life...what's not to love?

i love...

-hearing God speak through so many people who went on missions
-watching grade 5s and 6s grow throughout the year
-feeling the wind on my face
-playing softball
-looking at nature and admiring the sun and the trees and the sky : )
-doing devos with softball people every game and just learning something new and bonding with people
-that my parents look out for what's best for me
-how my friends catch me when i fall
-being woken up in the morning by the sound of birds outside my window (even though it's like.. 6 in the morning)
-watching morning cartoons
-hearing from people in university and missions
-comforting friends
-worshipping Him

life...what's not to love?

okayy so no more moody posts..cuz they're just dumb
haha

friday was fun : ) walking around w/ my cell group and making pretty magnets : ) haha it was cool and i met this new girl named queenie : ) haha and i got scared of going up people's porches who had their lights on haa it was so funny. haha

softball game today :) and we lost : ( but it's okay! we went out for ice cream after. haha me & mel & kitty shared a double scoop...yo it's pretty big. haha it was yummy : ) i liked jamocaa hehe haha and so joax talking about si :P haha kitty you're so funny. haha i love u guys : )
then chow chow drove me home

and i have so many bruises & bumps from softball..it's okay! all worth it haha. my scars from being a hero according 2 jc. lol

and tomorrow..ANOTHER GAME! : ) woot woot! excited! yayyy

and thanks 2 u guys who were so patient and understanding when i was pmsing haha i S2 u guysss and i love those who checked up on meee : ) and thanks candee & torii i love ur comments! <3>

: ) so today is tuesday...and im going to talk about sunday haha :) soo

our season is now officially 4-1

5 more games to goo : ) and God is good, so we'll see how things go

haha i loved dinner at the end :) haha i love my team. and i loved the food! hahaha everytime you go out, especially for chinese, you gotta bring pastor freddy along hahaha and so jokes...our table naming people by fruits..

eric: pineapple
freddy: kiwi
chowchow: red, hot, delicious apple LMAO!
jt: strawberry
jon: mango

haha im nothing :) well..im agnes haha aww so joax :)

and thanks andy for the talk on Friday :) I <3 style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" size="2">sellors. totally gotta pray for my plans next year. and guess what?!??! my parents started talking again! :) God is good


oh and guess what else?!??!? i got a monkey! my own monkey :P and his name is...Barry Ip : )

blessings

haha last night was amazing : )

worship was a lot of fun : ) haha with jt's cool intro and what not : ) yayy haha
then bible study, omgsh totally AMAZING : ) i loved it! like absolutely loved it! and i got something out of it too! and like i wasn't tired that day or anything. and it was more discusssion : ) and we had so much energy and our group was just so comfortable and stuff : ) yayyyy haha praise the Lord! : ) totally His doing! I love my cell group!

and amazing thanks to sharon and eric last night haha well more sharon than eric. hahha cuz eric was more making fun of me haha i love you guys to death. : ) haha eric can always make me laugh :P haha i love u ah gor <3

my life is quite complicated, but it's okay! i have friends and God to carry me through! : )

although summer school is draggy haha there are some good stuff:

- get to chill with my friends at the park during lunch
- get to chill and fool around with people in my class haha getting to know new people
- inside jokes like "monster" ahaha
- getting good marks : )
- getting a good teacher
- not sitting at home all day

haha sooooooo : ) yeshh ahah two more weeks or so...im getting a 95 in this course : ) woot woot! haha

and yayy softball game today at 4 at goldhawk! come watch us play! goooooo BELOVED!

<3

my day consists of:

- getting my report card
- getting my test back
- learning two chapters and doing homework
- eating with my relatives

im tired : ( and i have a test AGAIN tomorrow and another one FRIDAY insanity!

haha but i did good on report card! 93.5 average baby!

but i did bad on my test ...well "bad" becuase i was looking for 90 & over...haha so...87 doesnt cut it..and i hafta get 93 or higher in data management haha i bet david on it haha

and once again : ) i love my cousins haha aww man they're so joax : P

chris: taurus, do you watch Top Model?
taurus: i watched it once
agnes: which one? america or canada?
taurus: america and there's this transvestite in it
agnes: whhatt? no there isnt!
taurus: yes there is one of the judges! ms. J
agnes: no there isnt!
susanna: hang on...how many judges are there?
agnes: 4
susanna: so how many females are there?
taurus puts one finger up
susanna: and how many males?
taurus puts two fingers up
susanna: no okay how many look like females?
taurus puts two fingers up hahha : )
agnes: wait....ms J...OHHH HIM
taurus: haha yeaa
agnes: but it's a guy =/
taurus: but he dresses and acts like a woman...and claims he is a tranvestite
agnes: oh...OH....oh ew
____________________________________________________________

chris: yo, pass me those orange men *pointing at chopsticks*
agnes: so chopsticks are now men
susanna: at least they're straight
chris: yea chopsticks are straight...what? you expected them to be bent
agnes: NO! okay if chopsticks are men....and they are straight..the opposite of straight men is...
chris: bent women?

HAHAHA : )

hehehe i love it when we have family gatherings w/ all six of us haha

: ) <3

my day consists of:

- getting my report card
- getting my test back
- learning two chapters and doing homework
- eating with my relatives

im tired : ( and i have a test AGAIN tomorrow and another one FRIDAY insanity!

haha but i did good on report card! 93.5 average baby!

but i did bad on my test ...well "bad" becuase i was looking for 90 & over...haha so...87 doesnt cut it..and i hafta get 93 or higher in data management haha i bet david on it haha

and once again : ) i love my cousins haha aww man they're so joax : P

chris: taurus, do you watch Top Model?
taurus: i watched it once
agnes: which one? america or canada?
taurus: america and there's this transvestite in it
agnes: whhatt? no there isnt!
taurus: yes there is one of the judges! ms. J
agnes: no there isnt!
susanna: hang on...how many judges are there?
agnes: 4
susanna: so how many females are there?
taurus puts one finger up
susanna: and how many males?
taurus puts two fingers up
susanna: no okay how many look like females?
taurus puts two fingers up hahha : )
agnes: wait....ms J...OHHH HIM
taurus: haha yeaa
agnes: but it's a guy =/
taurus: but he dresses and acts like a woman...and claims he is a tranvestite
agnes: oh...OH....oh ew
____________________________________________________________

chris: yo, pass me those orange men *pointing at chopsticks*
agnes: so chopsticks are now men
susanna: at least they're straight
chris: yea chopsticks are straight...what? you expected them to be bent
agnes: NO! okay if chopsticks are men....and they are straight..the opposite of straight men is...
chris: bent women?

HAHAHA : )

hehehe i love it when we have family gatherings w/ all six of us haha

the happy post : )

forget my angry post! haha why? because God is good : ) ALL THE TIME. He is just so amazing. Giving and taking away :) SOOOO...my weekend turned out amazing!!! :) let's recap shall we?

Friday:
Fellowship was reflection night. It was cool, planning with mel and david on worship and chilling at my house. hahaha with david loving my mom's cooking. haha then off to fellowship...reflected with eric and grace and just thinking about my year, what God has done and stuff : ) really cool talking to them and just about the things God has done for them : ) I loveee hearing about the lives of my brothers and sisters :) And we made a cross : ) haha i'm smart and got it haha so yea that was fun :) this was the night where i was upset...but, God being awesome, was there for me : ) Prayer is power yo'

Saturday:
sssssoftball : ) woot woot! our first two games. haha i got browner...ANOTHER tan line..i have like...10 now haha it's insanity! but yea : ) just such an awesome time of cheering on each other, encouraging, praying, devotions, and fellowshiping : ) and with God's grace, we won both games. : ) woot woot! go BELOVED! :) it was awesome too, just getting to meet people from Drifters and Samaritans :) thenn..deenerrr with my beloved-erssss :) haha andy u gotta send me those picturessssss ahha me and mel (don't smell the food, *puts finger under nose) hahhaa and changing people's fones to different languages : ) hahaha : ) and she's turning more into meeee haha and our whole table talking about like hot girls and pretty girls and hot guys hahaahahhaa soo joax : ) i love you guys :)

Sunday:
church :) went to sunday school for once for a while. then helped the little kids make bookmarks : ) made one toooooo : ) haha it has a feather on it haha so then i went home and ate with my second aunt who i've never met before and my grandparents. THEN i did data while all my uncles went to my uncle's house because he has HD TV to watch world cup. Italy ended up winning. lol my dad came home and drove me and my mom to my uncles where we had bbq : ) then me and my cousin went for a walk : ) it was so nice and we got to chat and stuff, which was really cool : ) then we came back and my other cousin, he played piano for like 17 years now...and if you sing him a song, he can play for u it was soo awesome! : ) i came in..and he was playing hungry! :) i was like..cool so i sang and then he played indescribable and stuff :) then he played all these BSB and N'sync songs and like....even older songs like...beatles and "right here waiting" and stuff : ) ohh funnn then me and him jammed. i tuned his gtar and started playing God of wonders...he was like...oh and he started playing too!!! :) haha and we jammed and stuff : ) ohh i love my cousinssss such awesoem time bonding and chilling w/ my family : ) Praise the Lord :)

sooo my weekend was a-w-e-s-o-m-e

totally learned He gives and takes away : ) and for that i am truly grateful

after fellowship

okay so im still angry...(If you don't know why, you need to read the post before)

and it's now at the fact that i cant go. Yea it sucks. it sucks to constantly let people down and it sucks to constantly be let down. *sigh

i don't know...my parents actually sat down and talked to me about my schedule & stuffs after fellowship. it was a pain. I looked at my calendar...and iuno.

I really wanted to go. I was looking forward to it all week. and now... *sigh maybe it's God's will.

I don't know...either way i have to accept it right? Sorry guys. I know im a failure lolz as darren tsang puts it.

SO instead of my weekend being mainly softball and waterloo

it is NOW: softball, homework, family gathering

i'd prefer the first one....but *sigh. agnes is tired now...

tired from school...tired from sleeping @ 12...tired from crying.

let's hope tomorrow softball will cheer me up

talking to mel, jon, grace and andy did a little good :) thanks guys <3

edit** haha copying sharon now...know what im also upset about? the fact that my dad tells me it's not a big deal and i can go another time..Here's my question....why should i think he's going to let me go next time if he wont let me go this time? He said i can go when i can drive...yea what makes me think he'll let me drive all the way to loo? At this rate...i'll never be able to go visit the loo-erssss

Before Fellowship

RANT
it's going to be angry. so if you wanted to read something happy and jolly, totally not the place to be
ughhh i hate this..

you would THINK that maybe...just MAYBE your parents would trust you on making decisions on your own..but noooooo they want to prioritize ur life for you

they want to just control your life because they want you to be "successful" they want you to "get the best things in life"

what the HECK does that mean? since when you are to tell me what's right for me and what's best for me? Since when did you know?

Since when did you ever EVER ask my opinion on things i want to do. ughhhhh

im sooo angryy. crap man.

They honestly need to learn that they dont have control over my life. I can't wait till i have a car and have my own independance.

As much as they care, sometimes i just wish they'd trust me for once. They say....oh you're cramming yourself too much....u're not spending time with the family enough...you're not trying in school enough...you're not concentrating enough...you're not getting a high enough average....you're spending enough time doing school stuff...

What is enough? It seems that no matter what i do, it's never enough. They never look back at what i've done when i did good things, no they look back at what i've done that was horrible, that was bad. It's like...as long as you spend one weekend without them, it's not enough. *sigh

it's my life....i have priorities too....im a teenager....why won't you just let me think like one and be like one? Why are you trying to make me grow up so much? I know i'm getting old and i need to grow up...but why are you always trying to ruin the things i really want to do?


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*sigh now what?

summmerrrrrr : )

yay so it's been like....1 week of summer. haha and i've

- went to wonderland with my favourites
- went to see Superman Returns
- went out 2 timmies
- went to grad
- had relatives come over
- played softball : )
- painted anita's housee : )

yayy and tonz more to dooo : ) je suis loving it

kitty im probably coming to visit next sunday! : )

call to action.

okay so today was a pretty good day

church and painting and nat's house and dinner with my grandparents


I'm slowly beginning to see that people matter a lot to me. I mean yea I knew that before...but it hits you when you realize...some things. So my grandparents came back to Canada, after being gone for like..two years. and I haven't seen them for a really long time. And you know...as people get old, they get sicker and stuff, and i've been worried and stuff but i was really excited to see them. My grandma looked the same and everything...and what hit me was my grandpa. He came in...on a wheelchair, which i knew he would, but i guess it never really hit me. He was so much skinnier, he looked so small. Two years ago, he was walking with a walking stick and it was okay. I mean he still got spunk. But when i saw him today...he looked so sad, so hopeless, so lifeless...so weak. And it made me want to cry. And even when i saw him smile a little bit, just to see his daughters, his grandchildren, it made him look so frail...so fragile. And i guess im still wanting to cry as i type this....I mean i guess i never really knew my grandparents mattered that much to me until now. And for the entire dinner...i felt so...i don't know...sad. Age is getting to him, and im slowly realizing that moments need to be treasured. I'm slowly realizing that it all matters to him, that everyday matters.

And a thought that even made me sadder was that...while so sick, so incapable of doing so many things, He doesn't know God. It kills to think that he's going by everyday, not knowing that something better might be in store for him, not knowing that there's someone who loves Him so much and is going to make everything okay. Totally strike me how important sharing God's word is. So ...action time.

neverending prayer and action.

summer here i come

Yes yes yes!

I am officially

DONE

hehe yayyy summer here i come! haha

that means i can...

-visit kitty and darren sometime @ waterloo
-play softball
-go to wonderland
-bbqsss : )
-go out after fellowship
-go SHOPPING
-eat and ddr and slack off at home

: ) oh what a wonderful time hahaha : P

P.S. Kitty, don't worry! I'll come...but i have to wait till everybody else finishes...so that university children can drive me : P

almost done almost done! : )

yayyy i survived..last week...

im surviving this week : )

it's almost coming to an end...one more days. and then i'll be DONE

religion exam yesterday was SOO easy :) I felt so happy afterwards haha
but math..*sigh we'll see it was okay la~ i don't like exams that were okay la~

then i can paint after exams!:) i have to paint tiles for teachers that are leaving...im excited...haven't painted for a while..like ACTUALLY paint. haha nice to get my creativity flowing again.

Praise the Lord from bringing me through this week and even giving me time to do devos : ) oh He is so cool : )

Things to look forward to:
-softball (finally : P)
-worship night thingy : )
- grandparents coming
- painting
- wonderland w/ my girlprends :)
- graduation (singing) haha the deserts :P

: ) : ) yayyyy mad fun totally excited

exams on wed, thurs, fri.

comm tech cpt due tuesday...not done

which means didnt start studying

oh so screwed

but i'm not gonna go and totally rely on myself anymore. Done that for the past like..month and it SUCKS. Giving it all up to Him. my worries, my stress, my joys, my confusion, my accomplishments...are all His.

thanks guys for helping me through : ) and just checking up on me. you know who you are <3

one more week...then it's OVER :D

*sigh im like slowly disintergrating...

not like..burning or anything

just tired..exhausted..fed up..drained

and i'm so far from God...it's so hard these days for me to figure out the right thing to do...the thing God wants me to do.

It's so hard to keep devos consistant and have my heart at it when i do it

it's so hard to pray sincerely without having other things on my mind or without being too tired

*sigh nobody said it was going to be easy

but i jus wish i wasnt so weak

untitled.

so i dragonboated today. haha wow we did so bad. but w/e our first year. haha fun times with my team china : P haha go boys and the catwalk and that awesome game of pig :P haha good stuff. so today was alright..but inside....it feel...incredibly sad..iuno why. it's weird. yea i mean today was good..laughs and what not...but i feel...ridiculously empty. *sigh God what's wrong with me.

And iuno bible study on Friday....*haii iuno. it felt so weird...and i was so tired. sorry ivan.


ughhh soo dun wanna work

sooo tired

*sigh...imma pull through..it's almost over

getting back up on my feet

so the hecticness is FINALLY over (for now) I went through this week..and yes staying till like 2:30 doing an essay is DEFINATELY not fun. okay now...time to get back on track with God. As much as school is important, i gotta keep my eyes fix on God. Easier said than done.

"Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." - Romans 5:3-5

I'm currently loving this verse. I don't know...I guess mainly because, as hard as it is to do, to rejoice in our sufferings, i want to learn how to. and as i do that...the end result is so promising. hope that does not disappoint. the only thing that is unchanging. His love.

So yesterday, it was St. Augustine's feast day (not birthday, my bad) and so we had mass. For those of you who don't know, I go to a catholic school. And the priest was teaching about that passage where Jesus asked Peter three times if he loved Him. And the priest asked us this, "If Jesus was to ask you right now...what would your response be?"
As ashamed I feel saying this, I've lost track as to where i am with God. I feel like...I haven't really gone anywhere, nor have I tried to. The priest also mentioned that love is a word that means nothing until action is taken. If I haven't taken action lately, could I really say that I love God? So my goal from now on, put my love in action. it hurts to know that i haven't done that. But it takes so much more than just feeling ashamed, it takes change.

last night fellowship was really good, i liked it a lot. Just time to pray, to reflect. i especially liked the last part. that was so cool. : ) thanks candee, anita, & donna for planning it. you guys did an awesome job.

through it all

okay so im in comm tech...and i just finished my bio test. It was okay i guess..i don't know....im scared : ( i need these grades man. needa pull it up to like...a 95 before exams cuz i know im going to drop after exams.

okay i've gone through half of the week and...survived.

I survived...i'm so surprised. so you know that long list of stuff i had to do...well here's what's left.

Math Test next period
Religion ISP essay due friday
Pig dissection package due friday
Comm tech careers package due tomorrow

i believe that is it...

i've gone through half of my stuff

how amazing is that : )

Praise the Lord for He is faithful and carries us through

a few more days to go...then iuno..nothing for next week so far....i REALLY hope there's no homework this weekend....that's not going to happen. haha

okay posting HOPE pictures tomorrow..just for u trisiaaaaaa : P <3

sunshine makes me happy : )

so eggie survived her saturday through the grace of her amazing Father. eggie woke up at 8 in the morning and watch family shows and did homework. Then she went out and played softball : ) which was fun haha man i hafn't played in a while. and during practice, i sadly had to break it to pretty barry that...he wasn't very pretty. BUT i did love your flower : ) and andy told me to practice softball in my head for the past few weekends :P because i'm not allowed to go to softball until exams are over : ( which is june 23.

Then agnes went to car wash : ) which was awesome. a huge success and i had tonz of fun.

but agnes came home with a sunburn..that doesnt hurt =/ lolz. so yes

and agnes finished her website and all the writeup for bio cpt : )

agnes feels like a champ

actually no..God is a champ for carrying me through : )

and it's so hot...totally the weather to wear skirts : ) yayy skirt and sandals season! im excited haha

OH and i watched my first episode of captain planet today! AHHA it's so old school

eggie is...
tired
hungry
confused
overthinking
unmotivated
being made fun of : (
looking forward to summer
excited for school to end
excited for softball this saturday
learning that God gives and takes away and that He NEVER leaves
doing well in school : )
loving the sun (finally) this week

so the good overweighs the bad : )

and that my friends is what keeps me going