simply me.

Sunday, April 30, 2006

weekend fun

okay so my weekend went well : )

Friday Night
my poor "daughter" got a fever so she couldn't come to fellowship. Worship practice went alright : ) it was cool having so many people lolz. wow...then i had overhead problems until betty came and saved my life :P haha then we watched two episodes of Joan of Arcadia. Man im hooked! whoever is done with their DVD i want it NEXT! haha and we had healthy snacks haha like eric said "all of us will have no problem pooing tonight" LMAO! haha i love carrots and celery sticks with dip! :D

Saturday
I drove my daddy to work and we drove to Markville and the Dollar Store at Warden :) haha i'm still bad at driving :( i need to improve! haha i will prove eric and david wrong :P went to bbq at Jon's house at like...5 he wasn't even home yet! ahha so we ended up starting bbq at like...6 :) darren, jason, david, eric, cheryl, kenneth, and kitty were there :) mad fun :) haha soo joax with darren's picture haha a little too happy touching jason's waist there hahaha and aww i miss cheryl :( leaving to go to missions. Hope you have fun girl! the sausages were yummy! :) and the burgerss even though there was no ketchup lol it was good! :) haha had tonz of fun. It was just a good time to just relax and forget about school for like...2-3 hours. :) and it felt like summer haha yayy the beginning of our bbq season :)

Sunday
went to church. I loved the Rob Bell video today :) God's message of love. and something that Uncle Simon said during Sunday School stuck to me. He said, "Sometimes we don't evangelize because we're scared and we only not evangelize for two reasons a) we don't love God enough or b) we don't love the person enough. Sometimes we dare to not love."
it's such a weird way of looking at it. And today's message just totally reminds me of that whole outloving post i read on Tim Woo's blog a while ago :) imma outlove you all <3>

yay PA day friday! :) nat you're SOO coming over to "run" with me HAHA

Friday, April 28, 2006

i just came back from fellowship..standing outside for like..30minutes waiting for the boys to figure out where to go..it's cold tonight lol. But yea..it was okay...watching joan of arcadia : ) i like that showw i want to watch nowww lolz just totally reminds me that God uses ordinary people and in today's worship set...

"You use the weak to lead the strong" - Your Grace is Enough

:) total awesomeness. anywhooss nothing really happened today...i think... not that i remember anyways lolz. i drove today! :) haha to church ahha it was fun :P but yes. i have a lot of homework this weekend too :( but it's okay! i shall finish it haha

yay bbq 2morrow.i wish i can go to the zoo with them : ( but i got work to do..so yes. time to go 2 bed..i'm crazy tired lately...don't know why...=/

Monday, April 24, 2006

assurance

so i did my bio and math test today. I don't think i did too well : (. So i got sad. I got upset and fustrated and today just didn't seem like a cool day. Then a thought came to me in comm tech class. I was so happy last night listening to made to worship by Chris Tomlin (amazing song btw) and now because of two tests...two marks...I get upset? For a split second i totally loose focus on God, forgetting for one moment that He had everything in control. After that...a rush of assurance came over me. yea...i'm upset...i mean i could've done better right? and i'm just really tired, but God's got in all in control. He gives and takes away, but His will is perfect and pleasing.

And i read candy's blog just now...about being a servant. once again being reminded that marks and worldly things do not matter when it comes to serving God, and really that's all that should matter no?

Love God, Love people, nothing else matters.

when you do that...things just seem to flow into place. So I'm worshipping God no matter what. And I am not gonna doubt Him because He knows what's best for me.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

worship night :)

Praise the Lord for He is good :) Last night at fellowship was just COMPLETELY amazing. It's been a really...REALLY long time since i've seen the entire fellowship worship God with their hearts :) true worship right there! Last night was just amazingggg :) mann i can't even explain my continuing awe after last night. God really works, and last night was a total challenge for me to just put it all in God's hands. At the end, everyone was like...oh good job on worship night. ahha I'm thinking...why thank us? God did it all. I mean cummon..our songs...totally spontaneous order =) and just what i said and what i prayed about...just all came out...and just seeing so many people touched, not afraid to praise with their hands lifted high, I am totally amazed. And when we prayed as a group, when we sang spontaneously..THAT's true fellowship :) I haven't felt the Spirit work SOO evidently in a while :) like fo'real man that was the night :) I loved it. And haha as mel and jw knew, i was stressing like mad before it....haha not being able to find sheet music and what not....but God led it...God told me and showed me that everything turned out okay..I just had to trust in Him :) Praise the Lord. now THAT's true worship.

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the things I've made it
When it's all about You
All about You, Jesus

the fellowship accomplished that last night

and all fear was swept away

the fears of not singing good enough

the fears of what others thought about what we did

the fears of speaking out

all gone

barriers were broken
hands were lifted

all towards the same loving, amazing God

now THAT's unity :)

Friday, April 21, 2006

sunshine :)

so everything's good now :) I am happy :) we're all happy :) yayy haha

i've been tired...and sick :( but that's okay..im getting better! haha and so jokes eating lunch with nat and edwin outside AHHA nat stories haha and pieces of the wall at school LMAO! ahha i love you guys. haha

AND...my daddy is home! :) yayyy haha i feel happy =) so it's been good...because God is good =)

so...tomorrow is ...worship night...im scared..excited..worried..happy...
kinda glad for a time to just..reflect even though i'm leading :) it's gonna be awesome because it's gonna be God-led =)

totally lovin' the sunshine

God above all the world in motion
God above all my hopes and fears
I don't care what the world throws at me now
I'm gonna be alright

'Cause I know my God saved the day
And I know his word never fails
And I know my God made a way for me
Salvation is here
-Hillsongs United

true dat yo'

so assured that God has everything in control :)

Monday, April 17, 2006

untitled

haha okay so i learned something new....

silas ng doesnt go to ryerson HAHA where does he go?

haha anywayss yeaaa easter dinner last night =) it was so awesome and the food was good! :) thanks anita! haha getting to talk to everybody for like...1 hr cuz eric, candee & kitty never came..haha PRESTUDY at 7 not DINNER at 7 haha gosh eric get it right! hahaha anywayyyss =) it was so much fun haha talking about our childhoods and what not hahha good times :) i love k-cab!

and then we shared and it was cool just a time to pray with ivan, mel, and grace and just listening to how the rest of the cell groups are doing =) and we found a youth pastor!!!! haha well he's coming to do prestudy on sunday :) excited to meet him..

and then..well the night didn't end so well i guess...with what happened and what not and me crying my eyes out so much that this morning i woke up with my eyes three times smaller. lolz but it's okay! because i have AMAZING friends =) i love you guys for just sitting there and listening when i was such a mess last night =) thanks mel, anita, eric & david =) yea boys officially suck haha and history is repeated..and mel laughs at me =(

then i got in trouble with my mom cuz i came home really late..but i talked to her about my problem and what not..and she listened...and i felt a little better

yea wasn't able to sleep that well last night..but it's okay i feel a lil better now...but now i gotta fix it....*sigh God i guess it's time right?

Friday, April 14, 2006

chapters =)

Today was such a cool day =) yes it was raining..i think and it was really cloudy, but it was still a good day =) so i drove this morning. I'm getting better! haha i like driving now :P haha did a lot of parking and turning and what not. =) i have to learn to let the wheel recover itself. lolz anywhoosss

met up with candyy at starbucks/chapters. haha candee: look the book is $3.99 and it's so thick! haha

we talked at starbucks for like...one and half hour until we saw mich and cheryl =) haha they went to go look at books and we talked a little more...im so full ><>< good =")" chiu =")">
me: where would mich and cheryl be?
candee: just find the place with the smartest books.

haha and we found them..at fiction and literature haha michelle knows like..all authors HONESTLY haha me and candee are just like..huh? haha and candee doesnt read and doesn't know books unless if they're from movies hahah right? haha manhunt and in her shoes haha then..MAGAZINES hahaha we are hopeless...apparently really bad according to cheryl and mich haha so joax dough =P and mich going angry over not being able to buy books is really scary hahaha she won't get themm from the library till she's 80 poor girl

then aww man my favourite part...the KIDS SECTION! yayyy haha Dr. Seuss and the science book LMAO! yayy story time with mich haha we all just sat there and read them..aha me and candee were sooo amused at the Dr. Seuss pop-up book HAHA we're like.."michelle! POP UP POP UP! OVER THERE *grabs and opens the page* haha OMGSH they move!" HAHHA cheryl i want those pictures! :) and i love the olivia book haha soo cuuuuuute and if you give a mouse a cookie :) haha my comment: why are mice so ma fan? haha

i love children's books ^^ good childhood memories. hehe we stayed there till 5. haha woww i had so much fun =P we should sit in the kids section reading books again girls :) aha honestly it's fun haha sitting in a circle together reading books to each other =P haha total and utter amusement =P

my favourite book :P

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

all better =)

wow God works miracles alright

i woke up this morning to find that my fever was gone :) woww a one day fever. Who honestly have one-day fevers. haha man i feel so much better today =D so much more alive! haha anywayyss yes yes haa so joax with trisia today "am i going to get pregnant?" LMAO! haha trish those are flower sperms HAHAHA soo joax hahaha and having lunch with jenn, gordon, nat, alton, monique & hollie aww man started talking about elementary school haha me having no friends..thanks for reminding me everytime hollie..and hollie being whitewashed HAHA so unbelievable haha

so yes i feel 10 billion times better today :) thanks to all those who cheered me up yesterday!

Monday, April 10, 2006

God's will vs my will

*sigh sunday school made me think yesterday. Yes we didn't really talk on topic...as usual :P but iuno it really hit me when we were talking about friends with benefits. And i mean..it's bad. and i don't know..got me thinking about emotions and feelings and people and stuff.

had a talk with silas

thanks :) lolz better than david forcing me to do stuffs :P

but yea really praying on it. thinking on it. I need time...

I need space

I want God's will because it's so much better than mine.

He knows what's best for me

He knows what i have to do

He knows when i'm ready

Saturday, April 08, 2006

vroommm

wow this week has been hectic..but it's okay! it's kinda over now :) i'm okay now :) God brought me through it! :D omgsh did the scariest thing today...

I DROVE

as in behind the wheel of a real car haha (no natalie not a fisherprice car)

so scaryyy :(

driving is scary..kinda fun.but scary haha especially the highway..yes the teacher is crazy..making me go on the highway *sigh..but it's okay! i survived! yayyy haha and i didn't kill anyonee :) yayy haha (see eric and david! i can drive! hahahaha)

that is my story for now...

Sunday, April 02, 2006

sunshine :)

rwar rwar rwarrr

wow today was such a nice day =) and i got to enjoy it too! Today's nooma was "Noise" the topic being silence and solitude. and you know what our cool sunday school class did? we went to the park! yayy i loved it! it was sooo nice outside..and i got to sit outside and not do anything for a good 20 minutes :) silence is amazing. like i just sat there...and i prayed and i listened. And I heard God in the gentliest of all whispers :) I love it when He speaks through silence. I love looking around and being in awe of all the things he created. I mean WOW. It's not like i've never been at the park before..i've been there a billion times. But...everytime i'm amazed because he made it all..ALL OF IT. not some of it...ALL OF IT. Wow....I love nature :)

our sunday school class is oh so very cool :)

Friday, March 31, 2006

judged

I have this huge urge to blog before i keep rethinking and bursting into tears.

I feel so empty right now...i felt so invisible tonight. It was kind of like walking into fellowship and even though people talk to you, i don't know..i had this lonely feeling....or maybe it was just me in a bad mood. but keeping that smile on works..until you just cant keep it up anymore. When you don't show sadness...just...no expressions.

Sometimes i feel like i've done so many things wrong to other people....like i always constantly mess up...saying the wrong things...doing the wrong things. and it's like..constantly being judged for it. iuno ..i got my bio test back today..highest mark in the class...and my teacher says it outloud too..and even before he said it..heard people saying...."Oh it's going to be Agnes again" and it hurts. I mean...you're not supposed to be ashamed of good marks right? but when people look at you like...they hate you and judge you because you're trying your best..like it hurts. It's not like i want to beat everybody. I just wanted to do good. *sigh I don't know...i wasnt feeling so great the rest of the day.

*sigh...i feel so alone right now. =(

Thursday, March 30, 2006

=) b-e-a-utiful

this week has been..really slow haha I don't know..but everyday felt like friday...but it's okay. This week's weather has been absolutely amazing =) 17 degree afternoons yayyyy haha loving the cool breeze with the sun on my back on my way home =) hehe so currently obsessing over the movie...high school musical haha aww mann soo cuuutee :P the cutest cheesy movie ever ahaha =P haha yes i am such a sap. Anywhoosss

I felt happy to find my test easy to me today. SO couldn't have done it without God. Honestly...I don't understand how i ever got to cram that info all in my brain. There's a lot of stuff to Judaism. but yea =) It's actually pretty interesting...considering I don't really know anything about other religions. but yea =) thanks Jon for helping me study last night haha you now know everything i know about judaism haha =P Praise the Lord for giving me such an awesome friend =)

Today was my first ever promotions meeting for our spring production...Draculaa =) oOooOO im sooo excited haha I got so hyped over it. ahha Man thinking about like decoration ideas and what not =) I get to paint a big poster =) like BEDSHEET size..tha'ts preetty huge hahaha im oh soo excited! and im helping out selling tickets...which means i get to wear costumes haha and paint more posters haha eeeeeeee^^ oh so excited. Anddd I'm helping out with the program =)

I think i'm going to tutor gr 10 science this semester. I feel like I'm joining so much stuff, but I want to =P i don't know...been praying about it....and i have the biggest urge to tutor =/ kinda weird. well God will pull me through my busy schedule =) just like He has pulled me through everything else.

Thanks to my girls for being there for me when i was feeling a lil bleh this week. I love you girlss =) you know who you are.

excited for tomorrow and this weekend because
a) planning worship night with mel tomorrow =D haha our stacked team
b) imma get my haircut =) more layered and shorter
c) not so much homework and with the lovely weather well...=) time to go out for a jog

haha the simple things of this weekend that makes me look forward to it...and maybe insurance class...yes it's boring..but i have natalieeee =) that's al that matters LMAO! and our cool drawings hahaha eric you would know about those =P

i want to watch She's the man! =) natalie..you have a date with me for that during easter

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

a story

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His father gave him a bag of nails and told him that everytime he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence. The first day the boy driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few week, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammer gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.

Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper. The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there.

Saturday, March 25, 2006

cafe night =)

Praise the Lord!

God is truly amazing :) Last night was just absolutely amazing! Man we rocked! Honestly...I don't know how we pulled through it. One really bad practice + one practice w/o sound = an amazing worship? yea God is TRULY in that equation! He never ceases to amaze me and pull through :) You just gotta learn to trust.

Cafe night was awesome! :) awesome job drama, food, speaker, av :) drama was amazing :) it felt good jus watching instead of being part of it. amazing job guys!

Thanks darren for helping me out :) honestly w/o you i'd be soo screweddd. Thanks a billion!

God truly works :) just keep your eye on the prize and everything will b a-okay =)

*and janice, i want a copy of that video!

Friday, March 24, 2006

im so drained :( been trying to do so much this week and as darren said.."working in teh worst case scenarios" *sigh i hope worship works out tonight..all God's man :) float sale ends today..kinda relieved...hahaa but yea okay in comm tech...i should go :P haha im xcited for cafe nite tonight =)
im lifting it all up to Him...

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

aching thoughts

je suis back :)

i was back sunday at 3:30 :) man it feels good to be home :) cept my house was freaking freezing when i got back but it's okay now =)

a new start to a new week

a thought to ponder on...God's gift of salvation...so free..let so little take it. It's like somebody giving you a free car and you wont take it. Why? Because you're scared of what might happen? is it too good to be true? What have you got to loose? i look at the lives of so many of my friends at school, with their problems, difficulties, obstacles that cant doesnt seem to stop and i can only think of one true solution...God.

It makes me sad to see people who live their lives crying their tears and not turning to God.

Lord, You love him so
You gave Your only Son
If he will just believe
He will never die
But how then will he know
What he has never heard?
Lord he has never seen mirrored in my life

Save one more for Jesus...

Friday, March 17, 2006

Florida weekkkk :)

hey everybodyyy okay so im coming back tomorroww :) mann i gotta wake up at 5am tomorrow :( ughh ahha i'ts okay i'll sleep in the car tomorrow haha like i always do :P anywhoooss this week has been AWESOMEEE here's the summary :)

Friday and Saturday
ride to Florida..mann i felt carsick soo many timesss 22hours man! insanity! haha but yea...spent my time..sleeping and listening to music :) hehe then my knees were hurting and what not..but it was cool looking out the window..seeing sunrises and sunsets :) totally in awe of God's creation. And on the way to florida...or just in the states..on the highways...iuno there's like..sets of crosses...like..three crosses and what not..and so iuno it was just so cool. One large one in the middle and two white ones on the side. Totally reminded and amazed by God's unconditional and undying love for us =)

Monday
I went to Tampa Bay...a city in Florida..to visit my mom's friend and they havent seen each other for 27 years..WOWWW that's like..almost 30 and they're still friends...unbelievable..anywhooss went to the beach :) oooOOooO i loveeee lying there and not thinkin about anything and it was not too hot...like a tiny lil breeze and it was SOO nice :) and i found this AWESOME shell haha like..three haha who said u cant find shells there? :P hahha and yea..had dinner with my mom's friend...she's so nice :) it was cool haha i found out that florida is like..chinese-food deprived...man they dun have like...bbq pork and what not..it's INSANITY! like..there's two chinese restaurants in all of Tampa...that's like..having two restaurants in Markham...wth haha i could never imagine haha so yea got home and i learned how to play pool!!!!!! hahahaha

Tuesday
Went shopping at florida mall :) Got a new pair of jean capris :) hehe yayyyyy i love new clothes LMAO! i couldnt find anything i liked from billabong and aeropostale :( i wanted something doughhhh haha ah well and yea....went to walmart...i got a pooh bear towel hehe it's so cuutee but it's retarded..when my mommy washed it..there were like....stuff coming off of it to the other clothes..im like..wth..so we hafta return it :( i want another pooh towel

Wednesday
Went to Magic Kingdom :) I love the magic kingdom it's so...magical haha but yea i saw mickeyyyy and i didnt see pooh bearrrr :( i got sad....*haii but it's okayy sorryyy jesss no pooh bear for uuu ....bought stuffs for people and...i went on all these kkiddy rides :P i like kiddy rides haha i got myself a new cup :) a POOHBEAR cup haha i suddenly have a HUGE obsession over pooh hahah he's just so CUTE! haha and yea :) saw fireworks and the parade :) eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee^^

Thursday
went to Kennedy Space Center :) I want to go to space lolz saw all these old rockets and what not...>CRAZYYYY haha

Friday
Went to Orlando Premium Outlet :) mannn i went into stores where i would never buy things from...like...fendi and coach and versace and dior and mannnnn :) i was like..*gasp* and going insane over burberry bags and what not...BUT i did happen to bring things back :P

two timberland drawstring bags
one ecko sweater
souvenirs and what not for people lolz
pair of bongo jean capris from sirens

honestly the most money i've spent on a trip :P but it's all good ahhaha yayyy coming home tomorrowww :) soo excited i missed everybody soooooo muchhhh

Monday, March 06, 2006

weekend

one of the most amazing weekend i've had in a VERY long time =)

Saturday

Worship Practice was soo awesome! =) it sounded so great and i love working with that team =)
insurance class was SOO joax! LMAO! haha stories of eric and poop hahaha and fart and bev HAHA nat i love you girl! haha honestly i wouldn't survive through insurance class if it wasnt for you haha "now we're doing checking the car" "well that didn't take too long" LMAO! haha
Curious George - cutest movie EVERRRRR =) I LOVE IT! haha yes eric i was loud, so what? haha sue me lolz :P u know u loved it haha thanks jon for the glossettes >< haha eating that expensive chocolate $3.75 man! haha
a.group - amazing worship :) true, skill-less worship :) i love it. The Spirit works, the spirit calls =) awesome talking to gil, candy, kitty, ivan =) thanks candy for your thoughts..it's been a while since i talked to you. i honestly miss it.

Sunday

waking up at 7 in the morning to worship and what not is so worth it haha but so tiring lolz worship was amazing! =) awesome job team! good job leading worship darren! totally hype man
message was short and sweet =) like krispy kreme donuts hehe
NOOMA =) i love rob bell videos. "God puts us through those trials because it's the time where he can hold us close" i love looking at it that way =)
finishing homework...biology amazes me...everything's so complex...God is truly amazing =) So creative...haha so indescribable
watching Oscars =) hehe

that's basically my weekend :) it was hectic...but awesome! =) eeeeeeeee^^ florida in 3 days =)

Thursday, March 02, 2006

I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much.
Mother Teresa

loving this quote

isn't it amazing..that God...who is so BIG..believes in us.

wow