simply me.

Friday, April 21, 2006

sunshine :)

so everything's good now :) I am happy :) we're all happy :) yayy haha

i've been tired...and sick :( but that's okay..im getting better! haha and so jokes eating lunch with nat and edwin outside AHHA nat stories haha and pieces of the wall at school LMAO! ahha i love you guys. haha

AND...my daddy is home! :) yayyy haha i feel happy =) so it's been good...because God is good =)

so...tomorrow is ...worship night...im scared..excited..worried..happy...
kinda glad for a time to just..reflect even though i'm leading :) it's gonna be awesome because it's gonna be God-led =)

totally lovin' the sunshine

God above all the world in motion
God above all my hopes and fears
I don't care what the world throws at me now
I'm gonna be alright

'Cause I know my God saved the day
And I know his word never fails
And I know my God made a way for me
Salvation is here
-Hillsongs United

true dat yo'

so assured that God has everything in control :)

Monday, April 17, 2006

untitled

haha okay so i learned something new....

silas ng doesnt go to ryerson HAHA where does he go?

haha anywayss yeaaa easter dinner last night =) it was so awesome and the food was good! :) thanks anita! haha getting to talk to everybody for like...1 hr cuz eric, candee & kitty never came..haha PRESTUDY at 7 not DINNER at 7 haha gosh eric get it right! hahaha anywayyyss =) it was so much fun haha talking about our childhoods and what not hahha good times :) i love k-cab!

and then we shared and it was cool just a time to pray with ivan, mel, and grace and just listening to how the rest of the cell groups are doing =) and we found a youth pastor!!!! haha well he's coming to do prestudy on sunday :) excited to meet him..

and then..well the night didn't end so well i guess...with what happened and what not and me crying my eyes out so much that this morning i woke up with my eyes three times smaller. lolz but it's okay! because i have AMAZING friends =) i love you guys for just sitting there and listening when i was such a mess last night =) thanks mel, anita, eric & david =) yea boys officially suck haha and history is repeated..and mel laughs at me =(

then i got in trouble with my mom cuz i came home really late..but i talked to her about my problem and what not..and she listened...and i felt a little better

yea wasn't able to sleep that well last night..but it's okay i feel a lil better now...but now i gotta fix it....*sigh God i guess it's time right?

Friday, April 14, 2006

chapters =)

Today was such a cool day =) yes it was raining..i think and it was really cloudy, but it was still a good day =) so i drove this morning. I'm getting better! haha i like driving now :P haha did a lot of parking and turning and what not. =) i have to learn to let the wheel recover itself. lolz anywhoosss

met up with candyy at starbucks/chapters. haha candee: look the book is $3.99 and it's so thick! haha

we talked at starbucks for like...one and half hour until we saw mich and cheryl =) haha they went to go look at books and we talked a little more...im so full ><>< good =")" chiu =")">
me: where would mich and cheryl be?
candee: just find the place with the smartest books.

haha and we found them..at fiction and literature haha michelle knows like..all authors HONESTLY haha me and candee are just like..huh? haha and candee doesnt read and doesn't know books unless if they're from movies hahah right? haha manhunt and in her shoes haha then..MAGAZINES hahaha we are hopeless...apparently really bad according to cheryl and mich haha so joax dough =P and mich going angry over not being able to buy books is really scary hahaha she won't get themm from the library till she's 80 poor girl

then aww man my favourite part...the KIDS SECTION! yayyy haha Dr. Seuss and the science book LMAO! yayy story time with mich haha we all just sat there and read them..aha me and candee were sooo amused at the Dr. Seuss pop-up book HAHA we're like.."michelle! POP UP POP UP! OVER THERE *grabs and opens the page* haha OMGSH they move!" HAHHA cheryl i want those pictures! :) and i love the olivia book haha soo cuuuuuute and if you give a mouse a cookie :) haha my comment: why are mice so ma fan? haha

i love children's books ^^ good childhood memories. hehe we stayed there till 5. haha woww i had so much fun =P we should sit in the kids section reading books again girls :) aha honestly it's fun haha sitting in a circle together reading books to each other =P haha total and utter amusement =P

my favourite book :P

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

all better =)

wow God works miracles alright

i woke up this morning to find that my fever was gone :) woww a one day fever. Who honestly have one-day fevers. haha man i feel so much better today =D so much more alive! haha anywayyss yes yes haa so joax with trisia today "am i going to get pregnant?" LMAO! haha trish those are flower sperms HAHAHA soo joax hahaha and having lunch with jenn, gordon, nat, alton, monique & hollie aww man started talking about elementary school haha me having no friends..thanks for reminding me everytime hollie..and hollie being whitewashed HAHA so unbelievable haha

so yes i feel 10 billion times better today :) thanks to all those who cheered me up yesterday!

Monday, April 10, 2006

God's will vs my will

*sigh sunday school made me think yesterday. Yes we didn't really talk on topic...as usual :P but iuno it really hit me when we were talking about friends with benefits. And i mean..it's bad. and i don't know..got me thinking about emotions and feelings and people and stuff.

had a talk with silas

thanks :) lolz better than david forcing me to do stuffs :P

but yea really praying on it. thinking on it. I need time...

I need space

I want God's will because it's so much better than mine.

He knows what's best for me

He knows what i have to do

He knows when i'm ready

Saturday, April 08, 2006

vroommm

wow this week has been hectic..but it's okay! it's kinda over now :) i'm okay now :) God brought me through it! :D omgsh did the scariest thing today...

I DROVE

as in behind the wheel of a real car haha (no natalie not a fisherprice car)

so scaryyy :(

driving is scary..kinda fun.but scary haha especially the highway..yes the teacher is crazy..making me go on the highway *sigh..but it's okay! i survived! yayyy haha and i didn't kill anyonee :) yayy haha (see eric and david! i can drive! hahahaha)

that is my story for now...

Sunday, April 02, 2006

sunshine :)

rwar rwar rwarrr

wow today was such a nice day =) and i got to enjoy it too! Today's nooma was "Noise" the topic being silence and solitude. and you know what our cool sunday school class did? we went to the park! yayy i loved it! it was sooo nice outside..and i got to sit outside and not do anything for a good 20 minutes :) silence is amazing. like i just sat there...and i prayed and i listened. And I heard God in the gentliest of all whispers :) I love it when He speaks through silence. I love looking around and being in awe of all the things he created. I mean WOW. It's not like i've never been at the park before..i've been there a billion times. But...everytime i'm amazed because he made it all..ALL OF IT. not some of it...ALL OF IT. Wow....I love nature :)

our sunday school class is oh so very cool :)

Friday, March 31, 2006

judged

I have this huge urge to blog before i keep rethinking and bursting into tears.

I feel so empty right now...i felt so invisible tonight. It was kind of like walking into fellowship and even though people talk to you, i don't know..i had this lonely feeling....or maybe it was just me in a bad mood. but keeping that smile on works..until you just cant keep it up anymore. When you don't show sadness...just...no expressions.

Sometimes i feel like i've done so many things wrong to other people....like i always constantly mess up...saying the wrong things...doing the wrong things. and it's like..constantly being judged for it. iuno ..i got my bio test back today..highest mark in the class...and my teacher says it outloud too..and even before he said it..heard people saying...."Oh it's going to be Agnes again" and it hurts. I mean...you're not supposed to be ashamed of good marks right? but when people look at you like...they hate you and judge you because you're trying your best..like it hurts. It's not like i want to beat everybody. I just wanted to do good. *sigh I don't know...i wasnt feeling so great the rest of the day.

*sigh...i feel so alone right now. =(

Thursday, March 30, 2006

=) b-e-a-utiful

this week has been..really slow haha I don't know..but everyday felt like friday...but it's okay. This week's weather has been absolutely amazing =) 17 degree afternoons yayyyy haha loving the cool breeze with the sun on my back on my way home =) hehe so currently obsessing over the movie...high school musical haha aww mann soo cuuutee :P the cutest cheesy movie ever ahaha =P haha yes i am such a sap. Anywhoosss

I felt happy to find my test easy to me today. SO couldn't have done it without God. Honestly...I don't understand how i ever got to cram that info all in my brain. There's a lot of stuff to Judaism. but yea =) It's actually pretty interesting...considering I don't really know anything about other religions. but yea =) thanks Jon for helping me study last night haha you now know everything i know about judaism haha =P Praise the Lord for giving me such an awesome friend =)

Today was my first ever promotions meeting for our spring production...Draculaa =) oOooOO im sooo excited haha I got so hyped over it. ahha Man thinking about like decoration ideas and what not =) I get to paint a big poster =) like BEDSHEET size..tha'ts preetty huge hahaha im oh soo excited! and im helping out selling tickets...which means i get to wear costumes haha and paint more posters haha eeeeeeee^^ oh so excited. Anddd I'm helping out with the program =)

I think i'm going to tutor gr 10 science this semester. I feel like I'm joining so much stuff, but I want to =P i don't know...been praying about it....and i have the biggest urge to tutor =/ kinda weird. well God will pull me through my busy schedule =) just like He has pulled me through everything else.

Thanks to my girls for being there for me when i was feeling a lil bleh this week. I love you girlss =) you know who you are.

excited for tomorrow and this weekend because
a) planning worship night with mel tomorrow =D haha our stacked team
b) imma get my haircut =) more layered and shorter
c) not so much homework and with the lovely weather well...=) time to go out for a jog

haha the simple things of this weekend that makes me look forward to it...and maybe insurance class...yes it's boring..but i have natalieeee =) that's al that matters LMAO! and our cool drawings hahaha eric you would know about those =P

i want to watch She's the man! =) natalie..you have a date with me for that during easter

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

a story

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His father gave him a bag of nails and told him that everytime he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence. The first day the boy driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few week, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammer gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.

Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper. The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there.

Saturday, March 25, 2006

cafe night =)

Praise the Lord!

God is truly amazing :) Last night was just absolutely amazing! Man we rocked! Honestly...I don't know how we pulled through it. One really bad practice + one practice w/o sound = an amazing worship? yea God is TRULY in that equation! He never ceases to amaze me and pull through :) You just gotta learn to trust.

Cafe night was awesome! :) awesome job drama, food, speaker, av :) drama was amazing :) it felt good jus watching instead of being part of it. amazing job guys!

Thanks darren for helping me out :) honestly w/o you i'd be soo screweddd. Thanks a billion!

God truly works :) just keep your eye on the prize and everything will b a-okay =)

*and janice, i want a copy of that video!

Friday, March 24, 2006

im so drained :( been trying to do so much this week and as darren said.."working in teh worst case scenarios" *sigh i hope worship works out tonight..all God's man :) float sale ends today..kinda relieved...hahaa but yea okay in comm tech...i should go :P haha im xcited for cafe nite tonight =)
im lifting it all up to Him...

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

aching thoughts

je suis back :)

i was back sunday at 3:30 :) man it feels good to be home :) cept my house was freaking freezing when i got back but it's okay now =)

a new start to a new week

a thought to ponder on...God's gift of salvation...so free..let so little take it. It's like somebody giving you a free car and you wont take it. Why? Because you're scared of what might happen? is it too good to be true? What have you got to loose? i look at the lives of so many of my friends at school, with their problems, difficulties, obstacles that cant doesnt seem to stop and i can only think of one true solution...God.

It makes me sad to see people who live their lives crying their tears and not turning to God.

Lord, You love him so
You gave Your only Son
If he will just believe
He will never die
But how then will he know
What he has never heard?
Lord he has never seen mirrored in my life

Save one more for Jesus...

Friday, March 17, 2006

Florida weekkkk :)

hey everybodyyy okay so im coming back tomorroww :) mann i gotta wake up at 5am tomorrow :( ughh ahha i'ts okay i'll sleep in the car tomorrow haha like i always do :P anywhoooss this week has been AWESOMEEE here's the summary :)

Friday and Saturday
ride to Florida..mann i felt carsick soo many timesss 22hours man! insanity! haha but yea...spent my time..sleeping and listening to music :) hehe then my knees were hurting and what not..but it was cool looking out the window..seeing sunrises and sunsets :) totally in awe of God's creation. And on the way to florida...or just in the states..on the highways...iuno there's like..sets of crosses...like..three crosses and what not..and so iuno it was just so cool. One large one in the middle and two white ones on the side. Totally reminded and amazed by God's unconditional and undying love for us =)

Monday
I went to Tampa Bay...a city in Florida..to visit my mom's friend and they havent seen each other for 27 years..WOWWW that's like..almost 30 and they're still friends...unbelievable..anywhooss went to the beach :) oooOOooO i loveeee lying there and not thinkin about anything and it was not too hot...like a tiny lil breeze and it was SOO nice :) and i found this AWESOME shell haha like..three haha who said u cant find shells there? :P hahha and yea..had dinner with my mom's friend...she's so nice :) it was cool haha i found out that florida is like..chinese-food deprived...man they dun have like...bbq pork and what not..it's INSANITY! like..there's two chinese restaurants in all of Tampa...that's like..having two restaurants in Markham...wth haha i could never imagine haha so yea got home and i learned how to play pool!!!!!! hahahaha

Tuesday
Went shopping at florida mall :) Got a new pair of jean capris :) hehe yayyyyy i love new clothes LMAO! i couldnt find anything i liked from billabong and aeropostale :( i wanted something doughhhh haha ah well and yea....went to walmart...i got a pooh bear towel hehe it's so cuutee but it's retarded..when my mommy washed it..there were like....stuff coming off of it to the other clothes..im like..wth..so we hafta return it :( i want another pooh towel

Wednesday
Went to Magic Kingdom :) I love the magic kingdom it's so...magical haha but yea i saw mickeyyyy and i didnt see pooh bearrrr :( i got sad....*haii but it's okayy sorryyy jesss no pooh bear for uuu ....bought stuffs for people and...i went on all these kkiddy rides :P i like kiddy rides haha i got myself a new cup :) a POOHBEAR cup haha i suddenly have a HUGE obsession over pooh hahah he's just so CUTE! haha and yea :) saw fireworks and the parade :) eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee^^

Thursday
went to Kennedy Space Center :) I want to go to space lolz saw all these old rockets and what not...>CRAZYYYY haha

Friday
Went to Orlando Premium Outlet :) mannn i went into stores where i would never buy things from...like...fendi and coach and versace and dior and mannnnn :) i was like..*gasp* and going insane over burberry bags and what not...BUT i did happen to bring things back :P

two timberland drawstring bags
one ecko sweater
souvenirs and what not for people lolz
pair of bongo jean capris from sirens

honestly the most money i've spent on a trip :P but it's all good ahhaha yayyy coming home tomorrowww :) soo excited i missed everybody soooooo muchhhh

Monday, March 06, 2006

weekend

one of the most amazing weekend i've had in a VERY long time =)

Saturday

Worship Practice was soo awesome! =) it sounded so great and i love working with that team =)
insurance class was SOO joax! LMAO! haha stories of eric and poop hahaha and fart and bev HAHA nat i love you girl! haha honestly i wouldn't survive through insurance class if it wasnt for you haha "now we're doing checking the car" "well that didn't take too long" LMAO! haha
Curious George - cutest movie EVERRRRR =) I LOVE IT! haha yes eric i was loud, so what? haha sue me lolz :P u know u loved it haha thanks jon for the glossettes >< haha eating that expensive chocolate $3.75 man! haha
a.group - amazing worship :) true, skill-less worship :) i love it. The Spirit works, the spirit calls =) awesome talking to gil, candy, kitty, ivan =) thanks candy for your thoughts..it's been a while since i talked to you. i honestly miss it.

Sunday

waking up at 7 in the morning to worship and what not is so worth it haha but so tiring lolz worship was amazing! =) awesome job team! good job leading worship darren! totally hype man
message was short and sweet =) like krispy kreme donuts hehe
NOOMA =) i love rob bell videos. "God puts us through those trials because it's the time where he can hold us close" i love looking at it that way =)
finishing homework...biology amazes me...everything's so complex...God is truly amazing =) So creative...haha so indescribable
watching Oscars =) hehe

that's basically my weekend :) it was hectic...but awesome! =) eeeeeeeee^^ florida in 3 days =)

Thursday, March 02, 2006

I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much.
Mother Teresa

loving this quote

isn't it amazing..that God...who is so BIG..believes in us.

wow

Sunday, February 26, 2006

I'm lovin' it
okay not mcdonalds haha i don't like mcdeess
haha just loving this weekend :) truly blessed
truly thankful
truly happy

lovin'
-the sunny weather this weekend
- the good times me and nat had in the car yesterday..(Pulp, mouse w/ biceps, and running maple leaf haha)
- my awesome university friends :) welcome home boys and girls
- haha little old ladies that shove lydia around haha total joax
- my brother sitting beside me on the piano and just singing to the songs i play :P haha cuz im that cool
- darren, jason, jon, and eric and how they never cease to amuse me
- watching issy do stupid things haha like climbing over chairs
- being a dinosaur and rawr-ing
- worshipping God
- getting emails from people =)
- sitting in front of the piano and just playing
- the food my mommy makes :P

the simple, little things that just make my weekend =)

Saturday, February 25, 2006

=) friday night

man last night was so purly amazing :)
looking forward to this night for the past week..man sooo worth it =)
Bible study went AMAZINGLY well...I was soo happy and one thing i learned...never be afraid of silence..and it was hard for me just i guess...becuase i'm an extrovert =P haha but most of my group are introverts so...haha but it was cool =) everybody talked and i don't know...we had like...eight people...and people were comfortable with everyone =) i loved it :) my group got so much closer haha....honestly never thought we'd get closer during..a bible study but yea =) it was pretty cool. And i was amazed that we finished like..all 54 cards ...with eight people! that's AMAZING =) God is good. He has truly blessed me with such an awesome cell group :) i love you guyssss

after fellowship was fun tooooo :) welcome back everyone =) good to see smiling university students back :) hehe welcome back waterloo, western and mcMaster kids =) haha i came upstairs and then jon reaches for my face and starts trying to make me smile when i was already smiling..i was like...owwwww...my face is stretched now =( so yea we went over to jon's house after getting a hazelnut smoothiee =) hehe so joax haha eric's face on the metal pin..thing..thing ahha and he hurt my head with it..haha then he tried to copy his biceps LMAO! haha and me and andrea started arguing about..our fatness again...omgsh ahhahahhaa and yea...=) it was funny =P I called darren like 5 times..he finally shows up and here's his story...apparently he came and nobody was here...and he had to go pee..so he went to second cup..right when he was done..i called him..AGAINN haha and he got annoyed =P haha sorryy dt. then...man! stupid jon! XP poopfaceeeee i was so scared! never trusting jon again...him and his water trick XP and my cell fone got wet =( and i was sad =( then pizza came and i ate..and i was happy again..haha and then i forgave him =) yes jon you are forgiven lolz. and darren had to learn to be useful by getting his mathbook for sharon and so he drove me home....hahahah safe driver darren? LMAO! so joax in the car haha

darren: you know i'm just driving straight right?
me: turn right here
*We're on captain francis
me: okay now go look for the school bus
darren: school bus! school bus! ahha *speeds from 40km/h to 60km/h*
me: SAFE driver darren..SAFE driver
darren: safe? okay *sharp turn*
me: I am NEVER sitting in this car AGAIn

LMAO! hahaha. and he's torturing me for worshipp hahaha im excited though =)

awesome night last night =) awesome way to top off my week!

i love you all

Thursday, February 23, 2006

cough cough

Agnes is sick...she has a fever and a cold

this makes her very sad =(

and she still has to go to school

which makes Agnes even sadder =(

*why am i talking in third person?

Sunday, February 19, 2006

untitled.

boys are stupid and mean =(

....

but i guess we have to learn to love them right?

*sigh
Why do i suddenly feel so secluded because of how i feel?

it's times like these...i want to control myself

tell myself to stop

but i cant seem to...

oh a happy note =) welcome back jess, jas, alicee, lydia..and everyone else who came back for reading week :)

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LOVELY GAH GEH WHO is a total poop sometimes :P haha i love you lydiaaa :) happy birthdayyy

Saturday, February 18, 2006

awesome test :)

haha found this on Ardi's xanga haha i found it very funny :P haha so mo liu :P enjoy

In the middle of the table is a round food tray with five kinds of Fruits on it. They are:
a. Apple
b. Banana
c. Strawberry
d. Peach
e. Orange

Which fruit will you choose? Please think VERY carefully and don't rush into it. This is great, I was astounded! Your choice reveals a lot about you!

Please SCROLL DOWN

If you have chosen:
a. Apple: That means you are a person who loves to eat apples
b. Banana: That means you are a person who loves to eat bananas
c. Strawberry: That means you are a person who loves to eat strawberries
d. Peach: That means you are a person who loves to eat peaches
e. Orange: That means you are a person who loves to eat oranges

duncha love it? i love it =P

Friday, February 17, 2006

hmm....

so yea :) i guess today was alright. I didn't really feel like in the mood to do anything though =/ it's weird i guess sleeping for a day and then going back to school for another day and then weekend ahah it felt like..today was monday ahha cuz it was snowday on friday =) anywayss
well i survived today...haha wasn't all that great...but wasn't bad...
I ACTUALLY bought my matchmaker list today...it was very..weird hahaha and camy is my best friend now =P hahaha but yea. something happened today...

My brother got sick...okay so you think no big deal whatever. I thought so too I mean just another fever or whatever. But it's kind of scary how dead he looks...like a zombie...and it scares me. I think it's times like these where I want to do all I can to make my brother's time ...better i guess haha and it's funny cuz usually it's like..trying to make his life miserable. I kind of begin to miss the amazingly crazy energy my brother has 24/7. I mean sure it's annoying...but heck...without it..my house would be pretty darn silent haha. The hidden love for my brother I never really knew I had. I sure hope he feels better.

As for fellowship..it was alright haha joax with mel, grace and Ivan while filling that test out =P haha but yea it was alright i guess. I wasn't really in the mood for anything today...and eric is egotistic =P (I think that's how you spell it =P) hahaha

the end =)

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Snow Day : )

who would've thought :) haha anyways I was happy today =) haha getting to relax a little and fasttrack on math aha yes i am a nerd doing homework on a snow day =P haha but yea it was cool just being able to sit at home..and just chill =) and it's good to hear my mom's voice in the house all day again ahha and my brother wasn't home all day...so it was very...quiet ahha i played piano again and mann it felt soo good =) i love it haha anyways that is my day =) hehe relaxing and well i watched part of memoir of a geisha....it's actually pretty darn good =) until stupid cyrus called me hahaha i love you =P but yea it's fun talking to cyrus...but not when he's in the bathroom HAHAHA okay time to go to sleep earlyyy =)

blessed
beyond
belief :)

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Happy valentine's Day

Okay so I don't have anyone to celebrate it with but hey whatever man =) haha i had fun ahah that's all that matters =P haha it was like...Spread the love day at my school today haha it's like..give people high-fives, hugs and what not hahaha fun stuff =) and me, nat and hollie are like..yayy valentine cards LMAO! thanks u two! aha loving my nemo and spongebob cardsss =) and some guys are just awesome and just make you feel special cuz they're cool like that =) i love you guysss <3

anywayss haha can't help but think about like..marriage and dating and what not today haha and you know what i realized? sure everybody's all...oh going out w/ my boyfriend/girlfriend for dinner or w/e...and sure i'm like..a.ww that's so cute or sweet or w/e hahaha...but..but it's okay =) haha I think this is one of my happiest v-days yet haha instead of despising it like most singles I feel loved =P haha I honestly am thankful for knowing that people love meee =) hahahaha
and meh...boyfriend...I'll get one in time =P

so yes =)
toodles for now~

Monday, February 13, 2006

*satisfied

Amazing how relying on Him can just fill you up so much more :)
Today was..Pay it Forward Day at school and if you haven't seen the movie like me, it's like..basically someone does a good deed and the person who recieves that good deed hasta do another good deed and what not..and we signed this heart that was going all over the school if you do a good deed and w/e haha i know it sounds corny and cheesy haha...but

when i signed it at the end of the day...i saw these names and i thought to myself...imagine if we were nice to everyone everyday. Wouldn't that be cool? haha I don't know. I guess it's hard to find people, especially at school who are genuinely nice.

Anywhooss I feel totally blessed...totally content right now :) no more stressing about school. Honestly relying on myself for last sem and messing up with God is enough...totally relying on Him this sem :) and like candy reminded me:
If God wants to do miracles, He will. Amen to that :)

haha fun times at lunch today :) haha i forgot the last time i had fun fun at lunch ahha missing those days with the WHOLE gang :( i miss you alton and hollie

<3>

Saturday, February 11, 2006

*sigh

Sometimes i just don't see the point in trying to please people anymore. So basically what happened last night was that....I got yelled @ by my parents again. And it was even stupider because I wanted to go out and I didn't because I knew that they didn't want me to. So therefore...I didn't bother asking. Then...THEN my brother goes and tells my dad on the phone that I wanted to go out and I was like..ughh and I was like..yea dad I considered it just because I haven't been out in like two weeks. And he was just like...okay so I didn't really care at that point in time. Whatever...I don't get to go out..no big deal. Then i get home and I sat in my room for like...30 minutes because for some odd reason, I felt suddenly very exhausted...i felt like...there was something wrong in my life...but there wasn't....kinda weird...so at this point..I was tired. i want to be left alone.
Anyways...no details..wayy to much but basically. I got yelled @ for even thinking about the idea of going out and having "attitude".

So here's why I cried last night. I felt like when I said that I wasn't going to go out...I did the right thing. I mean I considered what my mom wanted no? But I get yelled at anyways because i CONSIDERED it. To this point I feel like..what's the point? either way I get yelled at. Either way I get blamed for things I didn't do. i hate that. I hate trying to do the right thing and it just backfires on you. SO yes I cried last night for about a good 40 minutes and I prayed...it's interesting when you pray and you cry...when you listen to yourself you realize just how much you need Him.

Find shelter in Him.

16Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
- 2 Corinthians 4:16-18

As the thunder rolls 
I barely hear You whisper through the rain 
"I'm with You" 
And as Your mercy falls 
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives 
And takes away ....

Every tear I've cried 
You hold in Your hand 
You never left my side 
And though my heart is torn 
I will praise You in this storm

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Truly Blessed.

Honestly I'm loving this semester :) not caring as much about marks. But just loving and seeing the best in every subject and even in people :) I feel so much happier, so much more renewed. Yea sure, nothing special is going on, but whatever. Everyday is a blessing. A chance to do something for God, do something to show people His love :). I feel so renewed. Starting fresh

Thanks God

Monday, February 06, 2006

retreato6

wow.

words can never describe the amazing weekend I just had. I needed that retreat and I thank everyone that made it possible. It was simply amazing the peace I felt just being there. I mean sure the weather wasn't all that great and I lost my voice and I was dead tired on the bus, but it was oh so worth it. Tim Tang firstly, was simply amazing. His messages honestly made me think so much that i regret not taking sermon notes :( haha but it's okay because it's all stuck in the head. He was talking about dying to expectations, dying to what we want and letting God do miracles in our lives. It was so true. It was so real in my life that it just kind of wacked me in the head. Dying to expectations. Dying to what we want. I felt God calling me that weekend to die to my expectations of everything...friends...marks...retreat...even fellowship. I had expectations coming into retreat and I think after I let those go...everything was just okay. I mean I was so afraid of like..worship and everything..loosing my voice. Yet God showed me so much more. I felt God working and it was the most amazing thing. I guess I haven't opened up my eyes for a while and during this retreat...man was I able to see...with my heart. I loved Tim Tang's messages :)

Workshop was amazing too! When we did the activity thinking about the word/phrase from the bible, it really clicked that God was asking me to serve and I realize my response has been "Here I am" I loved it.

I think my favourite part of retreat was candlelight sharing. haha every retreat it's the most emotional part of it...and I think every year somebody cries...This year I cried too haha. I loved how people shared and they were like I don't know what to talk about then they go like...crazy talking for like...10 minutes. And I loved how like...the younger gr 9 & 10s talked too! :) Truly inspiring listening to how people were changed because of Him and because of our relationship with each other :) I loved how people were so honest...so real...so true. Kathy's sharing...I loved it and God gave me so much more hope. Man i started crying because I was so amazed by what God has been doing. I haven't seen people come to Christ for a REALLY long time and her sharing just gave me reassurance that He's still working. I was so amazed. The only thing that was going through my head during that time was PRAISE THE LORD. Unbelievable. I was also amazed by Jon Wong's sharing...just listening to him have so much faith in the future of Koinonia, listening to what he sees. jus...amazing

It was fun overall :) Good times with eric, mike, dex, kathy, issy & yuki :) haha all nighter singing songs haha jackie, donna, & esther must think we're INSANE! hahaha I don't think jackie ever..EVER saw me so high hahaha and yea just talking to melody and eric :) thanks guys! i love you!!! and wow talked so much to janice and to my cabinmates :P haha i love you girlss (palmira, mich, susan, liann, danielle, angel, yuki) :D it was fun...but onne thing was evident in my mind and heart

God was there and He was visible =) PRAISE THE LORD

picture time
my pics: http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2109435065
dexter's pics: http://ca.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/d_choy1/album?.dir=b605&.src=ph

Thursday, February 02, 2006

DONE =) haha

wow can't believe i felt soo relaxed this whole week. =) it was sooo awesome and i honestly couldn't have made it this far if it wasnt for my AWESOME friends =)
Thanks for...
- the amazing talks of never giving up and telling me to jus chill
- always believing in me
- always making me smile =)
-continuously praying for me
- always...ALWAYS telling me to loook Up
- and definately always being there for me =) i love you guys

appreciating the emails and messages =)

-helped me get through that stressful week of exams

oh another note =) awesome days since monday =) haha nat came over after exams on monday and then i went to go babysit =)
Then tuesday...some relaxing time with my mommyy haha just sitting home and i felt good about it...haha you know...doing some stuff for my mom...doing some chores...then sitting down watching tv...SO don't mind that i mean i'ts good sometimes to go nowhere and jus sit at home....i haven't done that in AGES.

Then wednesday...went shopping in the morning with david & michelle =) which was fun haha "shopping is an art" haha =) then after that....went home and jus relaxed again and wen out for dinnerrr =) ohhHhhH soo much fun at trish & bev's birthday =) haha i lavv u guys! hha i love my family! haha gordon, calvin, eric, me, nat & bev haha SOO joax! our stamp! booyaaa haha and me and gordon acting like that guy on the poster LMAO! ahah aww man i had fun =) then me, eric, nat & bev went to talk about some stuff...galleria is SOOO stupid! they ACTUALLY charge u for jus...sitting there! omgsh! aha so i got a lemon tea haha and we talked...pretty deep talk man...but yea that was good =)

and todayy...special day...dun dun dun
happy birthday to miss candee cheung =)

i lav u girl! =) even though we dun talk as much anymore =) i still lovee uuu

haha and yup that's all....retreat worship practice @ mel's house later =) excited haha kk

so yes overall awesome week =) chilling with friends and jus catching up with myself and most importantly getting back on track with Him

well that's all for nowww
latersss

One more day till retreat!

Sunday, January 22, 2006

keep smilin

i am...
very tired
sick
fustrated
stressed
confused
worried

BUT
i'm still smiling
God is still providing

Praising Him in the storm :)

no more posting till exams r done (Jan 30th) until then... :)

Sunday, January 15, 2006

stressed..yet blessed

wow...

these past two days have just been...chaos. What happens when you don't trust in God and when you don't believe in yourself. *sigh finally broke down and cried yesterday becuase i felt like i couldn't do it anymore. I had so much to do, so much i want to do, so many expectations to follow and yet....so little time. I felt better after talking to people today and konw what i realized? yes i am stressed...yes school is hectic, yes school does suck very much when exams are two weeks away but you know what?

i'll get through it =) I just know it....when i draw strength from God i can do anything =) superwoman or as jon calls me, "supereggs" =) and becuase i am greatly blessed

I am blessed with...
the amazing emails from mel, jon & my cell group
the endless support from my friends
the support from my parents
the people who always tell me to never give up
the people who never gave up on me
a brother who knows i have a lot to do and does my chores without even asking =)
counsellors who are constantly praying for me and just being there
an amazing worship team to work with and just to be able to have a time where i could laugh
and finally...

and Faithful God who never ceases to amaze me...who continues to shower me with blessings beyond anything

reminder: God will never give you more than you can handle =) If He brought you in it, He can bring you THROUGH it =)

Thursday, January 12, 2006

living testimony

Something interesting happened this week at school...so here goes

At the beginning of this new year, i prayed to God that He would show me a
way to shine His light because so many times, I felt like I wasn't doing
much. I felt like everybody else, nothing really different about me that
people could see. Amazingly He showed me a way, that was definately not
easy. The first day i came back to school, a friend of mine cracked a joke
about me taking my faith seriously and gave me the nickname of Nun Chung.
Yea heck i thought it was funny at first...I mean i didn't think it was a
big deal. Until things got a little out of hand. When i talk, when i do
things, people refer it to me being "nun-like", making fun of me for taking
my religion so seriously. And yes, you may think that it's okay because it's
my friends and i shouldn't take it seriously. But honestly, truthfully, it
hurts. It hurts when people make fun of something that means so much to you.
It hurts when people don't take you seriously anymore because you're not
like them, becuase you're "different" It annoys me, it makes me feel like
there's something wrong with me. I mean...who likes to be made fun of?
constantly too? It is this week that I realized that it was what I have
asked for. If you think about it, a normal person would fight back with
swearing and what not and telling the person to shutup. But I'm different. I
am a child of God. THAT makes all the difference. I found myself praying
more for guidance, for patience, for strength. And even in this situation, I
prayed for humility. It was hard for me and God knew that. But throughout
the week, the more i prayed, the more i was made fun of, the closer i felt
to God. It was pretty amazing. I mean sure it still hurts, but knowing that
I'm not alone in this makes me feel ten billion times better :)

We are living sacrifices, we are like...breathing walking testimonies. God is faithful regardless :) He provides

Sunday, January 08, 2006

sunday fun =)

highlights of my Sunday

1) Darren making up melody's essay "Hi my name is Melody. Today I want to talk about friends. I have none."
2)jon lecturing me about hitting people ><"
3) hitting darren =) which is acceptable =P
4)going to wendy's with darren, jason, jon and cheryl and talking about mary-kate and ashley
5) talking to silas about worship stuff =P
6)talkin to jon while waiting for my brother =)

highlights of prestudy

1) warcraft: "noo why isn't it dying!" *frantically pressing button*
2)talking to stuffed animals
3)"the world is against you. Who do you trust?" "nobody?"
4)"jon wong do you sing to bsb songs?"
5)"jon dear...people talk to stuffed animals not burgers"
6)"what did you talk about for bible study?" "lumps"

haha =) good way to end the holiday
missing all of you back in university

your grace is enough

i was watching 7:22 tonight...and there was this one thing that the worship leader...not steve fee...another worship leader...and he said one thing....he said, "Regardless of how you came in this room, through this door, we were all born in a messed-up state, and we have a great God who gave His awesome son Jesus to be the payment for our mess, not just the kind of remedy the situation a little bit, but to give us life that is forever and eternal. If you're here tonight with this burden and you think you can't measure up to God, you can, because He gave us a way through His son and He took our punishment. And that's what we're about."

That made me realize something for fellowship, for church. That at the end of the week, it doesn't matter how you come into church, into fellowship, we were all in the same state. We go hungry for His love, a night with His people to worship Him. When we go into church and worship, we become one. Differences don't matter anymore because we have one thing in common, each of us was saved.

Believing that Jesus died, that's history.
Believing that Jesus died for you, that's salvation.

Father, Your Grace is Enough

go check out 7:22
http://www.722.org/flash/722.html

Sunday, January 01, 2006

happy new year

happity happity new yr =) or should i say...happy bday like gendi :P tonza fun at gendi's house last night =) yayyy =) haha good times just wanna say that this was an AMAZING year =) the good times..the bad times...the retarded times =) hehe i love you all thanks to all my amazing friends for making this yr...pretty darn amazing..haha and now im gonna elaborate...haha...kinda thanks everyone!

Eric - awesome listener, my boy girlfriend =P
Jon - putting up with my annoying whining and being incredibly awesome
Cyrus - the big brother i never had =P
Darren - my physics tutor with no shame or guilthaha =)
J. Fok - haha your amazing stories =P
M. Fok- being my favourite and hottest ah gor hahaha
Issy - the crazy girl who laughs 24/7
Candy - greatest advisor =)
Melody - stupidest flying person i know
Sharon - Orlando bloom obsessor
Jane - lil miss princess =P
Natalie - being retarded with me
Bev - haha the entertainment of my life
Kenny - giving me something/someone to laugh at
Alton - living in a Ziploc container
Hollie - my chem buddie and happy bday girl =)

And everybody else you know who you are =) i love you guys to bits! haha especially all you older people who i love so much =)

Best times in 2005

softball
kna cabby retreat
winter retreat
surprise bday parties (darren, jason, etc, etc)
hanging out with uni ppl
grad night
doing worship w/ darren, jay, & mel
haha joax in grade 10 haha with nat, jane & bev
ahha retarded times at the park with my crew
chilling with the church gang movies and what not
ottawa trip

haha all so vague =P can't remember much...haha suffered from alzheimers =P haha kk that's all

i love you guys!

and most important

LOVING HIS GRACE AND BLESSINGS =) woot!

Sunday, December 25, 2005

MERRY CHRISTMASSS!!!!

merrry christmassssss =)

thanks to:
ellena for ur...present ahha interesting stuff
sharon for the orlando calendar
jane for the nice green sweater
my aunts for clothes & jewelry and a new purse
mommy for getting me cranium
nat jeh for card
nat chang for card
winnie for card

yayyy baptism today! =) congrats to jacob, gilford, gilbert, ernest, barry, eudora, shiny and keren =) eeeeeeeeeee^^ haha but yessss =) hahahha soo joax after sunday school hahahahaha talking to jon, darren, liann, and joey makes me laugh AHHAH man that girl..joey is the craziest gr 5 i've EVER heard...hahahha aww man she is SO joax! hahahah the four of us were just laughing NONSTOP ahahahaha mannn that was joax =) the lunch made me haf a tummyache..but it's okayy went to jon's w/ issy to play super smash bros....man i SUCK! omgsh..like..i need more practice =( makes me sad hahaha but yea...then issy came over..had girl talk and we jus laughed at white ninja and my yrbook hahah the girl w/ the "pregnant stomach" hahaha issy SOO JOAX! hahaha =) then im gonna go see chronicles of narnia at 6:30 =) eeeeeeeee^^ awesome christmas!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Saturday, December 17, 2005

praying with sincerity

Pondering...
- about why i make such a big deal about..everything from homework to even weather
- about how much i have to do this weekend and next week
- about christmas presents i have to get
- about my schedule during christmas, whether i have time for everything i want to do
- about Koinonia retreat worship team...that's a biggie
- about what to get baptism people
- about when i should finish what homework and how long it would take me

REALIZE how all these things are...tangible...or something that's so...shallow, things that are all based upon...rushing and getting things done and Stress...*sigh..the word that makes me sad

and so last night,the coolest feeling came over me, overwhelming me so much that i began to cry. not tears of sorrow, but tears of guilt and amazement. Yesterday night, while singing all those songs, sure as old as they were, i couldn't help but realize how i've forgotten all these things. How I've forgotten that Christ was so big, so majestic, yet so humble. I mean, not only did he die for us, he was born in a manger too. Simple entrance into the world, yet so big, so loving.

I've been so busy lately, so caught up in all the work, complaining and whining and stressing out and freaking out, not making or having time for God. I cried last night not because I realized this. I mean i've realized it quite a while ago, sadly not doing anything about it. But I cried because i realized how much i missed the feeling God being by my side and last night, not only did i get to bond with other people, while i was praying, i heard God calling me, telling me

Let it go and let me handle it
Just trust in me...
that's why i came down, to save you
to love you regardless of what happens
just take my hand
and walk with me

I prayed sincerely for the first time in a VERY long time. I mean...christmas is coming. People are like...can't wait till i spend time with family and friends. The only thing that I now long for this Christmas is to spend time with God. I need Him back into my life.

You dance over me
while i'm unaware
You sing all around
but i never hear the sound

Lord I'm amazed by You
Lord I'm amazed by You
Lord I'm amazed by You

How you love me.

Monday, December 12, 2005

:)

The Stupid Quiz said I am "Kinda Smart, but Stupid!" How stupid are you? Click here to find out!

yayy im kinda smrt :) hahaha

Friday, December 09, 2005

Salvation

S.a.l.v.a.t.i.o.n.

thought this was pretty cool..

from the Max Lucado newsletter

Can’t stop drinking? Christ can. And he lives within you.

Can’t stop worrying? Christ can. And he lives within you.

Can’t forgive the jerk, forget the past, or forsake your bad habits? Christ can! And he lives within you.

pretty cool how God can do all these things that you just can't see to do. it just shows how Big He is. How He's so indescribable.

I mean I don't think so of us realize enough how GREAT He is. I mean...think about. You see what's ahead of you, he sees EVERYTHING...and i mean EVERYTHING. There isn't a single corner, a single obstacle he can't see. He knows what you're going to do when you're outta highschool. He knows what courses you're going to choose for next year. He knows what mark you're going to get on this test and on that project. He knows when you need a break. He knows these things. I mean so many times we say God doesn't provide. Heh. Think about it. Everything you say you need something and it seems like God didn't provide for you, did you REALLY need it.

My friends and I were talking about university over lunch and it freaked the heck outta me because i had NO idea what to do for university. I did not have the SLIGHTEST clue. I mean i still gotta choose between arts and sciences. And if i go into sciences, what program, what school? What would i do after i get outta school?
And i was so stressed. Now i think about it, I think, why am i worrying so much? I could replace those top words with my own:

Can’t stop worrying? Christ can. And he lives within you.

Can’t stop wondering where you're going to go? Christ can. And he lives within you.

Can’t seem to understand anything? Christ can! And he lives within you.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

GuideMe.

ughhh im so stressedd : (

last few weeks of school is stressful because teachers try to finish everything.

Things to do:
1. english isp essay outline (8)
2. english demand essay (14-17)
3. chem lab (12-13)
4. chem unit test (14)
5. two physics tests someday before break...
6. physics project
7. seven deadly sins painting (13)

God bring me through it

I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
Phillipians 4:13

rest my soul
in Christ alone
know His power
in quietness and trust

Sunday, December 04, 2005

ilovemyfriends.

This week has been pretty cool :) PA Day friday :) I soo needed it. Man been wanting a break for a really really really really long time. Got to talk to different people this week :) so cool stuff.

Friday
I got up at 7:30....SEVEN THIRTY! insanity! on a non-school day too! haha i had to go get my G1 with nat and jane :) we all can drive now haha. man i was soo scared that nat was going to cry when she was telling me she might fail. i was like..uhoh. haha then they went to jane's house and i went to the doctor. and there i met a stupid nurse who stabbed me in BOTH my arms while doing my blood test :( you would think that one hole is painful enough, but nooo she missed the vain and so did the other arm :( *hai. so yea my arm was hurting, then i went home, ate, and went to sleep until 2:30. Met jane and nat at the movies to watch harry potter! :) FINALLY! those kids...always late haha got me a lil angry but that's okay. it was pretty darn good compared to the rest of the movies, but it cut out like half of the book :( haha but it was soo joax! haha me and jane :P hahaha yeaaaaaaaaaaaa haha that's so our thing now :P Then...i quickly ran home and ate dinner and went to fellowship. Man i was in such a hurry , but it was so fun :) haha man my voice is like..gone now jus cuz i had to yell cuz we had no mics :( but yea. it was fun :) haha kitty acting like eric :P and sharon knowing when prizoner of azaban was out. hahaha by ONE DAY. insanity! haha good stuff overall :) and then jon came bac and slapped me in the face :( then wacked me with the keys :( you suck kid XP

Saturday
Woke up at 9:30 :( I wanted to sleep inn...but nooo i had to shower and get to worship practice haha it was soo quick! like 30minutes! crazinesss and then we ate congee after :) it was yummy. :) then silas said i cant sing :( i really couldnt this week :( cuz im so sick :( pooooooo i want to be healthy lol. did some work today, watched some movies :P haha and yes that was my day..my working day

Sunday
woke up at 7:30 today. man i was soo sick this morning, i so didn't feel like getting up :( but yea i did and silas wouldn't let me have a waffle!!!! and sally took the last one!!! i was like..man i want one :( haha so i jus ate some of sally's and stole some from cyrus after. :P after service, went out to eat with the university people haha i felt so young...and they were planning a trip..or andy was planning a trip to go to chicago....i want to go tooooo :P but i've been to chicago. i wanna go to new york city :P haha anywayyss haha yea vicky and her "interesting" jokes :P ...then i got back at church at 1 and my brother got mad at me :( and i kinda got in trouble but not really because after my dad calmed down, he didn't really care :) haha or my mom knew i went out..she jus kinda guessed and told me next time to tell her. haha okay :) haha taht is the end

have fun kiddies

Monday, November 28, 2005

Christ in me

To them God has chosen to make known among the Gentiles the glorious riches of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.
- Colossians 1:27

In Christ, you are loved by God
In Christ, you're completely forgiven
In Christ, you have the life of Jesus
In Christ, you've been blessed with every spiritual blessing
In Christ, you've been chosen by God
In Christ, you've died to sin's power
In Christ, you've been delivered from darkness and transferred into light
In Christ, you've been made complete
In Christ, you're the righteousness of God
In Christ, you've been sealed with the spirit of God
In Christ, you have the hope of glory
In Christ, you're a brand new creation
In Christ, you've been freed forever
In Christ, you're a child of God

Christ in me

Saturday, November 19, 2005

sweetttt 16 =)

yayyyyy =) dinner was AWESOME! haha i get there with jon and i see darren, issy & yuki, im like...huhz? cuz i told them to come @ like...6:30 they ended up coming b4 6:20. haha and...the craziest things was....DARREN HAD HAIR! like..geled hair haha insanity! lolz.

haha overreacting about his hair was fun =P but im jus amused easily =P haha so we went in and mel came then david then eric. haha then me and mel stole darren's tool =) haha honestly kid u gotta stop worshiping a tool. soo joax! haha eric started making fun of me and i got sad becuase i couldn't get him to shuddup and eat cuz there was no food =( haha and i feel so stopid =( haha i asked where my present was and he said he lost it! and i actually believed him!

haha so sad and darren jus kinda laughed @ me....as he usually does. hahaha it was soo scary! hahahha we were all angry and darren was like..geezzz u angry kids haha and then...he started like..stabbing the bread like..WUTTT! haha who's angry now?!?!? aha THEN! i asked that if kids watched stopid shows like spongebob squarepants then they would turn stupid too because they would believe in that stuff...and he said...well that would explain what happened to you O_O...so mean :( haha and i found out that the fobby one from loo wasss darren..oh my....i guess kitty was right..he has to be fixed. lolz. and it was just so fun =) haha looking at mel's drawings and yea =) thanks guys! i had an awesome time and i cant believe you got the eastside mario people to sing for me and darren =/ that was so..weird haha and i almost had to clean the table! omgsh. that was kinda scary. lolz but yea =) then...mike violated the statue of liberty in the restaurant LMAO! hahah soo joaxx then we went to david's house after jon and darren left for pneumie. =) HAHA and mike stole the unlimited garlic bread LMAO! haha n eric found some in his pocket..he's like..wth!??! ahaha hahah soo joaxx talking about random things and mike shot an elastic at me! haha literally headshot lolz! and then talking about how chinese women drive..and like...haha and eric being a pig LMAO! hahahaha it's okayy i konw u cant draw...but i still love uuuu hahaha i will post pictures up soonnn =)
Thanks to:
eric and issy for the earrings and the top
jon for the american eagle sweater
darren for the HMV gift card
jimmy for the rose
melody for the cute card
sharon for the cute note
yuki and kitty for the garage outfit
david and candy for the top
mike for the fart card :P
ellena for the doggie
edwin for the scarf

karen for the ecard
tori for the birthday shoutout
cyrus for the birthday call
ryan for saying happy birthday
winnie for saying happy birthday
hollie for saying happy birthday
gordon for saying happy birthday
phil for saying happy birthday
carole for saying happy birthday
carol for saying happy birthday
bernard for saying happy birthday
andrea for saying happy birthday

natalie, jane, trisia, bev, kenny, alton, jon ng, calvin, edwin for the party =)

thanks guys! i love you allll =) (if i forgot you, let me know =P)

Friday, November 11, 2005

provider

Praise the Lord! He provides!!!! =) aww man when you least expect it, God just pushes away ALL your worries aside by showing you what He can really do. Okay, so worship today was just insane. From what I got from other people, it was pretty good. But I don't know....I'm just glad it all worked out. I was soo freaked out, our first onstage worship and everything was so hectic and all. Like Kitty called me at like 4:41 telling me she doesn't have a ride and so I call justin and he's leaving to go tutoring...so i didn't konw what to do. I wanted to like cry. But I guess my mom reminded me that you just gotta work with what you have and everything and not freak out becuase that doesn't help. So during practice i was just scared, basically, of not having enough practice and what not. Then the photocopier broke, which means no overheads, which means two of the songs had no lyrics. So for amazed, i told them to reflect on the song. When it came to My God, I didn't know what to do? And I cut it. I know people got really upset with me, and I got upset too, but I guess I just didn't know what to do and I couldn't get through another song without lyrics, especially a fast song. So I was just upset i guess...then Ivan told me we could do the song in the end, so I was like...yayyy =) So u know what? EVERYTHING WORKED OUT! God PROVIDES....endlessly.

Monday, November 07, 2005

a new week

this week started off okay i guess..man slept at 1 yesterday and now im like...dying =( but that's okkayy becuase like..aced my english test =) SCORE! that better bring my mark up haha. Then i finished my eng cpt in physics class =) hehe cuz i was being a rebel last night =P hahaha jon would know. but yea..bad thing about today..was...failed chem quiz =( so sadddd man i was so tired this morning i couldn't even tell the limiting reagent!!!!! insanity! but yea =( i better ace that unit test so i can pull my mark back up because right now I think it's like..dropping =( i have to keep that amazing chem mark lolz! but yes. =) hahaha
yesterday's meeting was extremely long but we got things accomplished so yayy =) and im going skating with my cell group FOR SURE! haha i don't care man! i'm going to MAKE the rinks open just for us =P hahahaha soo exciteddddddddddd =DDD haha but yes. and me and issy are obsessing over....LMAO! HAHA issy u know who haha omgshh he's soo hot!!!! hahaha and kitty decided to join our club too =P hahaha yayyy hahaha and yea...well i gotta start on my memoir...i actually like doing this..just because i think of the past a lot =) haha easy stuff for me..takes a long time..but easy =P okay toodles for nowwww oh btw =) finally took a good picture with eric gor gor =P and a pic with mel & mike...here they are =) enjoy

eric & i =)

me and melpoopp =)

me and michael =) lookie those photoshop skillss eric haha see i told you i could cut ivan out =D hahaha..cept u can kinda tell it's there :P

Saturday, November 05, 2005

casting crownss

eeeeeeeeeeeeeee^^ yayy got the new casting crowns CD this morninggg yayy :) loving Mitchell's sale :) hehe i love this CD!!!!! omgsh soo gooddddddd but i still thing who am i is the best song from casting crowns :P

Friday, November 04, 2005

Fridayyy

well my week ended up on a nice note :) God really does work I guess. shows you He's there at the end of the day =) I don't know...i guess last night was the first time i actually..listened..slowed down...and it was amazing =) that feeling was jus..wow...I dont' konw..guess i've been stressing out a lot lately..wanting to get 90s in gr 11...*sigh..then yesterday's prayer came on at the end of the day...and yes..for once i listened to it..and it was talking about slowing down, be still and know He is God. pretty cool stuff..and it just spoke to me. And that night. =) I listened...and i could hear Him saying, "Agnes I know you're worried and stressed out but calm down, slow down, and be still and know that I am God. I will provide, all you have to do is trust in Me." and i was like..wowed...and i don't know...it's amazing what God does when you're so upset and feel like crying =)
Today was awesomee =) haha fun times and stuff and ended the day on a nice note with Calvin and Kenny =) well here are pictures from today =) hehe enjoyy ohhh...btw this is what im getting so far ..or for my midterm for each subject
Chem: 91
Art: 92
Physics: 91
English: 79 =( haha stopid english okay..i will get better soon! =)

me and nat jehh :)

shall we dance? =P lolz kenny

haha jon and samson are awesomeee haha fobnesss

uh oh...looked like someone had an accident after school =P hahaha

haha jon and samson r gangstars yo =P

gdon & holliee =)

that is all folks =) enjoyy for more pix click heree http://www.imagestation.com/album/?id=2118009540

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

ughhh stopid day ><

ughhh such a HORRIBLE day today! mann im soo like..upset and blehhhh =( let's start with...the beginning..
Chemistry
my teacher was in a bad mood...and then i got my quiz back...and i got 70% on my knowledge =( i'm soo scared it's gonna drag my mark downn..i want a 90 for chemmmm i was getting a 91 toooo!!!! like..borderline man! *sigh..soo hoping it doesn't drop ><"

Art
art was okay...haha nothing really happened so it was okay i guess...my painting is now in the front foyer...it's so uglyyyy -_-" whyyyy would she put it there!??!? like..my painting with what people call "the big boob" hahahaha mann ken & calvin & natalie HAHA you guys are SOO mean! LMAO!

Physics
The quiz i thought i did okay...APPARENTLY NOT! we corrected it after lunch..and man oh man oh man...i got 1/2 for making connections =( if it wasn't for the bonus question, i would have gotten 0!!!! a ZERO...that's disgustingg...im scared now that my mark is gonna drop b/c of it....on the other hand...i raised to a 80 after the unit test =) yayyy haha @ least im getting an 80 for midterm...so whatever. for now...im happy....but for end of semester..i need over 85 to be happy....5% more here i comeeee

English
i was happy until stupid english!!! omgshhhh i was going to CRY! like..i literally had tears in my eyes when i got my stuff back! it's insanity!!!!!!! like...WHAT THE HECKKK so i got my nonfiction unit test and my seminar back...a freaking 75 and 76 =( it's CRAZY! which means there's gonna be a BIG FAT UGLY 70 something on my midterm! *sigh...I don't know what's happening to me. I'm starting to do so bad =( *sigh even james was upset FOR me! it's crazyyyy *sigh....i need to try harder ...
and what pisses me off even moreeee is people who KNOW they got higher than you..and they say they did so bad! like...what the heck...are you TRYING to rub it in....like...u can say you did bad...NOT in front of me! and i was already in a bad mood...and they know it too!!! and they keep bragginggg like...what the heck!!!!!! and then they tell me not to think about it....and then..THEN!! they bring it up!!!! like...ughhhhhhhh like..i was in the processs of not thinking about it..and then you go and bring it up! ughhh pissed me off soo freaking much! haha samson knows who i'm talking about...but yea...this person will remain anonymous. sometimes she jus pisses the HECK outta me!

and then...now talking about the HOPE meeting..our first HOPE meeting...the new council at school..and it turned out pretty well...like...we had people come which i thought was pretty darn cool =) so i was happy about that...and then after we had an exec meeting...and i couldn't help but feel that the intention of this council is no longer...right...moral....that our intention seemed to be going against...matt 25..the social justice council of the school. And i couldn't help but think this: we're all striving towards helping those less fortunate no? so why be against each other? Our school councils..committees...are very....political? we do it as if we have to better than other people...loosing their purpose of what they are REALLY trying to do. and we somehow got sucked into that. And then..Mr Rooney, good ol' Mr. Rooney was talking to us afterwards and he was saying how...we're thinking so politically, trying to be better than Matt 25, that this was no longer about the kids in Egypt, but about us. About us wanting to be better..and it was true..it's sad...and now realizing it...i think it truly is so much better. I was upset before...because we had some beef going on ...*sigh...but yea...i guess things are a little better =) i love having rooney as a student advisor =)

okay that's the horrible side of today...on a happier note...lunch was soo much fun! LMAO! haha the retarded gangsters and then natalie inthe garbage can...aww more nat jehh hahahah stuffed in the garbage by alton, kenny & richard hahaha aww mannn...where's the camera when u need it most...=P but yea....here are some amazing pictures from today =) i loved lunch though...thanks to kenny & calvin for making it awesomely fun =) haha i love those guys =P

oh yea we're cool alright =P hahah gangstarss for lyfe...jane, me, calvin, kenny, & natalie

jane & i =) yayyyy

the sexiest angels in the school =) haha oh yeahhhhh trio angelsss =D jane, nat & meee hehe