about yourself, that's too far. I mean...honestly I thought we were friends. Even if I heard other people say things about you, I still cared and to a certain extent trusted you. But honestly you decide to go so far as to lying about your BIRTHDAY what is that?!? *sigh...

Now I just don't know what to believe...you've just put me on a crossroad...I mean yes there were times where I didn't believe you....now it's just...I don't know

What are true friends? People who stick by your side no matter what. People who know you inside and out. People you can just talk to...without hiding anything. For some weird reason, I realized that as you grow older, the less people will accept you for who you are. But hey I mean that's part of growing up is it not? And it's harder being Christian too because those who belong to the world will walk away from you, but you have to understand that it's the right thing, that you may be hanging with the wrong crew.

I don't understand why you would hide yourself so much. *sigh...you can't say people won't like you for who you are when they have NEVER seen the real you. I don't even know what's lies and what's not anymore about you.

me again..haha

I don't know whether it is that i'm bored or is it i have a lot on my mind...

I know i've been really off lately...like i've just been off track on just about everything
I know i've neglect a lot of things, my family, friends, and especially God...
*sigh homework is stressful...getting lazy and tired of doing the same things over and over again.
I know I haven't been the best company
I know i might not have been the best friend
And i'm sorry
I've been so off-track..i needa know how to balance things out..things have been getting a little better i guess..but they're like...centimeter steps...*sigh...burnt out basically

It's amazing...how no matter how pathetic i am...or how ungrateful i may be...or how annoying i can be...God is ALWAYS there for me...it's amazing..and how he provides so much for me still...providing me with the people who never give up on me...
No matter what i do, it's never gonna be enough to thank God because He's just SO amazing and so Big

Count your blessings

>< tired

ahhh school is driving me crazy! there's so much to do!! homework and projects and isps and all these cramming is making me loose sleep.. soo tiiredddd *hai and worst of all...it's making me get off course in my spiritual life. See...when i work late, i get tired, i want to sleep, making me become lazy and not do my devos *sigh... i need to know how to balance out my things....u know..work and God..and family & friends...*sigh...balanceee something that is a very big weakness of me...wow i dun think that made sense ..anyways *Sigh..i need time..to just sit there..be silent...u know...away from stress and the distractions of life.. I need to talk to God..and I need to hear Him talk.*sigh..if onlly it was summer..then i'd go to the park..haha *sigh...i'm getting so tired ><><>

this year...

haha things i wanna do this year...let's see how many i actually get done :P

- grow closer to God --> Prioitize!!
- definately try harder not to fall into temptation
- learn how to snowboard
- build back relationship with people who grew distint
- go skiing
- learn to be more patient
- less judging, more loving
- learn how to sing from my diaphragm :P
- get 90 over average
- exercise more! man so out of shape ><
- loose 10 pounds
- stop getting so angry and offended so easily
- less self-aware :P lolz edwin
- stop complaining about the smallest things and start being more grateful

and lastly...and the most important...DO GOD'S WILL!


wishing you all a happy new year =)