Bye bye 2004, Hello 2005

wow..it's 2005 soon...crazyness...wow this year went by really quickly when you think about it....but i don't remmeber what i did in January ><

Best of 2oo4 (I tried to put it in order :P)
- natalie and jane in geo =P haha jane's crazy "I'm at the top of the world" act :P
- haha our crazy jokes nat and jane in our classes :P crazy stuff! we were unseperatable :P
- geo class joax..with mark and raz and michael HAHA :P fishies and killage and wanting to be PM HAHAHA
- Jane's crazy drawings in my agenda! HAHA her penguins =P n our crazy lil songs
- March Break- TC!!!! GO GIDEONS! haha Samantha :P~ met nels & phil :D
- 30 hour famine ~ tonza fun :) it was all worth it! haha jon wanted to go 30 more hours :P
- Candee, Michael, Lester, & Kevin's baptism! =)
- haha me and natalie giving up on msn for lent
- Jane's obssession over dancing hamsters =P www.dancinghamster.com
- haha the awesome word by meagan: shrumph as oppose 2 smurf
- Krystaal's Concert --> that was AWESOME! incredible!
- all those good times at Natalie's house with Jane's laughing spasms =P
- Spring/Summer Choir =) Lydia, Andy & Kenneth =)) you guys rule!
- Coffeehouse 2004 haha thanks to michelle =P "forcing" me to act =P HAHA i can now laugh @ anything :P
- VBC ~ haha GM w/ Mich, Nels, Eric, Matt, & Micah =) haha and my kids =) hannah
- park day..haha with Clarence and Kitty =) awesome :) so peaceful haha the kid w/ the ketchup chips and clarence and the playground :P
- melo, andrea, & rach's birthday party @ jon's =)
- all those awesome nights in jason & danielle's cell group
- all those awesome nights (and more to come) in edwin & jessica's cell group =D
- edwin officially becoming my mom HAHA all candee's fault! =P i love you mommy
- missions night --> skit directing =) haha melody's dry dry dry powers :P
- my birthday chicken suit :P
- darren's birthday @ cy's =) haha whip cream + shaving cream hahaha
- Ottawa trip =D haha such awesome times in the hotel HAHA
- my baptism =) the greatest day of the whole year!!!

that's all for now =D haha this year's been quite sucessful =) haha
i la la la lavv you all =)

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i ran out of titles for my blogs..i don't really know what this one is about anywayys..i guess whatever comes to mind. This holiday..isn't as great as a wanted it to be...i mean..so many things i wanted to do that i didn't GET to do ><..and i tried making the most out of it..so i guess it wasn't THAT bad...it's just...there's just certain people that i just wanna spend more time with and like...i wish i could...well there's like..what..8 days left of the holidays...as painful it is...it's tru :( *sighh I was watching this video yesterday..where there's a scene of kids playing in a park..haha brought me to remember my childhood..those good old times where you can just go crazy and nobody will think you're crazy..cuz it's okay to be crazy at a young age...but now..people expect you to grow up...they expect you to know what to do ..and stuff like taht..and it's like..argh* sometimes..i just wanna be carefree again...*sigh...those were the good days...

My Baptism

yesterday was the greatest day of my entire life (well so far):D ...my baptismmm!!! another great stepping stone in my journey with God
haha it was so awesome! haha i couldn`t stoop smiling and laughing all day :P haha soo very happy..haha @ the beginning..i was freaking out..soo scared i might flip, trip or slip...haha but i didn`t do any of that!!! haha luckily i was fine..and the water was soo warm!!! :D ahha i wish i could`ve stayed in there forever :P...thanks guys for all the gifts and stuff :D the cards the encouragements..everything! Dex, eric, justin, & i went 2 Cy`s house..and dex sprayed axe all over me....buttface! and cy is soo meannn ><" i then went out to lunch with tonza ppl....haha stoopid cy parked his car @ cineplex and made us walk to like..congee wong where we got lost..my face was freezing!!!! THEN we walked to chapters..haha :P aww man...cy reads crazy thick books :P haha and dinner was fun hahha dex & mike were having fun with oranges!! HAHAHAHA and clarence ate fish food :Phahaha joax joax that was basically it :D yesterday was awesome! seeing that GOd has brought me so far..just totally incredible..=D Praise the Lord!

Joy to the World :D

yayyy christmas holidayyy =D haha I have a feeling this Christmas is gonna be AWESOME! I got an AWESOME schedule..haha! and so much to do :D haha i'm getting baptised tomorrow!!! i'm excited...nervous...i'm soo scared I might trip or like...flip...*aiya* haha but yea...can't wait! taking that next step to be with Him. It's another stepping stone.
and yayyy on tuesday going over to natalie's house for sleepoverr :D haha gonna be soo jokes...haha i already know :P haha can't wait :D
AND THEN...all the university people are coming homee :D eeeeeee^^ haha I haven't seen them for soo long....except for Cyrus :P but yesh....hehe it's gonna be fun
Wishing for a white christmas...
Goal this Christmas : Go skating with edwin :P HAHA

spiritual support

i guess i`ve been feeling....lonely lately...wandering off again..from the light..and God has been communicating to me..i finally see it. Through all the troubles i`ve been through...i seem to forget that i`m not alone in it and who it is that i`m doing things for. Yesterday, candeee sent me a poem..about never being alone...how GOd is always..there no matter what..and it just totally brought me comfort... :D GOd works in miraculous ways :D in people too! there`s been people who`s always been there for me :D haha who helped me go throught the beginning of my week :) i love you guys :) thanks for listening to me and just....giving me advice and all :)

Limits

There are just times where we just go over our heads...going off our limits..or in fact realizing we have no limits at all...There are just some times where...we just have to stop..and say..e.nough is enough...and you know what..i learned that this week..because what people say is okay isn't okay...it depends on your moral..your belief..your faith...honestly...u can't just go with the crowd and think that that's gonna solve everything...some people know wut happened..some don't..but i know i learned something from this...you gotta limit yourself, know when to say no...
I'm thanking God that you're okay, that hopefully, you learned something from this...a mistake is a mistake..whether you make it again or not..is your choice...people can tel you not to do things..the last decision is YOURS and yours alone...make the right one


Also, treasure those you love because you don't know when they'd fade away...

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*sigh..getting fed up so easily these days....loosing patience...thinking everything is pointless, not knowing why...once again..i'm burnt out... =( *sighh...but after talking to edwin..i felt better :) haha our 1 hour convo rocked! haha and he thinks i have a cool brother..:P haha but yeaa thanks man :) for everything :) we should have more of these talks :P hehe but yea...put it all in God's hand..but on another note...birthday shoutout to...
CLARENCE BOEY :) haha happy 16th man
my day was alright i guess...different but okay...better...feeling better :) and yayy kelsey's for CGN :D haha yayyyness haha fooddd haha :P k well that's it 4 now

-now scram- :P

my birthday rox!

LMAO! thank you sooo much guys! i lovee you guys sooo much! haha yes yes children yesterday was my birthday :) haha finally 15..haha thank you clarence, steven, EDWIN, & candee for all your hard work..haha :) haha i love clarence's hat :D haha i want one now :( hehe anywayyyss thanks guys! u just totally made my day! feeling a bit down b4 ..cuz my bday wasn't as great as i thought it was..but u guys...totally changed it! haha :) thank you once again! *mwahhhz*

3 days

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee^^ haha 3 more dayss!!! till me and my girlie's birthdayyy!!! haha :P it's really not that big of a deal...but i make everything a big deal so :P haha and happy birthday shoutout goes out to NATALIE!!!!! haha happy 15th girl! :D hehe anywayyss back to life... quote from Candy aka fluffy's msn nickname:
Life is God's novel, let Him write it
something that's so true, yet so hard to do sometimes. Let tomorrow worry about tomorrow...

Selfishness

Reflecting back on this week, I've been really really selfish lately, always thinking about me and what's best for me. I mean I've become so lazy that I don't want to do my responsibilities anymore. I make excuses for myself saying that I have too much homework or I'm too stressed when in reality, I see that I make myself think that I have a lot to do but when I think about it, I don't. I'm starting to make a lot of little things a big deal....something I am honestly not proud of. I need to change...that I know. I was talking to my best friend this week...and I was saying how I don't want to direct a skit I wrote. She said this,"You took on the job, u havta face the responsibilities. And Just remember you're not doing this for the fellowship, or cheryl, or michelle, you're doing it for God." It just reminded me that my work in the Lord will not be done in vain. I gotta start being hard working again, caring more about other people. My dear brothers and sisters pray for me