haha total joax

rawr i'm a monkeyyyy =P HAHA darren can draw cavemen =P HAHA weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

excitement

hahaha i'm happy..i'm not sure why...maybe it's cuz it's been such good weather =) i LOVE this weather! so warm..but not hot...w/ a little breeze =) i wanna go to the park and play on the playground :P haha and run around in the grass =) hahaha and yes =) i'm jus happy haha i like being happyyyy =) ohh yeaaa =) and i've been exercising...badmintonn =) haha like twice a week? plus the treadmill at home haha it feels good =) hahaha

Giving God the pen

giving God the pen...it's never easy....but then again..nobody ever said it was...it's not because i don't trust Him...I mean..after all he's done for me...how can i not trust Him. I guess it's a sense of ...i want to control my own life. pride..selfishness...*sigh...gotta work on it...i was thinking of this when i was walking home...i got the privledge to walk home today..and i actually wanted to...it was nice out...why not...=) but yes...
God's like an artist...painting a grand masterpiece of a certain place...the paint being maybe certain people or things that just bless one's day =) An artist not only has different colors, but different brushes, with different edges and sizes to create different strokes and effects. Us serving is kinda like..being those paintbrushes. God uses us in awesome ways to bless people's lives. However, we cannot do it alone. In order to complete this masterpiece, God's gotta use other paintbrushes too. =)
When something goes wrong...or you don't think you're doing enough...dont' be so hard on yourselves...i mean yes...we can all do a lot =) maybe even better sometimes...but God will use us in His plan where He sees fit =) it might not always be up to you =) it's not even your masterpiece to finish, but God's.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD , "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"
-Jeremiah 29:11

wow i haven't been talking about what's going on in my life for a while...so here goes...yesterday was soo much fun! haha went to KBBQ for dinner w/ 15 other people for Edwin's birthdayyy, which is on thursdayyyy =) haha soo joax haha the beef and the..diarrhea HAHA they know what i mean...hahaha and then..MANGO haha it was so much fun =) i'm glad everybody had fun! haha then after...we went to second cup and just chilled =) haha going crazy then calming down is good =P haha...yesterday my friend was showing me these lyrics from apparently a rock song....haha

Petra - Judas' Kiss
I wonder how it makes you feel when the prodigal won't come home
I wonder how it makes you feel when he'd rather be on his own
I wonder what it's like for you when a lamb has gone astray
I wonder what it's like for you when your children disobey

It must be like another thorn struck in your brow
It must be like another close friend's broken vow
It must be like another nail right through your wrist
It must be just like
Just like Judas' kiss

I wonder how it makes you feel when no one seeks your face
I wonder how it makes you feel when they give up in the race
I wonder what it's like for you when they willingly disobey
I wonder what it's like for you when they willingly walk away

those lyrics up there just made me think...so many times people sing and praise the Lord for His love and yet they sin without thinking of the consequences. And it's interesting becuase even if we do think of the consequences, we think of the consequences that affected US. Have we ever...EVER thought about how our loving father up there might feel? The chorus really hit home for me, just made me think i guess how much it could affect God. Think before you act because you'll never know who will be affected by it.

Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear. - Ambrose Redmoon
God never promised
A life without pain,
Laughter without tears
Or sun without rain.
But He did promise
Strength for the day,
Comfort for the tears
And light for the way,
And for all who believe
In His Heaven above
He rewards their faith
In His everlasting love.

hehe

u know whats a funny word? KERFLUFFLE haha makes me think of popcorn...hmmm i duno why...haha



haha popcorn see! =D

wow...

i haven't been here for so long..u know why? cuz i forgot my password..and like...i was so confused..and i forgot my username *sigh..haha and i went to florida =) had tonzaaa fun haha I MET STITCH =D haha cept kinda scary cuz he was as tall as me..so was lilo...=/ but yesss... i absolutely LOVEEE this picture.



eeeeeeeeeeee^^ love it sooo much SOO CUUUTEEE anywayysss =) haha toodles for now~

nothing

Today's application night was really well done =) haha good job clarence & liann =) awesome job u guys did. Anywayss yes yes humility..something i think all of us needs to learn because so many times we think we're better than others or we may take pride in our belongings or work or achievements. That honestly affects your relationship with God. I mean i know it does to for me. I guess when things might be going well or whatever and like...you feel so proud of your work, sometimes it may even go over God, making us idolize in our work. As weird as it may sound..idolizing in your work, it's very real and very true for some people, like me. I take pride in a lot of the achievements and work that i do and when i get good on it, i'm happy. However, sometimes it's hard to remember that' without God, we are NOTHING. N-O-T-H-I-N-G. and seriously He has a choice. Every good and perfect gift comes from Him and it's just so amazing how he gave us so much =) so amazing..you know...He gives and takes away. And honestly be thankful and look up to God when something good happens..because you know what? it comes from him. ALL OF IT. so yea =) k well bed time..haha early today =P toodless~

=)* smilesss

ahh~ i have a headache >.< and it stinks poo! =( but yes...other htan that..today's been pretty good. My week actually started out pretty darn bad...pissed off at my friend and like..just so many things to throw me off and i was thinkin....*haii..great...i had an awesome week last week and now this one is gonna be crap. Honestly i didn't think things could get better...but u know what? they did...it's thursday..and this week wasn't long at all...yes there were times where i just wanted to kick something..or throw something...or screamm....but God was always there..telling me that everything was going to be okay. Honestly that assurance that He's going to take care of everything is just...awesome..totally amazing =) I hafn't been stressed yet =) hehe so yup that's good =)
i found myself praying a lot lately..which is relli good =) but yea..just thanking God for everything..and just wanting to talk to Him all the time haha =) Prayer is honestly an AWESOME thing. Just puts a smile on my face =) just saying a simple hi and thanks to my daddy up there, i know it puts a smile on His face. As simple as that...and it puts a smile on my face too =) All He wants is for us to talk to Him, for us to know that He's always there =) hehe but yes=)*smilesss~

poooooooooo

i wanna read when God writes your love storyyyyy
jesssicaaaa cheung lend it to me =) please? =)

done!

course selection sheet due monday...i have finally chosen my courses....because me going into pharmceutical tech or design tech

- bio
- chem
- physics
- comm tech
- visual art

gee i hope i dun get bio, chem, and physics all in one sem..that would suck..big time

perspective

God has honestly given me a lot this week. Things are looking up =) and i'm happy haha. This week wasn't long...nor was it short...time was just..time...and I wasn't waiting for the day to end. I went by everyday, having a positive attitude, even in school...surprisingly and I guess with that, i like my classes a lot more. Just seeing things on a different perspective can totally change your day..or how you feel..your mood, etc. I mean like...this week...weather's been nice =) things have just been really great. I mean crazy things didn't happen...but i mean..you don't need crazy things to happen to be happy =) so yup =) i found this story..pretty cool stufff =) they read it at my school too...like..a month ago..i thought it was pretty cool =)

One day a father and his rich family took his son to a trip to the country with the firm purpose to show him how poor people can be. They spent a day and a night in the farm of a very poor family.
When they got back from their trip the father asked his son, "How was the trip?"
"Very good Dad!"
"Did you see how poor people can be?" the father asked.
"Yeah!"
"And what did you learn?"

The son answered, "I saw that we have a dog at home, and they have four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of the garden, they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lamps in the garden, they have the stars. Our patio reaches to the front yard, they have a whole horizon."

When the little boy was finishing, his father was speechless.His son added, "Thanks Dad for showing me how poor we are!"

Isn't it true that it all depends on the way you look at things? Perspective is honestly a beautiful thing =)

hope you liked it =) and hope everybody has a great rest of the week..haha

Prayer night =)

man...yesterday was honestly amazing. This whole week i've been trying to get back on track...and asking God to come back...for ME to go back to Him rather....and allow me to feel His presence. Last night was honestly incredible. When i was worship, when i was praying, I knew He was there for Jesus said:

For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them. (Matthew 18:20)

I was honestly in awe yesterday in EVERYTHING. I had no words to explain it. Prayer meeting was awesome..haha first time there...but honestly to hear how humble people were when praying it was just so amazing and i totally felt God's presence there, listening to the cries of His children. Just during the whole night, I guess I learned more and also just...got to reflect and everything, just praying for the church and stuff...i never knew there could be so much to pray for. lolz...but yea..then there was the candlelight thingy and i was with edwin & kitty. It was just so amazing you know? And there was music playing and I felt the Spirit in Me. I had sucha great urge to just Praise our Heavenly Father and it was just soo amazing you know? We did spontaneous prayer and it was just so amazing..haha i sang with the music and I prayed and I was like...I felt so on fire. Just throughout the rest of the night, my spirit was up and everything =) One night at fellowship can do a whole lot =)

Another thing, i'm so happy our cell group is getting closer =) it's so cool! haha like...i remember just like...3 weeks ago we were talking about we gotta work on it and stuff. And these past few weeks...our cell group is just opening up to each other and stuff =) I can honestly see some people grow, just opening up more and yea =) It's amazing =) haha i'm happy now haha but yea our cell group is getting smaller though...but that's okay! we're tight hahahaha i love you guys! And thanks to Jess C &amp;amp; Edwin & Jess W haha counsellor and cell group leaders =) u guys are awesomeeeee =) totallie haha

Snowglobe...

lalalalalala =) no hmwk todayyy =) haha it was snowing outside and me and jane were in science class and we were like...wowwww and this is what we came up with. Jane said that it looked like a snowglobe..haha so i was like..OOO it's like the world's like God's snowglobe..haha so pretty =) haha He shakes it up once in a while and makes it all pretty =) haha yes yes we're crazy...haha
On the other hand. Thing i'm trying to really do: Give up everything to GOD! try to stop trying =P haha and honestly I mean...life without God is meaningless and I guess many times i've tried to do things on my own...only to find out i can't do it...over and over again...haha you would think i would learn...*sigh..but yea...I just need to trust and put EVERYTHING is God's hands.
Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows. (Matthew 10:29-31)
I need to trust more upon the fact that God provides in ALL circumstances

Amazing Love

God you are honestly an amazing God. It just amazes me and sometimes even hard to grasp because you're so big and so eternal. And Father God, I know I have been unfaithful and so many times i have turned my back on you. Father I want to come back to you, I've strayed so far, trying to come back on my own, but God, I need your help. I want to come home to you again. I want to be able to praise you again with all my heart and truly be on fire for you God. Father I don't want any prize, no feast, no nothing, just that you guide me back to you. I know I am not worthy of your forgiveness and Father I stand in awe of you because your love and mercy never changes. Your love and mercy overflows and I just thank you so much and You deserve all my praise. In Jesus Name, Amen.

it's really amazing how God just comes and give you this "hug", telling you that everything's going to be okay when you feel like breaking down because you've drifted so far. I was reading John 10 today after school, and it talked about Jesus as the good shepherd and we are the sheep. And all these things He was saying all led to his death for us. It's indescribable as to how grateful and in awe i am at His love. Sometimes it's like...unbelievable that He would die for us, for ME. I don't deserve it...yet He loved us so much that He died for our sins. I was looking at the daily bread devos...and there was a quote:
Believing that Jesus died, that's history; believing that Jesus died for me, that's salvation.

*sigh...
How could it be? That you were the one on the cross. Lifted for all our shame. How could it be? The scares in your hands, are for me. You are the king of all.
(More than life - Hillsongs)

Love is in the air

happy valentine's day =) haha valentine's day...a day of...love and affection...haha why do we have a day for love? I mean...don't you show love and affection everyday to people? I don't know...but yea
haha funny how it's valentine's day and what's on my mind. I guess after the conversation I had with you last night, it made me reflect and think i guess...
Is there really a line that people can see or draw to separate friendship and relationship? Is there a distint point where you know and you can say that you know the difference? It's hard...because I don't know...maybe it's different for everybody because people may have a wide range of ideas but seriously what line? You can't draw a physical line...like...what and what not to do...because that's honestly kind of stupid. Emotional lines? controling your feelings? hard thing to do man. But i don't know...i guess we all have to draw our own lines because it's different for everyone.

Another thing....typical question that may don't have the answer to:
What is love?
Yes the Bible answers what love is... the aspects of love in 1 Corinthians 13. Paul makes it perfectly clear that love is important...even most important...more important than faith and hope. But how do you know when you're in love? I mean...yes the aspects are there...but i mean...how can you tell? it's so hard...like...honestly...who honestly knows what love is, and how love feels? I don't even know where i'm going with this. But yea...I guess makes me wonder to what extent of love have a truly experienced...haha yes yes i mean i know i'm a loved person :P haha family and friends...but yea...i don't know..haha

On another less thoughtful note, i'm not at school =) hehe freezin rain= no school =) haha yayynesss but yeaaa...haha

i lavvv you all =) happy valentine's day again =) that's all for now

Later Days~

girls, girls, girls

When a GIRL is quiet,Millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing,She is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions,She is wondering how long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a few seconds,She is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you,She is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest,She is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL calls you everyday,She is seeking for your attention.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday,She wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL sms's u everyday,She wants you to reply at least once.

When a GIRL says I love you,She means it.

When a GIRL says that she can't live without you,She has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a GIRL says "i miss you",No one in this world can miss you more than that

haha i found this.... =) haha

November baybeeee

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique
and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong
clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciates praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable

hmm...interesting..haha some of these aren't relli tru..hahaha like...less talkative..hahaha =P

Koinonia retreat =)

*sigh...i got back from retreat yesterday at 5:30 and i miss it...*sigh...it was so much fun...so tiring...but so much fun. wow...I really needed that retreat...i mean ever since baptism...i haven't been the greatest i guess...not on track...drifting a lot..and that retreat helped me see at least the direction i have to go. Honestly...kevin's sermons helped me a lot. Humility, Discipline, and Surrender. THREE TOPICS =) wow...it was just so amazing...you know...like..how God spoke to me, telling me that I need to just let go, let Him do it, and be disciplined EVERYDAY! IT's sucha hard thing to do because so many times i worry, but God's telling me that it's okay...because He will deal with it because He has His will for me and all i need to do is let Him do it...do His will instead of my own. and wow...on sunday..the songs..were amazing...we didn't know the sermon was about surrender your will for His...and our response song..was surrender...God is an awesome God =) truly He is.
It was also so awesome i got to stargaze and stuff...and it's just so amazing to look at God's creation...see the beauty He has created in this world...and it just totally reflects the song Indescribable ....how all the stars in the sky and every creature praises Him, reflects His glory and majesty. wow....i miss retreat but yes...it was totally worthwhile! TOTALLY!

here's pix from retreat if u wanna see:http://www.imagestation.com/member/?name=lil-angel-4ever

for 3ternity

today sermon PJ was talking about our purpose right? and there was something he said that was sooo true...he said that compared to eternity, our life on earth is like a weekend vacation. Sometimes we tend to get all settled in and make sure everything is comfortable and all, but in the end, you're gonna have to leave anyways and in the end, none of it will matter. And it's so true to our lives. I mean so many times I make big deal outta things that really don't matter. Many times we sit there making sure we're happy, making sure we're living life to the fullest. But are those deeds that you see as fullest really pleasing to God? I mean we can just sit there and let the time go by, thinking we're bored and have nothing else better to do...but every minute counts, why not do something that will count for ETERNITY. I mean yes it's exam week..and yes ppl are stressed..and yes ppl wannna get good marks...But i really don't think God cares whether you get a 70 or a 90 on that exam. Sure, He might care how HARD you TRY but in the end, it doesn't really matter becuase it doesn't count for eternity. But instead..try doing something that would count..like praising Him, spreading His Word, praying, doing devos, things like that =) things that are perfect and pleasing in HIS eyes. so what you waiting for? go out there and SERVE THE LORD! =) haha
and don't worry about exams THAT much
it's not the end of the world if u dun get the mark u want to

later days~