simply me.

in awe

2007-06-06T15:20:00.001-05:00

so i never really got around to posting this...but now i have time : ) 1/2 hr before i tutor. so i figured why not.

This weekend has been absolutely amazing. I must say prom was so much fun. Even though i had a headache it was mad fun : ) haha so joax like jane licking herself and the awkward pictures me and nat took : ) and my date was awesome (as usual) haha did me justice by dancing with me :P Definately an awesome way to spend the first day of june : )

Then the next day i woke up at 8 to shower and go to worship practice. i love worship practices. I love the talents of each person and i love how we just mesh so well : ) <3 u guys.

hillsongs...the greatest thing. it was, for me, the most awe-inspiring thing ever. it was like a wake up call. one of those things that you don't really expect. God is good. lining up for like two hours and sitting in the scorching heat haha it was worth it. and i had fun waiting :P our random crotch pictures (facebook!) and all our beloved pictures and fun times on the subway and the bus : ) i loved hillsongs. seeing 10000 rising..excited...screaming at the top of their lungs for God. absolutely phenomenal. it's so different seeing people of ALL ages, all races come together...for God. i think this may be one of the very few concerts where young and old go crazy for once cause. i loved it. it was uplifting. it was a sign for me that God is still working. and that is something i need to be constantly reminded of. this sight was honestly beautiful.

stolen from candy*

In my life be lifted high
In our world be lifted high
In our love be lifted high
- Came to my Rescue - Hillsongs United

now time to be brave and let the Savior of the world take over : )

hehe excited for fondue girls night : )

bbb

2007-04-11T16:54:00.000-05:00

blessed. beyond. belief.
this easter weekend was definately one for the books :)

Koinonia Cabinet
nothing could replace the feeling i felt when i woke up at 6am in the morning to drive over to tiff's house. haha i think i almost forgot to wake up too :P it was amazing. when i was driving and i saw the sunrise i was in awe. it's been a while since i last looked at a sunrise or sunset and felt totally refreshed. : ) man sometimes it feels good to be awake in the morning. haha it was so nice just to sit there and update each other on our lives, sharing about our burdens, our joys, our stories. and through all of this, God, yet again, reminds me of His mighty hands that are constantly at work. I felt this sense of peace, sense of...joy that i definately haven't felt in a while. and for the first time, i thought about my breath. I was challenged to see everything around me as holy ground and the presence of God in every person, christian or nonchristian. that everyday we are uttering the name of God. true inspiration. : )
that morning was quite unlike any other. ahha all the laughs that made my stomach and face hurt haha and the steak and eggs that made me so full i didnt feel like eating for the rest of the day :P i love koinonia cabinet : ) u guys never stop bringing joy to my heart : )

Family time
haha i love my family. they're a little weird, a little loud, haha but amazing. quite an interesting weekend of endless food and catching up with my cousins : ) hehe and the little ones never cease to amuse me. they're growing up so fast. ahaha. a little scary indeed. lolz. but i love them : )

Friends <3
the ones who always let me know how much they love me. i love how some of you could ALWAYS make me feel better : ) it was awesome seeing some of my friends that i haven't seen in a while and it was just cool all of us hanging out : ) hehe loving all the joax and the weird things you guys do and talk about when we're all together lolz.

Baptism
total inspiration seeing people grow and seeing their growth inspire and speak to others. : ) congrats to everyone. God is indeed working.

and to end of with my fav verse, seems to be coming up a lot haha

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
- Jeremiah 29:11

amen to that : ). let go and let God

hehe my favourite picture of this weekend :P

update.

2007-03-28T17:19:00.001-05:00

so it's been one and half week since my trip from Disney. it was quite amazing. haha lots of laughs and unforgetable moments. :P haha kinda lazy to post it right now though. haha if you want to know, you can ask me yourself =P haha but just some crazy things i'll never forget

- crystal light
- luck of the irish, bling it on LMAO.
- our awesome stuffed animals
- andrew tse
- haha coconuts and palm trees

haha awww man. awesome time in florida. not very tanned though. kinda sad. anywayss pictures are a thousand words...so :P

the many adventures of agnes and natalie

hehe my monkey listenin 2 my ipod

best friendss : )

our awesome food

woodieeeee : )

our future homes :P we live nxt to each other haha

pretty : )

i love those circle squishy pillows : D

tiarassss

minnie mouse's fireplace

yo what. we're so cool. haha

my two best friends AHHA this picture DESERVES to be extra big. ahahhaa

the wall of stitch ahhaha i totally blend in.

anywaysss wanna blog about more important things. ahaha lately, i have been overwhelmed with the fact of how blessed I am. It is truly amazing to be blessed with so many amazing things.

I thank God for
- the joy i find in serving Koinonia
- my amazing and supportive counsellors
- uplifting conversations and encouragements
- my amazing supporting friends
- my family in Christ

weeeeeeeeeeee

2007-03-03T22:41:00.000-06:00

YAY.

five more days till florida :)

hehe soo excited :)

2007-02-24T13:39:00.001-06:00

no words could describe how happy i am right now : )

so yesterday school was kind of dumb...skipped eng to go to jane's to prepare. hehe it was fun : ) been a while i was hanging with my girl : )

so went home showered...and got ready
left the house at four and we went...went a little early so we sat in starbucks for a while. it was freezinggg.

dinner was amazing : ) and the phantom of the opera was just breathtaking. i absolutely loved it. i love watching plays...so captivating.

a lot of firsts yesterday
...first taxi ride
...first play w/ boyfriend
...first time @ La Maquette
...first time at Dimitri's
...first time walking out in the cold night

*sigh. madly happy

Koinonia Retreat 2007

2007-02-16T16:16:00.000-06:00

so it's been a week..probably the exact time almost too since we left for retreat last week. And i'm probably the slowest person EVER to write about it. haha got some thinking i needed to do after i got back from retreat.

so i must admit...came back from retreat...i didnt feel as satisified as i wish i did...but i mean after some thinking...and some reflecting...God has totally showed me what a true blessing it was to chill with all those koinonians for one weekend.

3 days...2 nights...
that's all it took for me to see true genuine fellowship. For the first time in a longggg time in koinonia i saw no cliques...everyone just...talked...no awkwardness...no silences. haha i got to know so many of the gr9 girls. haha so little...so happy...so excited for the fact that this was their first retreat. haha i think they're all so cute :P haha.

it was amazing though...from the food...which was oh so good : ) haha to the joax like at 5am in the morning :P haha i got to see the awesomeness of Koinonia. They're my family. that's it...right there : ) God has been so gracious. and He provided soo much during this retreat : ) all the awesome girl talks and the bonding...and all the talks i had with my girls : ) just being able to catch up with them and what not. and praying about the boiler. it was major stress this retreat. haha probably becuase this is the first time i was in it so much...but it went through. God changed lives, God worked, God provided, God was there.

I know everybody wrote all this stuff about the highlights and what we did...but retreat for me was more than that : ) it was about seeing what true fellowship meant and how i want to see it every friday (taking out the foosball table and pool table) haha but i will talk about highlights :P cuz there are some things that i cant forget even if i wanted to. haha so here goes:

highlights
- stayin up with jt, jto, byron, and kitty till 5:30am. haha
- jt's ability to throw his guitar across the room : ) (i think that's jto's fav memory :P)
- the awesome random conversations of the girls all stuffed in one room the first night
- awesome devos : )
-pastor ian! who by the way was amazing : )
- kitty dancing to fergilicious
- tim, jto, jt, & mike singing to songs. haha
- walking in the dark towards nowhere and singing trance songs haha
- watching the boys go "tubing"
- throwing snow in collin's face : ) that was fun.
- owning jto as i push him into the snow everytime : )
-candlelight sharing : ) haha first one where nobody cried. wow. haha saving it from grad night ;P
- the awesome skits from the counsellors : )
- awesome gr12 w/ glasses pictures :P haha i love my 12ersssss

so picture time :P

my favourite girls : )

aww candiee i heart u

all the girliess

one of my fav pics : ) ahha this is how many ppl i can take in a shot :P

mike, me & jto

large group of ppl :P

my grade 12 girliesss <3

my roomiesss : )

family portrait

we're happy : )

now we're REALLY happy

now we're just weird

haha so for those of u who kept asking how retreat was :P here it is. enjoy

oh and if u want more pictures: u can go on facebook...or my pictures are here: http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2095585747

2007-02-05T17:26:00.000-06:00

I've learned...

- that as flawed as I am, I am loved
- that no matter what, God will ALWAYS provide what i need
- that God speaks through people
- that everyday is a new start, a chance for me to wake up and take chances
- that when given a task, God does not expect us to succeed, but rather ask for His help.
- that giving God full control is tough...
- that smiles and laughter cures a lot of things
- that there's NO way i can go through life alone...
- that as important as marks seem to be...they are so not worth crying over
- that God's work in Koinonia NEVER ceases to amaze me and surprise me
- that what I want to do is not necessarily what God wants me to do.

sooo let's take all those awesome things that i learned last semester and...carry it along with me to the second. i have a good feeling about this sem. friends in my classes, im kind of liking world issues too. :) good start to my last highschool semester.

back to the basics.

2007-01-13T10:33:00.000-06:00

i realized that when i xanga or blog or whatever...it's for other people to read...to update people on what's going on. So what about me? i remember getting blog or xanga at first so that when there's something on my mind...i can just say it u know...so from now on that's what it's going to be...me..inside and out. if you want to know what's going on...you can ask me.

lately i've been feeling empty...not like the lonely empty...more like the...unsatisified...then unfilling hunger of something more. it's like...no matter what good marks i get, or how many people i hang out with, or how many times i call people on the phone, or how many emails i get...they're just...temporal satisifaction. at the end of the day...there's a hole in my heart and soul that none can fill cept for God. I've been drifting a lot...acknowledging it...yet not doing anything about it. it sucks...really really sucks. and im not sure why. perhaps it's because i just don't want to fix it enough...or maybe im too lazy...or maybe i'm too busy...k that last one was a horrible excuse. God always gives us enough time. i believe that. I'm not really going anywhere spiritually. when people say im "hardcore christian" i hate it...because i can't live up to that. I read my devo..this morning...haven't done devos in a while....read the book freddy gave me...My Utmost for His Highest. and today's devo was about solitude with God. wow...it's been a while...since i let go of all my ideas, questions...and just sat in front of God...at His feet and listened. it said that God cannot possibly teach us until we let go of our questions...ideas...anything...and just sit there...in awe...in silence. When there's nothing left...when there's nothing that can satisfy us...when we are in the state of total depravity...He teaches. ha. no wonder i haven't been growing. i've been doing everything for myself...never felt like there was meaning to it...i study cuz I want to get a good mark...i make decisions without the concent of God. I've currently been reading the book Facing Your Giants by Max Lucado (good book)...basically talking about the story of David...and there was a point in time where none of his decisions had God in it...like apparently for chapters, God's name wasn't even mentioned. and in the end...his whole family suffered from it.
There's a sense of nothingness when nothing goes to God...sense of emptiness when none of your decisions are brought up to God. it's time to change that...in everything i do, bring it up into prayer...whether it be choosing university, doing things for retreat, even when going out or doing my work. and may i expect something...not just empty words...but may i expect an answer...because God ALWAYS gives one.

Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.
-Mark 11:24

hoi sum new year =)

2007-01-01T16:06:00.000-06:00

Happy new years everyone!

this year has had it's ups and downs
those tough, crying days
those crazy unforgetable moments with the coolest kids around
those bittersweet moments
those moments that make you go aww
those awesome late night phone calls or long phone calls that make your arm hurt from holding the phone too long
the cards, the gifts, the letters
the endless emails
those amazing moments where I could jus sit in the presence of God

hehe so highlights of this week, cuz it was honestly amazing! haha and i havent updated in a while.

Jam Day
-lotz of creativity, random playing, and just pure fun =) spontaneous man. TOTALLY spontaneous. good times with you guys : )
- haha going to M&Ms and taking FOREVER to figure out what to eat
- me & mel talkin =) love u girlll
-playing gamecube =) hehe screamin is fun....but my awful lost wasn't. sooo humiliating.darn you darren.
- yummy foood and desert : ) hehe very very yummy

Downhere Concert
- left house at 4:30 and went downtown with dt, mel & kitty
- mel was dying..her head was falling off haha and me & dt being mean about it (volunteer?) haha we love u mel
- went to eaton center for a while
- went to little anthony's for dinner, spent so much =(
- not being able to pronounce any of the food names. HAHA failing when ordering (penne is pronounced pen-ae)
- me & ky talkin about our boys
-cheryl came to join us =)
- movie talk haha aww poor mel. that was day 1 of the 3 day strike movie talk haha
- went to cheryl's room and mel tried to feel better =)
- haha me & ky were flying and eating buildings HAHA (this is how bored we were)
- dt crushed advil and failed, leaving lil bits stuck in ody's mouth
- downhere concert was awesome! saw joses & rachel :) haha i loved the concert!!!! =) so many good times
- dt's "rock stars need money" t-shirt
- desert @ baton rouge =) it was yummy
- cheryl & my "agnes moments"

30th
- went to worship practice : ) got my scary present hehe
- went to eatons like all day =) bought boots & pjs
- got two CDs :)

New years eve
- going to national's and dt trying 2 wear my shoe =/ and i thot he broke it. haha
- wings with hsieh, eric, sharon, justin, & fok jr. haha thanks hsieh! so yummy! haha first time there haha i feel accomplished HAHA
- talkin about double datin' for the holiday =)
- watched pursuit of happYness : ) i love i love. hehe mel kept crying. i almost cried.
- me & ky's love for tarzan haha
- played jenga w/ my cousins and took weird pictures haha
- went to jfok's house after dinner where we watched me, you, and dupree, it was okay. haha
- playing mau. I KNOW HOW TO PLAY NOW haha it was fun, my rule rocks : )
- watching...some..movie that jason really liked HAHA on TV. what was it? something about...this guy who dressed up as a nanny or something? to fix his marriage?
- countdown =)
- he called =)
- we were soo tired, tickling dt is fun =)
-ahha ky screaming when she tried turnin on bathroom lights
- my interesting...chocolate experience
- chocolate mouse cake =)

hehe total joax.
still to come:
- trisia's party
- double date haha
- jammin with my cousins!

hehe =) and i still gotta finish
- chem exam
- bio isu
- study for algeo test

and throughout the break, i bought
- garage top
- guess bag
- feet first boots
- lasenza pjs
- mittens and tank top from urban planet
- and many dinners that left my poor.

HAHA

2006-12-29T15:20:00.001-06:00

haha the wonders of a mac book HAHA

i love kcab hehe if i got a mac then this is wut i would do with my life. AHAH

2006-12-24T13:43:00.001-06:00

k so christmas break started as of friday :) good stuff. man. good times w/ jane shopping haha having some girlie time. and getting chicken little from kenny & calvin :) thanks kiddies u're the best! haha i love their card =P anywhoosss then went to jc's house =) hehe had dinner with peeps. hehe u can ask me if you want to know more. ;)
saturday was...kcab party =) haha good times and what not haha total fun taking pictures HAHA i loveee kcab! and then sunday....was...baptism..that's today! yayy party with my cousinss :P haha i love my cousins. they're amazingg...kk so for the rest of the christmas...here's my schedule

25 - christmas! grandma coming home : )
26 - boxing day
27 - jam & dinner day
28 -
29 - downhere concert!
30 -
31 - new years chillage..dunno where yet. =P
1 -
2 - trisia's house party =)
3 -
4 - going into loo? we'll see =P
5 -
6 -
7 -
8 - school =(

and somewhere in january...some cell group partayy. haha and then...i also hafta do university stuff and projects. haha

so book me =P or you lose. HAHA and cy u still owe me hot chocolate and hsieh u owe me wings =) ahaha

that's all. : )

happy.

2006-12-17T12:58:00.001-06:00

so this weekend has been quite..the awesomeness =) hehe my madly hectic week was FINALLY over on friday. got a test and a quiz this week and i'll be DONE =) CHRISTMASSSS hahaha soo exciting. and this weekend was just soo relaxing. aww man soo much chillage..

Friday
- got to church and stressed like mad on retreat forms. *sigh. it's okay they're done now...but...yea...we still got tonzz to do. madly stressing over retreat. ughhhh *pulls hair out* haha
- pretty christmas cookies =) that i thot tim & tiff made....i didnt see the package okayyyyy goshhhh
- relentless practice =) went okay. jw had to go though. well we did whatever we could =)
- i was amazed that darren could finally reach that note...pretty darn impressive. haha

Saturday (greatest day)
- woke up at 8:15 for 9 practice for relentless
- went to church and darren got me a mcmuffin!!!! =) excitinggg haha i was very happy. but the paper was see-through. ew. haha darren wasnt too happy. considering he had to go back to get the mcmuffin for mee..
- had practice =) it was awesomee. hahaha me & sharon playing with sounds HAHAHA *tweet tweet* *gunshot* *car screech**thump* HAHA we killed a bird on the piano. haha so joax. and aww man the solos and wut not SOO cool. props to darren & jc man =) u guys..figured it out..amazingly hahaha i heard it..i was like...this is TOTALLY the works of the boys. hahaha
- at night, we had christmas celebration AHAH SOOO JOAX
- relentless =) u guys did awesomeee. ahha awesome fun.
- i will follow you performance was hilarious. haha the adults are amazinggg
- tim's little....dancing on stage with freddy....with the chicken dance
- haha translating was quite interesting. freddy should've jus translated his whole sermon himself. haha
- the MCs. were so joax
- i was introduced to a guy name joses about 4 times. =) he's really nice. his name rhymes with moses. he's from waterloo. haha
- went to wendy's after..where they cracked open eric's phone
- i attempted to throw into darren's mouth..like...a crumb of mcnuggets
- me & cheryl's random fobby highness HAHA man i love u girl
- me getting high from the hot chocolate

Sunday
- went to sunday service
- darren's going to get me 5 sausage mcmuffins for christmas. ew
- little kids are SO cute =)
- went to jc's house to play wii
- boys were being gay when it comes to parking. dumbbutts
- haha michael was like wheezing while boxing HAHA making noises when he breathes
- me trying to see my present. booo i wanna see ittttt. haha jon and sharon said it was nice...so i trust them. hahah
- eric..scarring darren for LIFE with his....dancing?

haha that's all =) AND IM GOING TO SEE HAPPY FEET LATERRR =) EXCITING. hehehehe

ehehehhe soo cute

HAHAH i typed in happy feet...i also found this. HAHA

people are weird.

update.

2006-12-13T15:47:00.000-06:00

k soo havent updated in awhile...so since i dont have a test tomorrow (finally, a day off this week) i can update! haha soooo here's wut's happening

+ lovin all those talks me & nat have =) ehhe we're so alike. haha so joax
+ lovin those emails everyday
+ lovin those txt msgs everyday hehe 3 months of txting is amazing =P
+ friends constantly reminding me that it's ALMOST christmas
+ friends constantly encouraging me and tellin me to just...hang in there
+ excited for chillage during christmas
+ slowly letting stupid tests go. i'm done with them..moving on
+ im excited for downhere =D hehe

hehe so i really cant think of anything bad...either than i failed my physics test today. darn failing 3 tests in the past week is DEFINATELY not fun. but..not giving up. and not dwelling on it either cuz one of my friends reminded me that you just gotta move onn and learn to deal with it right? =)

awesome now time to do prep for my physics performance task...hoping i dont fail. ahaha

2006-12-05T14:38:00.000-06:00

k so it sucks.

it sucks getting the physics test back that you thought you did well on and actually did pretty bad on. The teacher doesnt think it's bad. but you do. and on top of that, this test dropped you three percent. yes it sucks.

so i ended up getting it today after i got back to the science center and honestly when i found out it dropped me three percent. i was ready to cry. but u kno let's not cry in front of the teacher now. that's bad. i mean he knows im upset already. no need to make it worse. so on my way to my locker. i see gordon. and i showed it to him. i couldnt help it anymore. i started to cry. not like...wailing kinda cry. more like..silent tears kinda crying. and unlike everyone else, he seemed to be very understand. Gordon is always very understanding. I mean yea three percent..i kno im not allowed to complain cuz im still getting high 80s but at the same time...it's like..it's disappointing. and i just cant drop. i just..can't. and i tried to stop myself from crying..too bad the harder i tried..the more tears came out. so i said...

k agnes u gotta stop. it's not worth cryin over

then it hit me...

this crying shows a lot. it made me realize that
a) my marks are WAYY to important to me. i dont know HOW many people tell me this and i dont listen to them.
b) I placed school before God.

that's a bad thing. that last one there..BAD very BAD. *sigh. and i could tell. at the beginning of the year, school wasn't all that bad...i enjoyed it...got high marks...and credited them all to God..but slowly as the semester progressed..as things start to pile up...you think that maybe you can handle it yourself. oh....SOO WRONG. very very wrong. and also, after i got my marks, im dumb and i boast about them. heh. God sure taught me a lesson. not to like smite me or what not. but i mean. humility. that's it right there. no matter how good, bad, okay i do at the end of this year...humility. it all comes down to...how i reacted to all of them. it's funny when i get good marks..i say God u kno thanks for all this. then when i get bad marks...i cry.

*sigh time to go do things the RIGHT way.

balance.

God first

humility.

2006-12-02T13:11:00.000-06:00

Everything is beautiful
Even when the tears are falling
I don't need a miracle to believe
Even in the crashing down
I can hear redemtion calling
And everything is beautiful to me
-Everything is Beautiful-Starfield

chillageeee

2006-11-21T20:21:00.000-06:00

haha k FINALLY time to tell all about my weekend.

Saturday
hehe so i spent my ACTUAL birthday doing homework. i know...im a nerd. haha don't be jealous haha and i went to bible olympics. hehe that was fun. and i got a surprise at my door =) hehe thanks

Sunday
k so this was like greatest day ever. haha umm. i was out from like....9:30-6:30. hehe exciting. went to church and Sunday school was pretty good =) haha pastor lou is oh so smart. hehe and kitty was also very smart and helpful that day =) unlike my other undecisive friends =P haha so we decided to go out for lunch to pickle barrel. =) it was yummy. i had some spanish rice thing...it was HUGE. haha it was sooo funny that day =) highlights.

darren wanting to order...breakfast =/ u're weird
issy's goal was to scream across the other table =) hahaha k i TOTALLY failed at telling that story
jimmy eating jam...was he really THAT hungry?
then kenneth eating...honey? what WAS he eating?
me getting "tipsy" over ellena's cocktail HAHA I WAS NOT TIPSY
jason's smile
me and issy getting soo high.
taking pictures =) that's always fun.

hehe then we went to see the prestige =) ahha it's soooo PSYCHOTIC. and darren is now officially obsessed =/ he thinks he's a magician...he calls himself the great danton. scared. haha and he's in electrical engineering. ahha he's going to build some wacked up machine to replicate things. scaryyyy haha it was so intense. HAHA and a birdie died! and this little boy was crying. i was like...awww the birdie dieddd. it was sad =( then i screamed twice. haha in unison with kitty. we're cool =)

that is all.

so i did my physics test today. not so bad =) haha i now have the motivation to work. i just needed a little push. a little break from it all
hehe cant wait to PA day when i can finally have a day...to watch movies. HAHA i have soo many new ones @ home =P so many cartoonsss yayyyyyy ^^ hehehe

so as for picturesss here is a preview =)

me & bellaaa

jc, issy, & i

jason, eric & i

hahahaha kissyyy

HAHA i LOVE this picture.

hahaa lookie issy and mike =P

kitty, cheryl, & i =)

he's very hungry. lol.

now he wants to eat me haha

jimmy & i

hehe k and for the rest of them...
go here: http://www.imagestation.com/6611360/3958638334

friday night : )

2006-11-19T19:12:00.000-06:00

Finally 17 =)

haha last night was soo joax. aww man house parties RULE. ahha so i get there and jane and dwiny are already there. dwiny was there first...AMAZING. haha and they were playing so old school old school game. SOO old school. haha but it was so funny. then we were watching i not stupid..that singapore movie : ) ehhe i love it. haha Terryy!! ahha =P when kenny's done with the second one, i want it! haha so me & jane were watching the movie and laughing. then we got too hungry to watch LOL. so we ate a little. freak by the time my mom came with food, we were too starved and ate all the other food already. haha so we weren't as hungry. haha but yesterday was TOTAL joax. watching friends during dinner. haha and being entertained by nat's hamster. hehe i love it =) soo cute. i love bebe.

i had a good time talking to bev last night :) see hun u said we never talk haha we ended up talking last night :) hehe it felt nice. haha everyone is yelling downstairs and we're upstairs in nat's room all dark and talking. : ) ahha then dwiny comes in. HAHA and bev goes to the bathroom and doesnt close the door LMAO. AHHA edwin's like..I CAN SEE YOU IN THE MIRROR! haha joax joax. then haha edwin tells us bout hte time where he was singing jenny from the block LMAO! hahahaha edwin singing jenny from the block HAHAHAHA aww man. soo joax. then we went downstairs and i played a little piano...played ddr AHHA so joax when gordon and calvin plays. AHHA calvin like..rolls up his pants and gordon dances in a circle HAHAH he SPINS. LMAO soo joax. aww man. and camy is so light that the mat doesnt detect her HAHA or so tuntun said. when we were taking group pictures hahaha so joax. haha omgsh alton sat on my face! FREAK haha eh was going to punch nat jeh i think and he jus slides down and sat on my face. im like..OMGSH ALTON'S BUTT IS IN MY FACE! haha eww so grossssssss a moment i will DEFINATELY NOT forget (sadly)

haha we had cake : ) hehe it was sooo yummyyy THANK YOU GORDON :) hehe then after, we went to go lie in nat's room, typical tradition. haha the let's all go sleep on the floor, bed, and chairs of nat jeh's room AHHA and count the stars on her ceiling. ahha and gordon took the pillow away from me : ( poooo. ahha and me & jane were laughing @ EVERYTHING. haha and i got money for my goat :) hehe thanks guysss :) and ppl started leaving. haha ohh and can't forget about the joax conversation with me, jane, gordon, calvin & monique about SJM people. AHHAAA aww man. good times.

THANK YOU
thanks trisia, bev, jason, dickson, dwin, camy, alton, kenny, calvin, jon ng, carole, davis, monique, gordon for comingg :) hehe
thanks to my daughter for her awesome note haha
thanks everyone for the money : )
thanks jc for first one to call me @ 12am haha
thanks carole for calling me SECOND :P haha at 12:01am
thanks mel : ) haha first txt! at 12
thanks freddy for the ecard
thanks jc for ur presents :) hehe love them
thanks to my bestest girls : ) hehe u guys made last night AMAZING

thanks everyone :) lots more to go. haha

pictures coming soon :)

post about today later.

2006-11-18T14:57:00.000-06:00

hehe

2006-11-12T20:06:00.000-06:00

im glad we're cool again :)

hehe im so excited for next weekend!

and i bought presents for other people today...well this whole weekend..and i actually found stuff! in like..two hours. pretty good man. haha i felt very proud of myself. :) productive shopping.

hehe and im finally pmsing :P AHAHA so im not randomly angry anymore! :)

k im a little weird. back to biology!

2006-11-06T20:51:00.000-06:00

so i decided...

this year for my birthday...i want to buy a goat for those families on the other side of the world : )

i was talking to my parents about poverty during dinner today and i honestly almost cried.

so time to do something about it!

so i found the chinese version of the world vision christmas catalogue and asked my mom if we could buy a cow. Then she was like...see this is why you shouldn't have bought your ipod. i was like..that's true...then my dad was like..why don't you get your friends to buy a cow as a present for your birthday?

so i said...YEA!

so no more wanting stuff for myself.

time go give give give.

time to buy some people a goat.

hehe excited.

wow...

2006-11-05T22:41:00.000-06:00

This weekend had a lot of hitting going on. Lots of yelling from God. not like..angry yelling. more like.."wake up" yelling.
So Friday was Missions Night and God really really spoke to me. What Pastor Lou said that night I will never forget. When talking about missions, he said

The question is not whether or not you're ready. I'm sure all missionaries weren't ready. The question is ARE YOU WILLING? If you are willing, God will automatically be ready and He will make you ready.

that night was kind of like...a nudge at the heart. Throughout this week, this question echoes in my head. are you willing?

so i stand....emptyhanded...filled with fear...but more filled with love and faith...and say.

Here I am Lord.

Use me.

I never really truly understood God's love until today. I mean...I guess I'll never fully understand why He would die for someone like me but I got a totally different meaning out of it today at Sunday school.

"This is love: not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins." - 1 John 4:10

I learned today that we are incapable of loving God. It's called total depravity. Love is when we have nothing to offer God and YET he still loves us. We are incapable because we are useless to God. kinda hit me like a ton of bricks.

God who is SO BIG loves us, even though He doesn't get anything out of it.

That is love. It REALLY doesn't get better than this.

2006-10-28T14:08:00.000-05:00

yesterday was the greatest day : ) hehe

so im eating dinner...and melody decides to call me and ask what i'm doing...and i had to go to dinner..so i couldn't talk to her..like...15minutes later...she calls again...and she says

m: "look outside your door!!"
a: "omgsh are you here?!?!?"
m: "no i'm in waterloo -_-"
a: shuddup!

so i open the door and there's mel. omgshh haha such a surprise. but i did have a bit of suspicion. lolz. :P and then we called andy & darren and tricked them and they thot i was in loo :) hehe it was fun. haha and mel i'll buy u a cookie this week...not homemade..but i'll get you one :) hehe it's awesome seeing u. stupid girl not being able to come back for my bday :(

then we went to tiff's house to cook haha and my group is so cool : ) haha silas can't wash his fryer properly...haha and it was very old hahaa but it was so cool! i've never seen the whole fry-ingness happen before :) it was exciting. haha and then i touched timbit's lion >< by accident. lol. then...we made fish and chips and i took pictures : ) and then rachel stabbed a lemon.hehe and our whole fellowship was cheering her on. haha good times last night : ) i <3 my cell group.

then we went out to bbt after fellowship. It was me, silas, chung, tiff, betty, freddy, porshia, kitty, ivan, and donna. haha omgsh so joax that my face hrurt so much in the end and i was so exhausted and i almost lost my voice. ahha the bbt was really good too :) hehe feddy's treat. :P haha so joax. :P stories from scott missions hahaha too many good times tiff : ) haha i dont even remember what we talked about last night =/ haha something about metrosexual hahaha and something about...ms.J or something hahaha i dont even remember..but i was just too funny haha i <3 you guys. went home @ 12. omgsh ahha never went home @ 12 before :P hahaha darren, jason, sharon, david & jon look! haha a record :P

so yesterday i was bored before fellowship and made this:

hehe :)

Uncertainty.

2006-10-27T14:33:00.000-05:00

I've realized recently that I freak myself out a lot by exaggerating everything a heck lot more...to only myself. It's kind of scary...I'm in my last year of highschool...I'm applying for universities and scholarships...I'm learning to be indepedent. And yet throughout it all, starting from the beginning...it's been rare since i asked...what's God going to do. And not just in fellowship and church but in my LIFE. What does HE want for me? What's He doing THROUGH me?
Even as I am currently writing the last essay for the Canadian Mert award, there's this sense of uncertainty, this sense of fear that things won't go exactly the way they are in my head. It's still very surreal to me that I'm in grade 12...i mean I don't feel any different...sure we feel older and we know everybody in the school...but what about my future? it scares me that it seems so close. I mean I have to apply for universities and what not. and as I'm rushing and planning my future, I hear this little voice. "What if things don't work out this way?" What if I don't get into the university i want to get into? (Queens) and What if I don't get any scholarships and don't have a 90 average and cant get into my program? Then what?

then i hear this other little voice (i'm not psychotic) and it says.."Why are you worrying so much? Whatever happen to giving it up to God this year and letting Him lead you where He wants you to go. Until last year, I never really understood how you can glorify God's kingdom by going to school. I mean...why don't we all just go out and do missions or something and not go to school? But as I study biology and physics and chemistry and all those fun other subjects, i begin to realize and see God in everything. Every little thing i learn in biology amazes me because I realized...God created it all...I mean EVERY little intricate thing. amazing. it's breathtaking.

and in my head i have this little plan that I'm going to serve God by being a (insert occupation) in the future and going to ( insert university) and all that jazz. but at the same time God is saying.."What if i don't want you there?"

I have this amazing fear that i wont get into Queens...because then I wouldn't know what to do. I scared that maybe God doesn't want me there. But then I remembered this:

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. - Jeremiah 29:11

and there's reassurance. So even though I'm sinking into a whole sea of uncertainty, it's like there's this little bubble around me that I cant see, helping me understand that everything is going to be alright.

2006-10-22T20:06:00.000-05:00

today was cool : ) cept i failed this morning

i didn't turn on my phone...so darren shows up to my door early haha and not bearing a sausage mcmuffin. darn ahha if only i turned on my cell fone. haha oh well. so we went to worship practice : ) hha i tried carrying the congas...to heavy and so i carried the drummer stool instead : ) hahahahahha HUGE difference there. haha then darren made fun of me for the noises i made when i was carrying the electric because it was HEAVY! haha i thought it was. then jw started taunting me tooooo. i was like..are you guys going to taunt me for the rest of my life? they're like..are you going to be like this for the rest of your life? uh oh. ahha then darren walked into the mic stand : ) it was funny. it was like my time to laugh at HIM. i felt accomplished

worship practice was awesome : ) actual worship was even better! haha. i was so filled : ) the whole place was so filled. it's like..you can feel it when people are genuine in their worship. it was exactly what JW said worship should be:

Well chosen

well understood

well played

then i did children's worship ....wow they actually sang today. pretty impressive i must say. haha went back downstairs...and eric stole my jacket, stretched it by wearing it, then tim started taking off my fur. XP i dont like u guys. sunday school is awesome too! : ) talking about leadership : )

then i went shopping!!!!! got a sweater and two scarf belts :) hehe happy :) then i finished bio, which i actually didn't mind doing...i like genetics :) and now im sitting here doing algeo and talking to people : )

thanks mel n dt for trying to reassure me that my 90 really isn't sucha big deal. <3>

saturdayness

2006-10-22T16:14:00.000-05:00

k so i went to the open house for UTSC yesterday...i don't really want to go there. haha so 3rd choice. yes. haha the place is very crowded. I don't know...i'm excited for queens in two weeks though! haha

went to worship practice after and talked to darren a little. He was trying to tell me that 90s aren't a big deal. haha as usual, i don't listen haha *sigh i gotta start learning to have less expectations. As much as i want 90s, it's disappointing to know that I might not get them this year. It's even more fustrating knowing that no matter how much i study from the textbook, my teachers are psychotic and think NOTHING like the textbook. *sigh. needa get through this sem, then i'll be fine. forget physics...i'm going to try my best and if i get 80, then 80 it is. haha darren would be happy with an 80 haha : P

so yes. worship practice was AH-MAZING :) haha so fun and loud aha i like it loud now haah i think 4 weeks of loud music got me used to it :P haha no need for earplugs for meeee haha so i'm starting two songs....im scared when i start songs haha i realize my confidence really aint so high...like i don't mind doing stupid things but when people tell me im good at _________, i don't believe them. haha so yes. i'm scared for tomorrow because i'm leading TWO SONGS. ho gang ahhhh haha and totally loving hsieh's christina aguilera style. ahha even though it messes me up :P haha i'll live. haha and darren's awesome electric-ing skills aha omgsh the boy can play everything =/ pronessss haha and when sam says that he'll try...it means he's going to pro it on his first try HAHA :P really really cool : ) the song set is..well picked, well understood, well played. i think that was it :) haha then on the car ride home me and darren made up a new word haha i'm a FREAK with a PH and a C so it's PHREAC HAHA omgsh we have issues. =/

k back to biology in hopes to pass my genetics unit

imu

Christ's Entrusted Servant

2006-10-16T19:09:00.000-05:00

k so i think i've prolonged the whole "let's blog about my weekend" long enough. so let's recap about my amazinggg weekenddd

Friday
so fellowship and i drove :) haha got there a little early and helped set up chairs :) it's been a while since i did something so small and felt so good. haha then talked to silas and then i shared before worship started. Wow it was awesome and weird...sitting on the other side. haha but it was just so much more amazing. haha it feels SO good to take a break : P haha sorry rach looks like you'll be taking over for a while :P haha but u're SO good! honestly! haha and jackie is learning how to use the shaker haha. and silas' gtaring always makes me smile haha so pro man. Skit night was mad fun too! : ) i was in a group with daniel, collin, rach, and byron. haha it was so joax, me being stupid and ditzy haha and all the other groups skits were good too! it was AWESOME. haha so joax. i have them all on video :P u want, come talk to me. And the counsellor skit was wicked man. haha tiff was all gangsta and tim was being all nuts haha aww man it was good :) Then after fellowship, i got the phantom of the opera piano book (YES! now i can play) and a cup that TOTALLY describes me haha. thanks.

Saturday
omgsh greatest day EVER. So i woke up at like....7:45...early i know...and got ready for scott missions. I was so excited! i was like excited about it all week! i mean it was so different...never done it before :) ahha so Barry drove me and nat and tommy & joanna down to scott missions and when we got there, we took out all the clothing and what not to bring inside. Then this other couple comes up and wants to deliver some clothes too and since we were already in a line, we offered to bring them in for them. and they were so grateful. They were like...oh wow thank you and they were all smiling and what not : ) it made me so happy. So then we went in and i went downstairs to pack and store and bag food. I must admit, at first i was like...aww i wanted to cook. But when i went down there, i was like..WOW so much food! there was like..an IMMENSE amount of food. and i felt this little tug from God and He said, "I want you to be down here. I have great plans for you." And i smiled because i knew that God never EVER breaks His promises. So first i was bagging rice with tiff and natalie and it was so cool : ) haha it was so much fun just talking to them and getting to know them more and serving with them. It's so different when you're doing something so small with people and you can fellowship so easily. And it was also awesome serving with nat, totally diff serving with someone from school. We were very productive : ) haha and the gloves were mighty tight :P haha and i have sweating problems. hahaha tiff & nat would know : ( Then we bagged granola bars and barry came to join us and help us : ) it was just so cool fellowshiping with them and serving with them.

The whole feeling of humility came upon me, knowing that I'm only doing something so small, yet God can do great things with it. As I bag those granola bars and the powder milk and the rice, I wonder who's going to get these and how big of an impact it would make on these people. I remember one thing that nat said that day that I honestly wouldn't forget. After seeing that people come in here to eat and to find a place where they can just come in for a meal she said, "I feel so happy for them, that they get a place like this to eat" It may not seem much, but at that point, i knew God was using us in His big awesome plan. Isn't that amazing? God, who is so BIG and so AMAZING decides to use US in his plan. Totally blown away man.

Scott missions totally made my week : ) watching so many people do such little things so willingly is amazing and very humbling (is that a word?) And fellowshiping is even better haha so many good times : )

the rest of the day ended well with worship practice and my first time playing piano for sunday service and then my second uncle's wedding reception. ahha totally hype and fun haha dancing was awesome. haha and the DJ rocked. even my PARENTS were dancing. haha that says something. hahahahaha and dessert was AMAZING. i'm a big fan of dessert. haha yummy

Sunday
SO played piano for worship haha i think i should stick to singing and give sam back the piano haha. Dr. Dennis spoke and his message was so inspiring. To bless or to curse. To have a balance of everything. To be a CES (Christ Entrusted Servant) and not a CEO (I don't know what this stands for : P) and then jw sunday school : ) I love JW teaching sunday school haha it's so cool. we took a spiritual gifts test and my top two are music and prayer. and my lowest was leadership..hmm is God trying to tell me something here? But one thing that STRUCK me was the question:

Did God entrust me with this responsibility?

one of my biggest fear is serving in a specific area because I want to, not because God wants me to. Perhaps God has called others to serve, to do a better job.

so yes tonz of lessons this week :) God's taught me

that the little things matter as much as the big things,

that He has called all of us to do something different

that He chose to put us into His plan (wow)

2006-10-12T16:23:00.000-05:00

God's taught me a LOT just the past two days.

He gives and takes away.

so two days ago...had the greatest day cuz
a) i was getting a 93 in chem
b) i was getting 95 in algeo
c) i prayed during a test and got soo much better than i expected. TOTALLY His doing

then today:
a) i'm getting 87 in chem
b) i messed up on my algeo test.
i can say im was okay about it...but it was upsetting i guess..it's hard...when u have such high marks..one mistake and they can go down so much. *ugh fustrating. i needa 90 average on that midterm man. But we'll see where God takes me

yea that sums it up.
but im thankful because

- He taught me to not be boastful & prideful
- He gave me AWESOME friends
- He gave me amazing teachers who care so much about me
- He gave me somebody who cares so much about me
- He gave me family that knows that i might fail sometimes and it's okay

so yes : ) k now i needa work. *hai bio quiz tomorrow and i can't bomb that either.

2006-10-09T19:35:00.000-05:00

HAHA last night was sooo joax haha .... that was totally the funniest dinner i've had in a VERY long time. hahaha aww man. so we get there at like...7:20 and waited till like 8:10 before we got our table. omgsh there is SO no point in reserving anything haha. and while we're waiting they're like..talking about stories from eric's party on friday. haha as funny as it was..boy am i glad i wasn't there to see the chaos. ahha so the highlights of yesterday:

haha jason being blinded by my mirror
darren' soiling himself like..a heck lotta times yesterday
issy and her whole plate of udon
kenneth and his 15 scoops of ice cream
ally g jokes
eric laughing so hard he started crying
darren CONSTANTLY imitating me
haaha guys laugh like "hehehe" or in REALLY high voices hahaa me & sharon witnessed HAHA
the guys constantly touching each other =/ haha
jason touching darren and singing "sexy lovee" haha
darren getting rice stuck up his nose...spiting it back out and eating it....or jason said it was fish =/
THEN like 10minutes after...the same thing happened to me. cept i wasn't that gross
jason's impersonation of eric on friday ahha
me going insane over a cute kid
me & eric's awkward sitting positions
mike being stuffed into darren's trunk and creating a titanic handmark...or i think that was issy

i dont remember anything else but everything was jus too funny. i cried NUMEROUS times last night because of laughing haha and eric ended up crying too hahaha and i remember laughing so hard i couldn't breathe...and i ate a LOT. omgsh i felt soo sick the last sushi i hate was like going to come outta my mouth. haha aww man but i hafn't laughed that hard ina REALLY long time haha thanks guys haha i woke up this morning..with my back hurting from last night and still full fromm last night. haha aww man.

pictures from last night are here:
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2100950008

and pictures to kenny's bday are here:
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2100952724

enjoy friends :)

2006-10-08T16:49:00.000-05:00

i love

- celebrating God's awesome presence : )
- getting some space
- seeing my uni friends back for thanksgiving
- seeing people willing to serve
- loud worship haha
- smiles and laughter
- hugss
- God
- cookies
- the new chris tomlin CD
- spending time w. my cousins

the end :)

2006-10-07T17:10:00.000-05:00

k so worship practice made up for my crappy start of a day.

haha it was soo cool! omgsh so loud dough. haha my eardrums and my voice will die soon

haha props 2 darren, jon & sam.... amazinggggggg haha sams pianoing makes me smile ahha and my singing make his lungs quiver =/ hahaha

okay now

and sharon is going 2 get me a time machine for my bday so that darren wont have to drive me home in two minutes : ) haha and he wont b scared when my fone rings haha

and hollie thinks im funny

so im happy now hahaha

and i get to see my cousins 2nite

i LOVE my cousins

2006-10-04T23:11:00.000-05:00

eeeeeeeeeeee^^ i got the new Chris Tomlin CD today... : )
and the Philip Yancey book "Prayer , does it make a difference"

How can I keep from singing Your praise? - Chris Tomlin
How can I ever say enough?
How amazing is Your love?
How can I keep from shouting Your name?
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

now that's a song i could TOTALLY relate to.

busy busy busy

2006-10-02T18:38:00.000-05:00

haha okay so for the record...hollie you're SOO much cuter than i am LMAO! hahaha i <3>

as for this week...omgsh no more posting haha enuf is enuf. haha i failed my algeo test today. like...80 fail okay hahaha but it still matters! it matters when i want that 95 in algeo :( haha but yes. if i get a 90 on that test it will be MIRACLE. it was pretty cool though...i totally had NO idea how to do one of the questions...so i decided to pray. i don't know about you but i've never prayed DURING a test, especially when there's like...10minutes left. then last 5 minutes i figured out how 2 do it! haha i probably lost some marks cuz it's kinda weird but it was so cool! : ) so yesh. but im still gonna get 80 haha
then i discovered the lab report i did is missing a conclusion lolz! way to end it. ahha ah well it doesnt count anyways :P

k so this week is crunch week for meee. so dun bother me unless u're special hahaha and thanks for the laughs last night phil & nels : ) it was awesome talking to you guys hahha i was TOTALLY high on the "phil&nels" drug ahhaa i love u guys. (we eat air HAHA) and phil cheated on me & nels for the bathroom : P LMAO

k so this week:

mon - algeo test, chem lab
tues - chem test, physics assessment quiz
wed - bio assessment quiz
thurs - physics quiz, meeting w/ freddy, interviews for HOPE
fri - physics lab, interviews for HOPE, thanksgiving dinner or kenny's bday, mel comes home
sat - family dinner, worship practice
sun - eric's bday dinner

nxt week:
mon - thanksgiving, no school : )
tues -
wed - physics slingshot due
thurs - bio test
fri -
sat - scott missions, chillage w/ jc
sun -

2006-10-01T17:12:00.000-05:00

haha today was quite fun. haha

woke up @ 7:00 and called jc @ 7:15 to wake him up. got dressed and ate then darren came to pick me up AHHA omgsh. funniest thing this morning. ther'es a man walking his dog

a: "aww it's so cutee"
d: "haha should i run over it?"
a: " no dont! aww it's so cute and fat"
d: "so fat = cute?"
a: "yes : )"
d: "so you're not cute?"
a: "nop"
d: "do you want to be cute?"
a: "umm...nop...well...okay end of conversation"
d: "HAHA"

then during worship:
a: "so darren, am i cute?"
d: " you should get him to answer that question for u"
a: "oh shutup"
d: "j is agnes cute?"
j: "yes?"
a: *gasp*
d: hahahahhaahahah
a: *tells j whole story of this morning
j: oh im sorry...
d: hahahahaha he thinks you're VERY VERY CUTE
a: OH SHUT UP!

so im fat according 2 darren haha it's darren's fault cuz jc had no idea wut we were talking about. ahhaha and darren almost got angry todayyyy haha a man @ tim hortons was awfully close haha

and PJ's sermon was good today : ) it really made me think. haha and his salty pork chops haha

and worship was awesome : ) haha totally filled man. totally lifting. and i am ABSOLUTELY in LOVE with darren's drumming and jc's guitaring and sam's piano-ing. u guys are AMAZING. sooo sick man! and i always hafta go pee EVERYTIME I do worship!!!! EVERYTIME : ( haha and sam went too! i was like...i hafta go pee and sam was like....oh i jus went HAHA u're evil sam. haha and i can see @ the end of it that rach & jackie liked it LMAO jumping up & down and going insane hahaha i can see u 2 from up there u know! haha i can see EVERYTHING AHHA :P

then alton came over. haha and we did our physics project :) yayyy now we know wut 2 do :) haha and alton is dumb : ) i built the sphere and he couldnt do it. ahha i win.

that's it : ) haha i hafta finish my chem lab now. i've been slacking 2 days ahhaha enuf is enuf time 2 work now. hahah but shower first. goodbye now!

Take my fret, take my fear
All I have, Im leaving here
Be all my hopes, be all my dreams
Be all my delights, be my everything

And I will worship You, Lord
Only You, Lord
And I will bow down before You
Only You Lord
-only you (DCB)

thanks sharon :P

2006-09-30T21:11:00.000-05:00

yeayea gooooo PHAROS

haha last night fellowship was INSANE. soo much fun. i'm TOTALLY loving my cell group haha we're all so loud haha well k not all of us. silas isn't hahaha and donna & collin are doing awesome jobs. : ) good job guys haha the games were awesome too. yummy gummy bears : ) ahha and philip is SO random ahha. and silas was indifferent. haha

Who are we?
PHAROS PHAROS

I can't hear you
PHAROS PHAROS

Who's gonna shine?
PHAROS PHAROS

Say it again!
PHAROS PHAROS

yeayea man. haha and *stompstomp* clap aha totally fail ahhahaa

im excited...God is good : ) and today worship practice was so much fun : )haha this week's set is SOO FUNKY hahaha totally in LOVE with it haha

and uni fair today! soo cool haha i saw candeee haha then she kept runnin back 2 me
"Agnes phil is here tooO!!!"
"WHAT?!?!?!? WHERE WHERE?!?!"
*both of us runs to queens*
"PHIL!"

haha yes that sums it up haaha omgsh it was SOO cool!. hahaa i hafn't seen phil since...my baptism woahh ages agoo haha man i missed uu. and u still gotta hear my singing ;) haha and i saw tenzin and alex & ryan from school...i also saw shannon : ) haha soo awesome. haha and kitty & sam haha and queen's is MIGHTY attractive aha so onto queens i go? we'll see what God has in store for me

2006-09-29T17:42:00.000-05:00

haha so everybody ditched today leaving me, carole, davis, alvin, samson, and cheryl behind haha
it was soo joax though. haha first period, we ran away from Mr. Bruni into Ms. Spence's class and hid : ) haha then Mr. Bruni decided to plot against Ms. Spence. haha so during 3rd period, we switched our classes around while she was out. haha

"So miss, Bruni wanted to know how much butter you can churn in an hour"
"oh tell Bruni to shut up"

haha all on tape : ) haha

so the physics and chem war has began ahha im soo excited for this sem now hahahaha soo joax.

and during grad when we play it...haha oh man.

and me, davis, carole, alvin, and eugene also went to the park : ) and where:
- i poked alvin's adam's apple
- alvin hurt me : ( i feel in the mud haha
- davis pushed me SOO high on the swing i got scared
- alvin was teaching eugene how to swing HAHA i've NEVER seen somebody do that before and being SOO happy too
- alvin refused to sing to us
- me and carole failed and doing a chin-up and climbing the pole

: ) haha fun day that could've TOTALLY been productive by going to uni fair. oh well haha

2006-09-25T19:16:00.000-05:00

Today is mondayyy

monday is sleepy day : )

haha so here's my revised schedule of everythingg haha mann so much to do

and calvin is mean haha but now he knows not to mess with me & nat jeh haha =] haha u liking those birdies on ur sheet? hahaha they're mocking u HAHA soo joax. and nat bringing calvin's bag all the way to the street ahhah "oh calvinnn" haahhha and us listing evil things that we can do w/ his bag. haha so joax. and kenny likes phantom of the opera. he likes to sing it too. haha

so here goesss:

tues: bio & chem quiz
wed:
thurs:
fri:
sat: uni fair
sun:

mon: algeo unit test, chem lab due
tues: chem unit test
wed:
thurs: bio unit test
fri: dyng comes home! : )
sat:
sun: eric's bday dinner

yea that's two weeks right there haha and i still hafnt added worship practices & other projects teachers like to kill me with. and scholarships and university applications

yea that's all now :) time to go back to chem so i can once again ace that quiz tomorrow : P

2006-09-24T17:39:00.000-05:00

this weekend was fun : )

Friday
Worship practice is always a blast : ) haha so much fun doing marvelous light and what not and darren's sexy guitar solo thingy. Bible study and having rachel sing for koinonia :) nice job girl :) you have an awesome voice. USE IT. lol. Bible study went alright. We kinda went over time. >< haha but it's okay. haha it was cool just having a light discussion and what not. Then afterwards...we were talking about worship...actually silas brought it up to me. lolz. and we talked and i almost cried because i totally was jus overwhelmed with all the stuffs...like friday & sunday worship and chair and school. soo overwhelming. so i had a good talk with silas just trying to figure things out. lolz thanks si for helping me cut things out when i can't do it myself (ie. cutting me off worship) lolz. He counselled me cuz that's what counsellors do right? haha and got home...cried a little, prayed a heck lot and tried out that thing that candy taught david : ) ahha it helps man. it's like...this big weight lifted off my shoulders : )

Saturday
Worship practice...darren picked me up >< my bad totally did not know he was in prayer meeting...i want to go...like im serious. i think i'll go next week : ) but isn't there job fair? im mad confused. ahha anywaysss yea and we did hear our praises. haha omgsh i was soo highh it was insane :) haha there was soo much energy that day...im not exactly sure why but it was so fun : ) haha then lunch with auntie & uncle i've never met before ahaha they're from california...i mean they're my great...uncle & aunt...my grandpa's friends. so yea...
Then had sharon's dinner. haha it was fun : ) haha the chicken was chewy and the lime key pie is soo good : ) ahwesome. and her lovely box of condoms and her Jesus action figure LMAO haha so joax. and me thinking that the water jug ACTUALLY turned water into wine. haha then we went back to sharon's house and watched elizabethtown : ) haha k at first we got running scared...omgsh that movie..is all swearing & blood >< so gross....5minutes into it..i cant take it anymore ahha SO then we went back & got elizabethtown. lolz. : ) ORLANDO BLOOM IS SO GOOD LOOKING : ) hahaha justin thinks im a pansy. lolz

Sunday
Sundays are always exciting. : ) because worship is exciting. haha and i loved pastor lou's sermon today about us being the friends of the paralytic. of making God's reality, our reality and His story our story. : ) and then im also excited for october worship : ) ahha i don't know...worship for the past month has been like...therapeutic for me hahaha it's like the time where i can put EVERYTHING away...outta my head and jus sing and have fun : ) Thanks worship team : ) u guys are absolutely amazing.

so now back to school. haha
mon - physics quiz
tues - bio, chem quiz
wed - math test
thurs -
fri - terry fox run
sat - university fair

that sums it up : ) for now. ahha

2006-09-18T19:12:00.000-05:00

+ God has blessed me with an awesome start to school : )
- relational burdens
- stress over universities and scholarships
+ love opening up my email and finding numerous emails from my awesome uni prends : )
+ as draggy as classes are, i have friends to always make me laugh : )
- it's raining
- i'm still scared of being chair
+ i'm singing all of october too : )
+ i get to go spend time with my mommy (finally!) on PA Day
+ DOWNTOWN next week with my lovelies after uni fair : )
- i'm in so much pain : ( pmsing sucks!
- i'm lacking in devos
+ finally applying to volunteer @ hospital
+ my coolest girl misses me and i miss her :P

sooo good overthrows bad. it kicks bad in the BUTT so u kno what i'm going to do?

live everyday with a smile on my face. live everyday knowing that i have a choice to feel grumpy or feel happy. and u know what i choose? I CHOOSE HAPPY : )

what do you choose?

2006-09-16T21:56:00.000-05:00

guess wuuuut?

I'M SPECIAL

MSN NICKNAME: mel misses senga (senga is me...)

:) i feel special and there's a mario star on top of my head :) so i make mel happy. haha i make mel hyper over msn. you're so FAR AWAY

cuz you know (x3) [lazy]
i love you

I MISS YOU

achung misses mng

2006-09-16T20:18:00.000-05:00

my day consisted of the following:

- haven and gloria's wedding CONGRATS

- wanting to eat up cute little kids : P haha "I want one"

- trying to curl my hair and failing (darren: it looks pretty straight to me) -_-"

- tonz of dramatic moments lolz

- worship practice

- talking about prom and what not.

- joax in the parking lot :P

that's about it : )

girls/guys night

2006-09-16T18:33:00.000-05:00

hahaha total joax yesterday! : ) omgsh i love kna. so last night was girls/guys night. haha music video went alright. haha they were suppose 2 dance like..nsync haha and tim's group ended up jus making up their own thing haha : P awesome stuff. and darren states that nsync is fruity. haha. and i heard that andy can dance haha that i gotta see sometime : P the next game, the guys and girls hadta dress like each other haha jt had the best doo ever : P and all that makeup haha eyeshadow and lipgloss :P haha soo joax. and the basement reaked of perfume and cologne. hahaha the last game was soo joax. haha they played sharades with guys & girls words haha

the guys list was as follows:
purple nurple
Ro-Sham-Bo (which darren demonstrated to me last night =/)
Door Knob
Standing While peeing
5'o clock shadow ( i totally don't get that)
Sausagefest
Speedos
Silent but deadly
Testosterone

the girls list was a little changed so in the end we did:
metopause
tampon
gynecologist
tweezers
halter
ovaries
fallopian tubes

haha so joax. man andy chung is so pro it's kinda scary. hahaha. and soo joax during halter top one mike was guessing randomly he's like...training bra...crossover bra and all this stuff haha so joax. : )

and tim tied up my hair so that i had like a bun on the TOP of my head : ( and darren was evil and took a picture...so did chowchow. oh pooo

haha last night was joax : ) i laughed so much my face hurted. and jimmy & steven came to visit. omgsh in the end, at the back, there was like...a circle of older boys like...jason, darren, jc, chung, & jimmy. haha

and exciting...WE HAVE SOUND IN THE BASEMENT! : ) smank you mistake! : )

want pictures? let me know.

2006-09-14T14:36:00.000-05:00

okay so it's official....

this day sucks

i hate algeo

and algeo hates me

that sums it up : )

so i just had a test that i screwed up on ....four questions...28 marks. i just HAD to screw up on the question with the most marks..gosh i better get part marks for doing the steps right. ughh so angry. like it's not fair...i knew how to do it too! just when i think algeo isn't all THAT bad, im proven wrong : ( gosh. i was honestly gonna cry after that test. so upset man. it's weird. i've never reacted so badly to a test before. but i mean...grade 12 i constantly feel like....you gotta do good...it's your last chance and you've gotta take everything seriously...like it counts SO much : ( and you know what else!!??! i just tried to register to scholarshipscanada.com and now i don't know how...what am i suppose to put when they ask me for my primary area of interest and there's like..highschool & post secondary & all that stuff? totally confused. someone help me please. so im mad right now. or sad...im jus...UGH

or as mel would call it...

im lou-ing!

but

happy birthday 2 dwin : )

2006-09-06T19:39:00.000-05:00

as of yesterday, i have entered into my

last year of highschool

...a little scary...a little unreal, but i do feel like i'm in grade 12. wow haha

and God is good : ) blessing me with soo much these past two days. First, He fixed all my worries before I went to school...6 hours before I went to school haha :) then my classes are amazing..worst schedule ever, but just listen.

Sem 1
Physics - Bruni
Bio - Barker
Geo and Algebra - Treap
Chem - Spence

haha just look @ it...can u say screwed? haha but at the same time, i feel somewhat assured that I'm going to be okay. For those of you who don't go to my school, these are the best teachers ever for those courses. I also have the best classes, ahah having my awesome friends and trisia in 5 of my 8 classes :P haha and kenny in 4 of my 8. haha and all the science teachers are getting together to make sure they don't kill us. : ) So im grateful. so here's a summary of each of my classes:

Physics: I have a great teacher. He actually cares about your education and tells us not to worry. I have an awesome class, haha with Trisia and Kenny at first. Then all of a sudden, calvin appears. And NOW i found out alton is in my class now too! : ) haha this is exciting. haha a buncha smart butts ahha

Bio: My teacher tried to be outgoing and tried to get to know us. She is away a lot, but i had her before and although she's strict, she can teach. She explains things really well and stuff too : ) and i have hollie in my class haha : ) haha but...i have Kenny sticking stickers on my back...and flicking me and stealing my stuffs. omgsh haha im going to come out of that class with bruises. lolz haha so mo liu.

Geo & Algebra: first day of learning..and i already don't know how to do my homework. HAHA so saddd :( ahha imma like fail. : ( k no...i'm going to get a 90 haah i dun care. haha and i have trisia, calvin, kenny. I realize that the people in my class are very repeated. haha it's always the same people :P

Lunch: lunch is joax haha : ) everybody has lunch C i love it. ahha and i see my daughter everyday..well one of them anyways :P haha and today we got these cool lighters aha thanks kenny! :P haha lunch is so joax : ) as usual haha

Chem: haha FINALLY a class with natalie. ahha omgsh i haven't had a class with her since grade 9 first sem. it's a miracle we're still so close. hahaha omgsh i love you. haha and yes now you're not going to fail :P haha but i'm going to be MAD distracted. haha and we have alton & calvin too haha so joax writing in alton's agenda and "I stand on a chair" haha classic. My teacher is awesome. She's so nice, so cool : ) haha

so i have awesome classes : ) God is good. what more could i ask for?

2006-09-05T20:16:00.000-05:00

so summer is officially over. some good times this summer : ) so here are some pictures that sums up my summer...basically...missing the times @ wonderland :P haha

bbq @ gdon's for alton

VBC

Mel's house : )

Softball

CCSA Banquet

Grad Night

I <3ed this summer : ) good times.

summer's greatest lesson

2006-09-03T20:41:00.000-05:00

so...it's the last weekend of summer, the second last day before the final year of highschool starts and i'm sitting here thinking about the question my dear friend Cheryl Li asked me on tuesday.

What was biggest lesson this summer?

This summer I must say, has been different. There's been some happy times and some times where I just want to crawl in my bed and cry. There's been times where i laughed so hard my face hurt and times where I just don't want to face reality. This summer, I must say has been filled with lessons as well as blessings beyond belief. I thank God for allowing me to wake up every morning and know that there is a purpose for each day. So I've learned two VERY important things this summer.

Love
This word brings up so many emotions. Pain. Joy. Disappointment. Confusion. Growth. Satisifaction.
I've learned that love really isn't as easy as I thought it was. Love takes so much more than just three words to show someone you love them. This past summer, my grandfather passed away and as much as I loved him, I never felt that I loved him enough. After he died, i felt guilty that I guess I never spent as much time with him as I should have. For a time, I felt a huge amount of regret overcome me, of things I wish I did. I guess I never really knew how much I loved him until his funeral and I jus cried my eyes out, realizing how much he loved me and truly how proud of me he was. Grandparents, my grandparents anyways, sometimes don't know how to show how much they love you. But I realized that every smile, every laugh, or just that simple look on his face when he was able to go out to eat or see the whole family together, that memory is enough to put a smile on my face.

I also learned that I'm so afraid to love. It's true. After what happened last summer, I've been so scared to love, so scared of hurting somebody. And yet that fear is the very thing that got me into a mess because as much as I'm scared to love, I want to love. to the point where I no longer knew where my border was. I learned that loving an imperfect person is hard but heck that's what love is right? otherwise it'll be darn easy. I learned love can be disappointing but at the same time can be so amazing because it can make someone do crazy things. Before the summer, one of my counsellors told me that my view of love was very immature, that view of love being that it can create a lot of pain. But this summer allowed me to see those amazing, selfless parts of love, those unforgetable moments that are forever irreplaceable. So thank you.

I am also amazed by the fact that God could love a person like me.

Time
I learned that time doesn't wait for you. You want to do something? GO DO IT. ha i should follow my own advice shouldn't i. This summer, i learned to cherish EVERYTHING from a simple lunch to amazing chillage with people. From family dinnners to joax at the mall. I realized that every moment counts and everything is equal. Everything I do is going to count for eternity. EVERYTHING. So even when I feel like nobody is watching me, God is. So why not make the most out of my time? and do everything with a smile : )

so yes that is my blog for today. If you read it, congratulations because it's SO long. haha

2006-08-29T21:36:00.000-05:00

k...so what are you suppose to do when your parents don't believe in you?

when they tell you school is everything? and that serving isn't important? that I can't put much time into fellowship as I hoped or as I did last year? that I'm not allowed to think I can do something big because I just can't since a 90 average is the MOST important right now. What in the world are you suppose to say to that? How are you suppose to bargain your way out of it.

Serving God without your parents supporting you kind of sucks. I mean...I'm getting scoulded at because I want to see my fellow brothers and sisters grow...because I feel like I can and truly want to make a difference. ouch...that hurts man.

I've prayed about this so much, which led me to the decision of writing the cabinet thing in the first place...and now I'm back to where I started...wondering...confused...

So God...what am i suppose to do? Honestly, I don't know which way to go anymore. :(

Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not men, - Ephesians 6:7

hoi sum day :)

2006-08-29T21:18:00.000-05:00

k so i had the greatest day today : ) haha my "hoi sum day" haha with the coolest mistake ever : ) (aka darren tsang)

HIGHLIGHTS of my hoi sum day
- lunch @ marlowe's : ) soo yummy it made me happy : ) haha
- the interesting spread for our bread...it has alcohol in it! so i didnt like it
- i showed him my seahorse poo : ) i am no longer a deprived child ahha
- amazing talk about so many of my problems : ) thanks boy
- me not able to finish my food and me bargaining with him to help me finish it : ) i was SO full man.
- darren treating me to lunch :)
- "shortcuts" when he drives hah
- went to the park, where i went on the swings and darren pushed me too high, from the front, and got sand all over his face >=) serves you right for pushing me :P
- tsang: man how could you ditch me & mel and not go to loo?
senga: yo man this is my future we're talking about
tsang: this is our friendship we're talking about
guilt trip darren tsang? :P

- called cheryl li and found out she's failing cuz she has to go out :P yes cheryl li u failed! XP
- went to darren's house and played mario 64 and supersmash...oh my...words cannot describe how BAD i was
- darren suiciding a buncha times...and he still beat me! : ( that was SOO SAD and i was sad by it
- realizing i got sand ALL over darren's couch :P
- went over to cheryl li's where we talked about xmen, my future ahha, & a whole buncha stuff
- cheryl...shocked at the weird conversations that goes on between me & dt haha "gimme my seahorse back NOW"

is here anything else i 4got? not really...haha today was a lot of fun. haha i haven't had this much fun for a while. :P...well no i lied...but it's been rare this summer to have this much fun

2006-08-27T21:31:00.000-05:00

so this weekend has been awesome :) God has truly blessed me with A-M-A-Z-I-N-G people and events.

Friday: Grad night
It was so hectic i think was going to cry. haha i remember worship practice not going so well and sound and video not going so well...i was soo freaking out. (ask mel & darren, they would know) im sorry for all those who i yelled @. sooo we ended up starting @ like...8..and everything just went smoothly. God is great, and truly He provided. There were tears, a huge buncha laughs, and amazing memories :) It was a blessing planning grad night for people you care so much about. I love you guys : ) each of you have impacted my life and i don't know how to thank you for that.

Saturday: softball & mad nintendo fun.
so woke up at 10, went to softball @ 11:30, iwas like the first person there! haha so i threw around with jt and eric..aww man i think i almost like broke my hand. haha but yea. i think before the game i was SOO out of it. soo tired man haha but then the game came, and it was fun. haha and popsicles are yummy (thanks freddy) and stealing darren's popsicle is also very yummy haha (the red & white parts are still the best) so after softball, we had devos led by freddy and then we decided to go to market village and as we were leaving...or about to leave..me and darren experienced very scary things (well i did, darren found it funny) so i was scared. and david thought it was funny too : ( not funny boys!) so then me, darren & mel sat in dt's car and sang far away and photograph the ENTIRE time there because mel didn't konw any of the other songs. so now our song is far away :P

"cuz YOU KNOW YOU KNOW YOU KNOWWW" : ) haha aww i miss you mel.

so then we went to market village, where we were in awe of some people who were skipping rope haah it was crazy! ahaha and they're going to b in the olympics & stuff : ) haha it was so cool haha then we decided to go 2 darren's house and since my parents were still @ lakeshore, i could go : ) yay soo off in darren's car to darren's house we go. or..i go. haha omgsh...darren is a very scary, angry driver. and i learned something new : ) that it's illegal to talk on the fone while u're driving. haha darren is very educational. then we talked more about my issues : ) thanks tsang. and we got to his house, where david, mel & jason joined us : ) haha we played mario cart, super smash bros, & awesome AWESOME mario 64. haha AMAZING haha it's fun! haha and melody was hogging it haha we had these really good jam cookies and darren owned me with the cloud on super smash. then i showered and went out for dinner w/ my family. Then i went to my aunt's, where i ate cake.
Sunday: church, shopping
so went to church : ) congratulated jess for being engaged :P haha went to sunday school @ timmies. ahha : ) then barry & osgood came. and me, issy, barry & osgood had quite an interesting boys conversation. i learnt a few things
1. barry is VERY observant about other ppl's lives.
2. osgood is oblivious :P
haha so it was fun. then i went out to lunch near markville so my cousins & i decided to go shopping and so we did haha : ) i helped my cousin buy 2 tops and i got nothing : ( i was quite sad, but it's okay! haha went home, watched a movie, ate dinner, played ddr, guitared and played piano : ) haha that's basically my sunday.

so God is good
i am no longer sick
i am no longer stressed
: )

2006-08-25T10:24:00.000-05:00

hi.
my name is senga chung.
i spent the night (and day) over at the coolEST place ever.
i am cool.
(not really.)
because ACTUALLY, mel is cooler.
THE coolEST.

today i made breakfast, there was egg , sausage, crab meat, tomato, cheese and waffles.
yummy?
more like interesting.

i learned that mel is skillful in carrying a conversation while being 3/4 asleep. its quite the interesting story.

mel is awesome at monopoly, she owns all. better than me. better than grace. better than DARREN. (you suck dt.)

we played mario. i sucked. darren sucked, but mel was AWESOME.

we flew a kite. mel knows how to run, the kite was cool - it was elmo.
aw yiu fay gaw g-u. (pronounce imagining chinese language - ping-yum)
aw day fay g-u ho ho.
so really, there was no failure.

we were attempting to make cookes, but we learned how to relax each other by pinching ears. (hahha. ha.)

we watched many tv shows.

we played with toys.

darren got ADD.

darren got hurt.
many times, but i don't care.
the mobile in mel's room was quite dangerous, but it really only hurt darren.
HAHA.
okay.
that's all.

now what else.

darren doesn't know how to drive.
i am cool. (that i is referring to mel)
that's right, i tricked you.

hehehehehe.
ho ho ho.
i'm santa clause! here are your presents, this is a coal.
welcome to my coal life.

yep. welcome to my coal life.

people in mel's family are mean.
(this means silas.)
this means WAR.

mel: (after reading this) whoa senga, you're RANDOM.

_____________________________________________________________________________

sooooo FYI

the post written before was by ofcourse, melody ng, the most RANDOM girl i know : ) haha

but most of the stuff did happen..cept for all the parts saying where melody is cool and im random =/ haha but yes haha so joax that day

mario and the park and monkeybars and monopoly and just driving around : ) haha i love you guys

from mel's random comments to darren's horrible sense of direction to grace's attempt at those crazy puzzle things haha i love you all : )

soo today is going to be grad night. it will be fun. but im exhausted mann and im sick..and i got melody sick haha

VBC'06

2006-08-22T09:09:00.000-05:00

so VBC is finally over...

the yelling, the stress, the fear of losing my kids, and ofcourse the awesome fun, the crazy laughs : )

so yes...i lost my voice but in the end, oh so rewarding :) i had an amazing time serving God with my awesome assistant crew leader jackie! : ) haha thanks girl! ahha for your first time, you were amazing. haha i loved my kids : ) i miss them soo muchhh haha it's like..every year you meet like...7 more kids...and you begin realizing how important they are to you. i love children! so innocent and so curious ahha. and oh so funny : ) and it's awesome just getting to know other crew leaders and people more : ) and it was always good to know my "oasis" (aka the AV room) was always open for me to chill and get a break : ) soo oh yes it was rewarding from michael's colourful fingernails to my awesome shirt which is now filled with little kids writing to watching my group and everybody else memorize bible verses, it was a happy week! : ) now that it's all over, the anxiety, the worries, the screaming, the ranting haha it all doesn't matter anymore because God has worked and that is my reward :)

soo here are some pix : ) haha i <3

aww kyle is soo cute :)

me & jc : )

michael & nicolas are painting me...yes that green thing..is me =/

my group : ) go fiji 2!

Janette & Kristy at the farm

Syndey and Nathan

Nicolas, me, janette, nathan, jackie

mike & i

kristy & michael and his lovely nails : )

michael, janette, nathan, nicolas

jackie & i

2006-08-13T22:41:00.000-05:00

*edit* i finished!
100 random facts about me for you.

1. i stole this off of sharon
2. i tend to steal quizes and bored stuff from people :P
3. i am amused very easily
4. i've never eaten ice cream with a fork before
5. i think monkeys and penguins are the coolest animals in the world
6. i believe that cows go cow
7. i love to have time to myself even though im an extrovert
8. i like making stuff on photoshop
9. i like art
10. but im going into sciences
11. i have my guy friends than girl friends
12. i am more open with guys than girls
13. my best friend is a guy
14. i yell a lot
15. my favourite time of the day is morning : ) like 8 o'clock in the morning
16. i smile a lot
17. i predict that i will get a lot of wrinkles from smiling when i grow up
18. i predict that i may also develop abs (hopefully) from all the laughing im doing
19. i would like my future wedding reception to be outside
20. i don't want people to be all sad and crying when i die
21. i am actually quite selfish
22. i also judge people a lot : (
23. i hate people being angry at me..it makes me so upset
24. i've never really been angry before...
25. all my older guy friends are my ah gors : )
26. i can be quiet if i really wanted to
27. normal is not in my vocabulary : )
28. when i'm not forced to, i play the piano because i want to
29. when im stressed or sad, i play the piano
30. i talk a lot of chinese at school
31. im a safe driver..really i am : )
32. i love my family even though they do bother me sometimes....hey whos family doesnt?
33. i lovee corny movies
34. i wish my future boyfriend will not celebrate months with me
35. i'm happy very easily
36. sometimes, i just want to spend time with a person, regardless of what we do
37. i don't like people making a big fuss over me
38. im whiny.
39. i am cool : ) haha but not as cool as melody
40. i like hugs : ) so come hug me
41. im a crybabyy..i cry about a lot of things
42. i like being myself : ) it's fun
43. i love my friends
44. i try to love everybody..really i do
45. pessimists bother me
46. world poverty makes me really sad
47. i like to eat a lot
48. i like to swim and jog cuz it's refreshing
49. i like watching sunset and sunrise
50. i don't like people who badger at you when you just want time alone
51. i love taking pictures
52. i love looking at pictures : ) at memories
53. i think a lot...
54. i am a sucker for sweet movies
55. i love slow songs, some of them make me want to cry
56. i'm not girly...kinda...not THAT girly
57. i like skirts now : )
58. i don't date crazy hot guys...or i wouldnt...im scared i would get to self-conscious
59. i'm not like other girls
60. i talk chinglish..like melody : P
61. i love Christian songs
62. i really don't think i sing all that great...like...im okay la
63. im very hard on myself when it comes to singing
64. music videos with girls shaking their butts and guys with huge bling disgusts me
65. i rant a lot : (
66. i like butterflies
67. there's only been maximum 2 teachers i've truly disliked throughout my years in school
68. i don't really hate anybody
69. im scared for grade 12
70. im scared when im doing solo songs
71. i like PB&J sandwiches
72. i find great satisfation in serving
73. most of my friends are from church
74. currently loving Sheryl Crow - Always on Your Side
75. i love to go to the park : ) (especially with my 2 loo friends)
76. i love lunches at the park
77. i love my girls
78. i like to bake : )
79. i don't read magazines, but i have a huge pile in my room from before
80. i am having difficulty figuring this stuff out...
81. i love my VBC kids
82. relationships scare me...
83. hurting people scare me
84. hugging my teddy bear makes me feel better when i cry
85. i like telling my friends happy news then having them b happy with me : )
86. i'm nice unlike darren tsang
87. it's napoleon ice cream! not neapolitan ice cream!
88. i like to watch ANTM : ) haha
89. i talk about a lot of random things at home..like...the fact that monkeys fly
90. im a very sentimental girl
91. i don't throw things away
92. i hate inconsiderate people
93. i like to read
94. i sing in the shower
95. i want to go visit waterlooo
96. i feel lonely a lot =/ it's weird i know
97. i believe life is not about always having fun..and always something to do
98. i don't get bored.
99. i like dressing up..sometimes
100. i am done and relieved

haha : )

so...onto today....went to grandfather's funeral...i cried like a river...omgdness....i had so much tissue in my hand it was insane. *sigh...i miss you grandpa. i love you.

but God is good, He has taken care of my family, He has showed me so much.

but as i told darren, im hoi sum right now...found out my grandfather accepted Christ before He died...PTL : )

so...gramps i miss you, but i know you're going to a better place. it's amazing what you've done for the past 85 years of your life. Rest in Peace

coffeehouse 2006

2006-08-12T11:03:00.000-05:00

last night...was exhilerating : ) absolutely not what i expected. God is great, truly He is.

So i was at church from 12 to like...10:30 yesterday haha and at the end of the day, man i was exhausted. haha cooking with keren was joax : ) haha making jello and then brownies ahha then grace came and we went to go buy MORE brownie stuff and hahaha so joax : ) i love shopping with grace haha. our highlights included seeing a girl that looked EXACTLY like annabelle..no joax, going to no frills and realizing that we totally forgot about money.hahah luckily i had money.hahah geez grace...haha when you go shopping, you need to pay! lolz : ) haha then we didn't know how to get to mich's house..even though i said i knew..yea dont trust me with directions haha : P so yess ahha soo joax. aww man. haha and after that, i was high for the rest of the day haha and cooking was cool : ) until i realized i got brownie mix all over me and grace drove me home to change : ) ahha then went back..had lampa practice with melody : ) haha soo sick of that song now. and we had worship practice..which didnt start until 6:45 because we had to set up and everything. but hte setup was so cool : ) haha with the drums in the middle & everything haha : ) woot woot so we had practice..for the first time together..and it went through okay..we ended up cutting God is great...but w/e

so after practice..i sat there for a while..thinking about God's will for tonight and then..got me thinking about my grandfather, looking down on me and being proud of me. I don't think he's ever seen me like.on stage before. I know he's watching over me. made me want to cry a little...hey but i gotta pull it together. so i drank a lito water...and i was okay

so coffeehouse...was about to start, we prayed, all the coffeehouse people and it began : ) haha man i must tell you, it was awesome. the hype..was incredible haha so im looking around..no darren tsang. haha me and mel..grr we'll kill him. haha so drama was pretty good. : ) you guys did awesome and it was very..down to earth..different from all the other ones. worship turned out good...i loved my team : ) i loved the energy. haha thanks for the great time guys. then we had the sermon that freddy gave and then me and mel went up..omgsh i was sooo scared..like..i was shaking and going insane! haha then when mel started playing i looked up..OMGSH DARREN TSANG HAHA so i sang...with as much confidence as i could possibly take outta my body and during the entire time...he was like..giving me thumbs ups..andi was trying hard NOT to laugh. haha by the end of the song..omgsh i was shaking...in my head..iw as like..omgsh i did it i did it..haha scaryy ahha aparently gencan thought it wasnt live. ahha and was amazed haha so yes : ) coffeehouse was awesome : ) God truly has some crazy plans for us : ) haha

and so joax with mel and darren after coffeehouse : ) haha good to chill with all 3 of us again : )haha just like last summer haha <3>

RIP

2006-08-10T21:36:00.000-05:00

so i guess things do happen...

unexpectedly...out of the blue...things you thought could wait...but time doesnt wait for you.

Rest in Peace Grandpa

although we never really talked, you've changed me more than you know.

we'll all miss you.

life...

2006-08-10T16:43:00.000-05:00

yayyy i got my G2 : ) woot woot

and thanks for the talk yesterday mel : ) haha our awesome 1hr phone conversation. man just so many things im discontent about...just have to get it all out. ahha and when dt comes back, we'll yell about it to him too.

so..my day was...very scary..and i don't know....so i woke up this morning to drive my brother to swimming and went with my mom to my grandparents where i had to sit there till like....12 with my grandma while everybody else took my grandpa to see the doctor to do an ultrasound or something. then i went out for lunch with my grandparents...only to have my grandpa come to the restaurant and not being able to exactly breathe properly because apparently he was lying down too long at the doctors..so my mom had to drive to the restaurant to get him home...but we realized something was wrong...cuz he was breathing abnormally and he was just weak...like my mom & my aunt had to literally lift him up. so they got scared...and decided to bring him to the hospital..so now im sitting at home..with both my parents at the hospital with my grandpa who is currently in critical condition and is staying overnight at the hospital.

so that's not exactly how my day was SUPPOSED to go..but it's amazing how God opens up your eyes. so before lunch, my grandma came and showed me all these photo albums of things like my mom's wedding or when my aunts were younger and things like that and watching as people change..and looking at the pictures of my grandpa and seeing how thin and weary he's grown, it made me realize the fragility of life (if that's even a word) I mean...when my brother and i got home, my brother asked me..."do you think he's going to live?" it made me angry..i mean how negative could u get..but at the same time...it's a reasonable question to ask. and it scares me. I've never been to a funeral my entire life...and God has truly blessed me. but today, feeling a totally different anxiety and fear for someone else's life...it's scary. I mean...after lunch when i went back to the apartment with my grandma to keep her company...i realized i couldnt sit still or stop worrying about my grandfather and whether or not he's okay.

life is precious...and God has showed me that. and He's also showed me that sometimes the only thing you could do is pray.

happy birthday jellody : )

2006-08-07T22:16:00.000-05:00

Today is a special day : )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELODY!
the funniest, coolest girl around : )

i love youuuu. haha soo joax today haha okay so david picked me up at 1 to go to mel's house...and we found this lady who was lying there...and i thought that there was nothing wrong with her...few seconds later..u hear police and ambulance..we're like..uhoh. so now i feel bad..i hope she's okay.
so we arrived to mel's house...and david didnt tell mel we were coming. lolz failure. soo we said bye to tim & silas who were leaving to play tennis...and we went into mel's house...we saw the cheesecake : ) and we put it in the fridge and went up to mel's room :) where i played w/ some magnety things jc gave her and saw her cute lil kiddy pictures and talked to dtsang who wasnt there. then we went out : ) to....

glaze craze! haha..and during the ride there, mel was giving me a tour around the place she lives haha :P so joax haha her tour stops at centre point haha so we went to glaze craze..and i chose a turtle, mel chose a butterfly, and david chose a hippo. haha it was quite stressful for melody haha to decide on so many things haha oh dear. haha we have matching animals now : ) we decided to share colours haha. and it was so difficult picking tiles haha i think the woman was getting tired of us constantly showing up asking for more colours. haha and mel kept failing :P screaming when she messes up and moving the table all the time :P haha and asking the lady for 2 of the colours she JUST put back lolz! haha so that was fun : ) havent done anything artsy for a while..then we went to...

licks! haha aww man so joax..and on the way...riding dirty was on the radio haha : ) yesss me & mel's song haha soo joax. haha mel is gangstar : )
cashier person #1: Hi can i help you?
mel: yea well it's my birthday, and i was wondering if i could get anything for free?
cashier person #1: well i guess we can give you free ice cream
mel: okay then can i have the ice cream?
cashier person #1: okay then..go down there..to the ice cream place
*mel walks to the ice cream place*
cashier person #2: hi would you ladies like to get ice cream?
mel: yea umm the lady over there said i get the ice cream for free cuz it's my birthday
cashier person #2: who said that?
mel: that lady over there..you can ask her
cashier persion #2: hey! did u say she can have free ice cream?
cashier person #1: i said maybe
cashier person #2: she said maybe...
agnes: wow mel you're failing
*cashier person #2 walks away*
mel: wait so do i get my free ice cream?
agnes: i dont think you do...
*us standing there for a while*
cashier person #3: hi can i help you?
mel: yea i don't know if i get free ice cream cuz it's my birthday
cashier person #3: hey does she get free ice cream?
cashier person #2: just give her a double scoop
cashier person #3: okay..cup or cone?
mel: oh i get the ice cream?
cashier person #3: cup or cone?
mel: cup

hahaha wow after 3 cashier people haha soo joax haha and we get 2 scoops of ice cream : ) haha i like i like haha saving like......$3.50 haha good stuffs haha : ) the ice cream was good hahaha. then after ice cream, back to mel's house to decorate her cake...until we found out the whipped cream was expired jan 14 2005 haha or it could be jan 5 2014 haha hmmm so yea...so we told silas to go buy us some : ) and we had whipped cream and we cutted strawberries : ) mel was so angry...geez so demanding haha me and david got scared of her...goodness haha so joax though haha and we played mad gab ahha mel is so joax haha "supernatural fence?" haha <3>

happy 18th hun

bbq for walton : )

2006-08-02T22:12:00.000-05:00

HAHA omgshhh soo joax at gordon's house today. haha i love my friends. so we had a bbq at gordon's house haha and it was alton's birthday thingy : )

i know it's early...but
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALTON : )

haha highlights of tonight
- me and natalie ringing the door bell and hearing beverly scream like a dog on the other side
-sisi and gordon taking out the turtles and bev and sisi being mean to them
- the turtle started sliding and "running" and me and natalie screamed
- listening to sisi and beverly karoke
-watching cinderella story and having sisi scream everytime chad michael murray was on haha he is SOO HOT : ) aww man SEXY
- water fight : ) soo joax haha
- watching gdon, camy, kenny, hollie, eva, & calvin drink and play games haha
- listening to calvin when he is drunk LOL

haha tonight was soo joax : ) haha pictures laterrrr hehe : )

ohhh and david wong, you owe me lunch cuz i got 95 in data : ) haha

summer...FINALLY

2006-08-01T21:45:00.000-05:00

soo im at nat jeh's house right now :) haha and my back is sunburned haha greattttt

so here's my day
-had an easy, 2 hour exam with 20mins to spare
-went to wonderland with my favorite losers in the world :) my two daughters haha
-went to splashworks..which was almighty refreshing in 45 degrees weather
-bought a green tea frap : ) cuz i like those haha
-went on sledgehammer, vortex, and the fly

haha yayy start of summer FINALLY

cant wait till tomorrow! bbq at gordon's house! yayyy haha it's gonna be soo joax

so here's a glimpse at the rest of my week

wed - gdon's house
thurs - softball practice, worship practice
fri - fellowship ;) CGN :D
sat - drivingg
sun - church, double header for softball : ) anddd deeenerrrr

yayy : ) haha k nat's back. toodles

life...what's not to love?

2006-07-30T22:27:00.000-05:00

i love...

-hearing God speak through so many people who went on missions
-watching grade 5s and 6s grow throughout the year
-feeling the wind on my face
-playing softball
-looking at nature and admiring the sun and the trees and the sky : )
-doing devos with softball people every game and just learning something new and bonding with people
-that my parents look out for what's best for me
-how my friends catch me when i fall
-being woken up in the morning by the sound of birds outside my window (even though it's like.. 6 in the morning)
-watching morning cartoons
-hearing from people in university and missions
-comforting friends
-worshipping Him

life...what's not to love?

2006-07-29T17:32:00.000-05:00

okayy so no more moody posts..cuz they're just dumb
haha

friday was fun : ) walking around w/ my cell group and making pretty magnets : ) haha it was cool and i met this new girl named queenie : ) haha and i got scared of going up people's porches who had their lights on haa it was so funny. haha

softball game today :) and we lost : ( but it's okay! we went out for ice cream after. haha me & mel & kitty shared a double scoop...yo it's pretty big. haha it was yummy : ) i liked jamocaa hehe haha and so joax talking about si :P haha kitty you're so funny. haha i love u guys : )
then chow chow drove me home

and i have so many bruises & bumps from softball..it's okay! all worth it haha. my scars from being a hero according 2 jc. lol

and tomorrow..ANOTHER GAME! : ) woot woot! excited! yayyy

and thanks 2 u guys who were so patient and understanding when i was pmsing haha i S2 u guysss and i love those who checked up on meee : ) and thanks candee & torii i love ur comments! <3>

2006-07-25T08:57:00.000-05:00

: ) so today is tuesday...and im going to talk about sunday haha :) soo

our season is now officially 4-1

5 more games to goo : ) and God is good, so we'll see how things go

haha i loved dinner at the end :) haha i love my team. and i loved the food! hahaha everytime you go out, especially for chinese, you gotta bring pastor freddy along hahaha and so jokes...our table naming people by fruits..

eric: pineapple
freddy: kiwi
chowchow: red, hot, delicious apple LMAO!
jt: strawberry
jon: mango

haha im nothing :) well..im agnes haha aww so joax :)

and thanks andy for the talk on Friday :) I <3 style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" size="2">sellors. totally gotta pray for my plans next year. and guess what?!??! my parents started talking again! :) God is good

oh and guess what else?!??!? i got a monkey! my own monkey :P and his name is...Barry Ip : )

blessings

2006-07-15T10:32:00.000-05:00

haha last night was amazing : )

worship was a lot of fun : ) haha with jt's cool intro and what not : ) yayy haha
then bible study, omgsh totally AMAZING : ) i loved it! like absolutely loved it! and i got something out of it too! and like i wasn't tired that day or anything. and it was more discusssion : ) and we had so much energy and our group was just so comfortable and stuff : ) yayyyy haha praise the Lord! : ) totally His doing! I love my cell group!

and amazing thanks to sharon and eric last night haha well more sharon than eric. hahha cuz eric was more making fun of me haha i love you guys to death. : ) haha eric can always make me laugh :P haha i love u ah gor <3

my life is quite complicated, but it's okay! i have friends and God to carry me through! : )

although summer school is draggy haha there are some good stuff:

- get to chill with my friends at the park during lunch
- get to chill and fool around with people in my class haha getting to know new people
- inside jokes like "monster" ahaha
- getting good marks : )
- getting a good teacher
- not sitting at home all day

haha sooooooo : ) yeshh ahah two more weeks or so...im getting a 95 in this course : ) woot woot! haha

and yayy softball game today at 4 at goldhawk! come watch us play! goooooo BELOVED!

<3

2006-07-11T23:40:00.000-05:00

my day consists of:

- getting my report card
- getting my test back
- learning two chapters and doing homework
- eating with my relatives

im tired : ( and i have a test AGAIN tomorrow and another one FRIDAY insanity!

haha but i did good on report card! 93.5 average baby!

but i did bad on my test ...well "bad" becuase i was looking for 90 & over...haha so...87 doesnt cut it..and i hafta get 93 or higher in data management haha i bet david on it haha

and once again : ) i love my cousins haha aww man they're so joax : P

chris: taurus, do you watch Top Model?
taurus: i watched it once
agnes: which one? america or canada?
taurus: america and there's this transvestite in it
agnes: whhatt? no there isnt!
taurus: yes there is one of the judges! ms. J
agnes: no there isnt!
susanna: hang on...how many judges are there?
agnes: 4
susanna: so how many females are there?
taurus puts one finger up
susanna: and how many males?
taurus puts two fingers up
susanna: no okay how many look like females?
taurus puts two fingers up hahha : )
agnes: wait....ms J...OHHH HIM
taurus: haha yeaa
agnes: but it's a guy =/
taurus: but he dresses and acts like a woman...and claims he is a tranvestite
agnes: oh...OH....oh ew
____________________________________________________________

chris: yo, pass me those orange men *pointing at chopsticks*
agnes: so chopsticks are now men
susanna: at least they're straight
chris: yea chopsticks are straight...what? you expected them to be bent
agnes: NO! okay if chopsticks are men....and they are straight..the opposite of straight men is...
chris: bent women?

HAHAHA : )

hehehe i love it when we have family gatherings w/ all six of us haha

: ) <3

2006-07-11T23:31:00.000-05:00

the happy post : )

2006-07-10T21:53:00.000-05:00

forget my angry post! haha why? because God is good : ) ALL THE TIME. He is just so amazing. Giving and taking away :) SOOOO...my weekend turned out amazing!!! :) let's recap shall we?

Friday:
Fellowship was reflection night. It was cool, planning with mel and david on worship and chilling at my house. hahaha with david loving my mom's cooking. haha then off to fellowship...reflected with eric and grace and just thinking about my year, what God has done and stuff : ) really cool talking to them and just about the things God has done for them : ) I loveee hearing about the lives of my brothers and sisters :) And we made a cross : ) haha i'm smart and got it haha so yea that was fun :) this was the night where i was upset...but, God being awesome, was there for me : ) Prayer is power yo'

Saturday:
sssssoftball : ) woot woot! our first two games. haha i got browner...ANOTHER tan line..i have like...10 now haha it's insanity! but yea : ) just such an awesome time of cheering on each other, encouraging, praying, devotions, and fellowshiping : ) and with God's grace, we won both games. : ) woot woot! go BELOVED! :) it was awesome too, just getting to meet people from Drifters and Samaritans :) thenn..deenerrr with my beloved-erssss :) haha andy u gotta send me those picturessssss ahha me and mel (don't smell the food, *puts finger under nose) hahhaa and changing people's fones to different languages : ) hahaha : ) and she's turning more into meeee haha and our whole table talking about like hot girls and pretty girls and hot guys hahaahahhaa soo joax : ) i love you guys :)

Sunday:
church :) went to sunday school for once for a while. then helped the little kids make bookmarks : ) made one toooooo : ) haha it has a feather on it haha so then i went home and ate with my second aunt who i've never met before and my grandparents. THEN i did data while all my uncles went to my uncle's house because he has HD TV to watch world cup. Italy ended up winning. lol my dad came home and drove me and my mom to my uncles where we had bbq : ) then me and my cousin went for a walk : ) it was so nice and we got to chat and stuff, which was really cool : ) then we came back and my other cousin, he played piano for like 17 years now...and if you sing him a song, he can play for u it was soo awesome! : ) i came in..and he was playing hungry! :) i was like..cool so i sang and then he played indescribable and stuff :) then he played all these BSB and N'sync songs and like....even older songs like...beatles and "right here waiting" and stuff : ) ohh funnn then me and him jammed. i tuned his gtar and started playing God of wonders...he was like...oh and he started playing too!!! :) haha and we jammed and stuff : ) ohh i love my cousinssss such awesoem time bonding and chilling w/ my family : ) Praise the Lord :)

sooo my weekend was a-w-e-s-o-m-e

totally learned He gives and takes away : ) and for that i am truly grateful

after fellowship

2006-07-07T22:47:00.000-05:00

okay so im still angry...(If you don't know why, you need to read the post before)

and it's now at the fact that i cant go. Yea it sucks. it sucks to constantly let people down and it sucks to constantly be let down. *sigh

i don't know...my parents actually sat down and talked to me about my schedule & stuffs after fellowship. it was a pain. I looked at my calendar...and iuno.

I really wanted to go. I was looking forward to it all week. and now... *sigh maybe it's God's will.

I don't know...either way i have to accept it right? Sorry guys. I know im a failure lolz as darren tsang puts it.

SO instead of my weekend being mainly softball and waterloo

it is NOW: softball, homework, family gathering

i'd prefer the first one....but *sigh. agnes is tired now...

tired from school...tired from sleeping @ 12...tired from crying.

let's hope tomorrow softball will cheer me up

talking to mel, jon, grace and andy did a little good :) thanks guys <3

edit** haha copying sharon now...know what im also upset about? the fact that my dad tells me it's not a big deal and i can go another time..Here's my question....why should i think he's going to let me go next time if he wont let me go this time? He said i can go when i can drive...yea what makes me think he'll let me drive all the way to loo? At this rate...i'll never be able to go visit the loo-erssss

Before Fellowship

2006-07-07T22:45:00.000-05:00

RANT
it's going to be angry. so if you wanted to read something happy and jolly, totally not the place to be
ughhh i hate this..

you would THINK that maybe...just MAYBE your parents would trust you on making decisions on your own..but noooooo they want to prioritize ur life for you

they want to just control your life because they want you to be "successful" they want you to "get the best things in life"

what the HECK does that mean? since when you are to tell me what's right for me and what's best for me? Since when did you know?

Since when did you ever EVER ask my opinion on things i want to do. ughhhhh

im sooo angryy. crap man.

They honestly need to learn that they dont have control over my life. I can't wait till i have a car and have my own independance.

As much as they care, sometimes i just wish they'd trust me for once. They say....oh you're cramming yourself too much....u're not spending time with the family enough...you're not trying in school enough...you're not concentrating enough...you're not getting a high enough average....you're spending enough time doing school stuff...

What is enough? It seems that no matter what i do, it's never enough. They never look back at what i've done when i did good things, no they look back at what i've done that was horrible, that was bad. It's like...as long as you spend one weekend without them, it's not enough. *sigh

it's my life....i have priorities too....im a teenager....why won't you just let me think like one and be like one? Why are you trying to make me grow up so much? I know i'm getting old and i need to grow up...but why are you always trying to ruin the things i really want to do?

aweijdlsahglaibuiadlsrjwaledghlhfd
*sigh now what?

summmerrrrrr : )

2006-07-03T13:40:00.000-05:00

yay so it's been like....1 week of summer. haha and i've

- went to wonderland with my favourites
- went to see Superman Returns
- went out 2 timmies
- went to grad
- had relatives come over
- played softball : )
- painted anita's housee : )

yayy and tonz more to dooo : ) je suis loving it

kitty im probably coming to visit next sunday! : )

call to action.

2006-06-25T22:18:00.000-05:00

okay so today was a pretty good day

church and painting and nat's house and dinner with my grandparents

I'm slowly beginning to see that people matter a lot to me. I mean yea I knew that before...but it hits you when you realize...some things. So my grandparents came back to Canada, after being gone for like..two years. and I haven't seen them for a really long time. And you know...as people get old, they get sicker and stuff, and i've been worried and stuff but i was really excited to see them. My grandma looked the same and everything...and what hit me was my grandpa. He came in...on a wheelchair, which i knew he would, but i guess it never really hit me. He was so much skinnier, he looked so small. Two years ago, he was walking with a walking stick and it was okay. I mean he still got spunk. But when i saw him today...he looked so sad, so hopeless, so lifeless...so weak. And it made me want to cry. And even when i saw him smile a little bit, just to see his daughters, his grandchildren, it made him look so frail...so fragile. And i guess im still wanting to cry as i type this....I mean i guess i never really knew my grandparents mattered that much to me until now. And for the entire dinner...i felt so...i don't know...sad. Age is getting to him, and im slowly realizing that moments need to be treasured. I'm slowly realizing that it all matters to him, that everyday matters.

And a thought that even made me sadder was that...while so sick, so incapable of doing so many things, He doesn't know God. It kills to think that he's going by everyday, not knowing that something better might be in store for him, not knowing that there's someone who loves Him so much and is going to make everything okay. Totally strike me how important sharing God's word is. So ...action time.

neverending prayer and action.

summer here i come

2006-06-24T16:45:00.000-05:00

Yes yes yes!

I am officially

DONE

hehe yayyy summer here i come! haha

that means i can...

-visit kitty and darren sometime @ waterloo
-play softball
-go to wonderland
-bbqsss : )
-go out after fellowship
-go SHOPPING
-eat and ddr and slack off at home

: ) oh what a wonderful time hahaha : P

P.S. Kitty, don't worry! I'll come...but i have to wait till everybody else finishes...so that university children can drive me : P

almost done almost done! : )

2006-06-22T14:26:00.000-05:00

yayyy i survived..last week...

im surviving this week : )

it's almost coming to an end...one more days. and then i'll be DONE

religion exam yesterday was SOO easy :) I felt so happy afterwards haha
but math..*sigh we'll see it was okay la~ i don't like exams that were okay la~

then i can paint after exams!:) i have to paint tiles for teachers that are leaving...im excited...haven't painted for a while..like ACTUALLY paint. haha nice to get my creativity flowing again.

Praise the Lord from bringing me through this week and even giving me time to do devos : ) oh He is so cool : )

Things to look forward to:
-softball (finally : P)
-worship night thingy : )
- grandparents coming
- painting
- wonderland w/ my girlprends :)
- graduation (singing) haha the deserts :P

: ) : ) yayyyy mad fun totally excited

2006-06-18T22:10:00.000-05:00

exams on wed, thurs, fri.

comm tech cpt due tuesday...not done

which means didnt start studying

oh so screwed

but i'm not gonna go and totally rely on myself anymore. Done that for the past like..month and it SUCKS. Giving it all up to Him. my worries, my stress, my joys, my confusion, my accomplishments...are all His.

thanks guys for helping me through : ) and just checking up on me. you know who you are <3

one more week...then it's OVER :D

2006-06-13T15:19:00.000-05:00

*sigh im like slowly disintergrating...

not like..burning or anything

just tired..exhausted..fed up..drained

and i'm so far from God...it's so hard these days for me to figure out the right thing to do...the thing God wants me to do.

It's so hard to keep devos consistant and have my heart at it when i do it

it's so hard to pray sincerely without having other things on my mind or without being too tired

*sigh nobody said it was going to be easy

but i jus wish i wasnt so weak

untitled.

2006-06-11T15:30:00.000-05:00

so i dragonboated today. haha wow we did so bad. but w/e our first year. haha fun times with my team china : P haha go boys and the catwalk and that awesome game of pig :P haha good stuff. so today was alright..but inside....it feel...incredibly sad..iuno why. it's weird. yea i mean today was good..laughs and what not...but i feel...ridiculously empty. *sigh God what's wrong with me.

And iuno bible study on Friday....*haii iuno. it felt so weird...and i was so tired. sorry ivan.

ughhh soo dun wanna work

sooo tired

*sigh...imma pull through..it's almost over

getting back up on my feet

2006-06-03T17:46:00.000-05:00

so the hecticness is FINALLY over (for now) I went through this week..and yes staying till like 2:30 doing an essay is DEFINATELY not fun. okay now...time to get back on track with God. As much as school is important, i gotta keep my eyes fix on God. Easier said than done.

"Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." - Romans 5:3-5

I'm currently loving this verse. I don't know...I guess mainly because, as hard as it is to do, to rejoice in our sufferings, i want to learn how to. and as i do that...the end result is so promising. hope that does not disappoint. the only thing that is unchanging. His love.

So yesterday, it was St. Augustine's feast day (not birthday, my bad) and so we had mass. For those of you who don't know, I go to a catholic school. And the priest was teaching about that passage where Jesus asked Peter three times if he loved Him. And the priest asked us this, "If Jesus was to ask you right now...what would your response be?"
As ashamed I feel saying this, I've lost track as to where i am with God. I feel like...I haven't really gone anywhere, nor have I tried to. The priest also mentioned that love is a word that means nothing until action is taken. If I haven't taken action lately, could I really say that I love God? So my goal from now on, put my love in action. it hurts to know that i haven't done that. But it takes so much more than just feeling ashamed, it takes change.

last night fellowship was really good, i liked it a lot. Just time to pray, to reflect. i especially liked the last part. that was so cool. : ) thanks candee, anita, & donna for planning it. you guys did an awesome job.

through it all

2006-05-31T09:19:00.000-05:00

okay so im in comm tech...and i just finished my bio test. It was okay i guess..i don't know....im scared : ( i need these grades man. needa pull it up to like...a 95 before exams cuz i know im going to drop after exams.

okay i've gone through half of the week and...survived.

I survived...i'm so surprised. so you know that long list of stuff i had to do...well here's what's left.

Math Test next period
Religion ISP essay due friday
Pig dissection package due friday
Comm tech careers package due tomorrow

i believe that is it...

i've gone through half of my stuff

how amazing is that : )

Praise the Lord for He is faithful and carries us through

a few more days to go...then iuno..nothing for next week so far....i REALLY hope there's no homework this weekend....that's not going to happen. haha

okay posting HOPE pictures tomorrow..just for u trisiaaaaaa : P <3

sunshine makes me happy : )

2006-05-27T21:34:00.000-05:00

so eggie survived her saturday through the grace of her amazing Father. eggie woke up at 8 in the morning and watch family shows and did homework. Then she went out and played softball : ) which was fun haha man i hafn't played in a while. and during practice, i sadly had to break it to pretty barry that...he wasn't very pretty. BUT i did love your flower : ) and andy told me to practice softball in my head for the past few weekends :P because i'm not allowed to go to softball until exams are over : ( which is june 23.

Then agnes went to car wash : ) which was awesome. a huge success and i had tonz of fun.

but agnes came home with a sunburn..that doesnt hurt =/ lolz. so yes

and agnes finished her website and all the writeup for bio cpt : )

agnes feels like a champ

actually no..God is a champ for carrying me through : )

and it's so hot...totally the weather to wear skirts : ) yayy skirt and sandals season! im excited haha

OH and i watched my first episode of captain planet today! AHHA it's so old school

2006-05-24T20:15:00.000-05:00

eggie is...
tired
hungry
confused
overthinking
unmotivated
being made fun of : (
looking forward to summer
excited for school to end
excited for softball this saturday
learning that God gives and takes away and that He NEVER leaves
doing well in school : )
loving the sun (finally) this week

so the good overweighs the bad : )

and that my friends is what keeps me going

victoria weekend

2006-05-23T22:40:00.000-05:00

so yesterday was the last day of victoria weekend. I've waited for this weekend for AGES. haha well like...two weeks ever since the end of my PA day at the beginning of may. SO yea : ) it was fun. I am satisified. Got some work done, got to chill with peeeps :) it felt nice. So recap time!

Friday
Cell group night :) it was fun, chilling with Melody Ng :) and flying in the mall hahahhaa i love little kids hhaa so joax mel while everybody was running around fillin out the scavenger hunt It turned out alright : ) i hope people bonded and i think pat and bev had fun : ) haha yayyersss. AHAH soo joax with bev after haha "maybe if we peek into the kitchen enuf times, they'll give us food" hahaha soo high omgsh! haha and yes i am beverly's mother : ) hehe and bev being a pig stole waffles from eric's group haha soo joax Friday was fun : )

Saturday
guitar lessons with JW at 11:00 : ) im getting betterrrr i can tell haha i feel happy : ) haha but bar cords : ( i cant do bar cords..oh well more practicing. haha my fingers have blisters haha so not fun haha it's okayyy it's worth it. Then i went home ate lunch..then DA VINCI CODE! haha omgsh we shouldn't have watched with like...three girls hahahhaa soo freaky! haha me and jane SCREAMED! haha that movie was quite disturbing. but it was fascinating too..kinda weird....and stuffs so yea. haha it was pretty good though. I gotta go reread the book becuase i forgot most of the stuff lolz

Sunday
Went to church, silas ditched us for sunday school haha took pictures with mike and issyy haha then after sunday school, talked with my friendsss haha and darren took a picture of his mouth on my fone..so now my background is...darren's mouth. haha and the more i look at it, the more it looks like his mouth haha darn you darren tsang haha and when i first look at it i thought they were lights. lolz then...at night..JFOK's SURPRISE BIRTHDAY THING : ) haha that was fun haha soo joax haha we shouldn't have put the streamers there though. haha but it was fun : ) i had fun haha i won one game of super smash bros against cy, eric & jon. hahaa yayyy :) im a champ haha one game was all i needed. haha made me feel happy haha and there was soo much foodd omgshhh soo good thank you auntie irene! haha so much meat...and veggies and fruits : ) haha i hadn't eaten that much in a very very long time haha it was good though. haha then had jason's cake : ) hehe it was good :) i like mango moose. then tim laughed @ me for thinking wedges and wedgies were the same thing : ( haha and yea : ) it was fun in general. i played gtar a little bit after watching family guy haha i had fun : ) hehe

so yes that is my weekend time to go finish studying the circulatory system. yay exciting

muckiness

2006-05-17T18:47:00.000-05:00

so today started out okay. I mean sure i was tired, but the sun was out haha for once this week...honestly the weather's been bleh all week. then things didn't go so well..

i got my math test back...88%..yea yea i know 88 is good...but considering i was getting like..97, it's going to totally drop my mark : ( made me kind of upset...but then i got over it. And i was so tired....during choir i was hungry AND tired so DOUBLE WHAMMY and my tummy hurt : ( oh it wasn't fun. But i have my girls nat & jane 2 cheer me up lolz i love my bear daughter and my cat.
....so those things...no big deal, i get over them. *sigh then during dinnertime, that's when this day went bad. near the end of dinner, my mommy told me that her hand was starting to get numb. Apparently, her muscle near her shoulder is always tense and it's been like that for a few years. And now it's getting so tense to the point where her hands are starting to feel numb..like all the time...and that's kind of scary...and she was just talking about how she works so much and what not that she's always tense and like...stressed and what not.

So after dinner, as i sit there, doing my math homework, i figured, i could always go and do the dishes and what not. So i go and tell her that i could do the dishes tonight and she said, "One day of dishes isn't going to help. If you did it everyday, maybe it will" . ouch. that hurt. I mean i was only trying to help. But i guess she was really upset so she told me to go back and do my work. And then my dad came home from bringing my brother to scouts...*sigh...then they fought. And it hurts...actually it SUCKS seeing my mom like this, seeing her feel so misunderstood and just so...weary and not knowing how to fix it. and it's hard because my mom is the kind of person that always thinks about others before herself. No matter how stressed and tired she is, she'll still be doing the things she does. so it hurts even more to know that she's in this condition because of doing stuff for my family. so now what?

well i went up and prayed and cried and it's amazing how God is constantly there to listen. so now what?

I dont know...i guess i'll pray some more.

why stress?

2006-05-14T19:51:00.000-05:00

stress...

it kills people doesn't it.

people seemed to be amazed at the times where i just...stay calm when i have billion things to do.

I think I've come...to a realization that I'm not doing everything for myself anymore. I mean yea my future depends on my marks...but im getting good grades for God. I mean He doesn't need them. But i'm doing it for Him, knowing that He gave me an opportunity to even go to school as much as it is a drag sometimes. When it's no longer about me...no longer about...what's going to happen to me and all about how this is going to praise Him, I automaticaly do my best knowing that that's what He deserves.

So breathe...take a moment away from all that work, all those projects, problems

and pray. and put it all in His hands

because I mean stressing is just what Satan wants us to do. Not trust in God. Not have faith in Him that we'll be carried through it. Don't fall into that trap. I know i've fell into too many times. It's like these holes you keep falling into. You gotta learn to walk AROUND them.

breathe. pray. and smile : )

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. - Proverbs 3:5

The Father's embrace

2006-05-09T19:51:00.000-05:00

okay so edit. haha just like how sharon does with her posts :P lol Yesterday was a horrible day...and i mean it was horrible for many reasons:
a) none of my teachers were here and my tests and stuffs got moved which totally ruins schedule

b) i broke three guitar strings while TUNING people usually break their's playing..i broke mine tuning :( so sad

c) i no longer had motivation to do anything in life...starting to fall apart

d) and finally...im just tired...so tired

and i couldn't take it anymore. I mean...meetings after meetings...people after people coming to me asking for help. And how can i say no? love others right? But...there comes to a point...where you do it out of...just doing it...the purpose is lost...it becomes meaningless...And last night...i found out just how depressing and dangerous that could be.

Last night, I no longer had the motivation to do anything. I felt like...i was just going through this day, wishing it would end. And i have friends who say, "What's wrong?" or "Is there anything I can do?" ..Truth..there wasn't anything anyone could do...because the only thing I needed...was God. and then people at school go, "omgsh agnes is so spiritual" It has nothing to do with being spiritual. It has everything to do with focus, the thirst of wanting to be found, to be embraced, to talk to someone who is CONSTANTLY there and knows EXACTLY what is going on.

GOD

And how amazing He truly is. As i said, i couldn't do any work and so i decided to go upstairs at 10 because I knew unless I fixed things up with God, nothing else will be fixed. It's kinda weird...it's like...when I fall away from Him, everything crumbles. I mean at first, it seems okay, then slowly, things start to just..die. And so i sat in my room last night...crying...praying...well crying while praying. And for the first time in a VERY LONG time..i prayed...a genuine prayer, pleading for His strength, confessing that I'm so weak and so confused and just SO tired. And people are like..oh crying solves nothing....but crying to God...solves everything. and i mean EVERYTHING. After a good half an hour of tearful prayer, I felt better. Not just like..oh better for a day...but not alone, embraced by my awesome and faithful Father. And that was it. All it took for me to come back again, all it took for me to feel content, happy. It's funny...reminded of that Rob Bell video this morning...about how when we mourn, that's when God can hold us the closest.

And last night, I felt the embrace of my Father : )

2006-05-08T20:24:00.000-05:00

ughh today is SOo not a good day..i SO dont feel like doing ANYTHING this week : ( i just want to crawl in my bed and hide under the covers :(

abc...it's easy as 123

2006-05-06T17:28:00.000-05:00

okay so update from my last post...i wrote my mom a note that morning..and everything turned out okay! :) so yessss

anywhoosss PA day yesterday :) haha nat and jane came over and we ddr-ed haha soo joax and we watched a lil of high school musical haha it was fun haha soo joax jane looks like she wants to fly when she ddrs haaha then bible study...went alright i guess...just needing a lito more concentration. but thanks Ivan for leading most of it! :)

This morning..i had guitar lessons with JW : ) haha yayy and i have a guitar too! thanks liann and anita! : ) and JW's story was soo cool!!!! :) PTL

so i drove to insurance class today which was all the way in scarbrough and i survived! i drove back too! it wasnt THAT bad i guess..but now im tired. and i cant go bbq @ JC's house again this week because..well agnes has a religion test monday then a math and bio test tuesday : (
oh so sad

cabby meeting tomorrow :) k back 2 nerdinggg

: (

2006-05-04T12:02:00.000-05:00

*sigh...so much on my mind...it's not always easy dealing with your parents

so what happened was...two nights ago...i had a lot of bio homework and i was very fustrated..so my mom came in and asked if i wanted help. So willingly i said yes. When she was doing it, i was getting just...angry because I just didn't care anymore. My homework was SOO stupid! my teacher PURPOSELY whited out words for us to fill in....like..WHAT?!??!!? so retarded...so i got really pissed off...and i kind of ended up giving my mom attitude. Then she got angry and she was like...just because you're angry at your teacher doesnt mean you have to show it to me. And she got really angry...and it was like..11:30 at night. So the next day..she decided....to not talk to me so i haven't talk to my mom for 24 hours :( And she wont until i say sorry and i dont know how to because im scared because she's so angry. *sigh and then i'm giong to end up crying again...gosh..couldnt work last night because of it all in my mind.

*sigh i hope everything goes better today

weekend fun

2006-04-30T22:10:00.000-05:00

okay so my weekend went well : )

Friday Night
my poor "daughter" got a fever so she couldn't come to fellowship. Worship practice went alright : ) it was cool having so many people lolz. wow...then i had overhead problems until betty came and saved my life :P haha then we watched two episodes of Joan of Arcadia. Man im hooked! whoever is done with their DVD i want it NEXT! haha and we had healthy snacks haha like eric said "all of us will have no problem pooing tonight" LMAO! haha i love carrots and celery sticks with dip! :D

Saturday
I drove my daddy to work and we drove to Markville and the Dollar Store at Warden :) haha i'm still bad at driving :( i need to improve! haha i will prove eric and david wrong :P went to bbq at Jon's house at like...5 he wasn't even home yet! ahha so we ended up starting bbq at like...6 :) darren, jason, david, eric, cheryl, kenneth, and kitty were there :) mad fun :) haha soo joax with darren's picture haha a little too happy touching jason's waist there hahaha and aww i miss cheryl :( leaving to go to missions. Hope you have fun girl! the sausages were yummy! :) and the burgerss even though there was no ketchup lol it was good! :) haha had tonz of fun. It was just a good time to just relax and forget about school for like...2-3 hours. :) and it felt like summer haha yayy the beginning of our bbq season :)

Sunday
went to church. I loved the Rob Bell video today :) God's message of love. and something that Uncle Simon said during Sunday School stuck to me. He said, "Sometimes we don't evangelize because we're scared and we only not evangelize for two reasons a) we don't love God enough or b) we don't love the person enough. Sometimes we dare to not love."
it's such a weird way of looking at it. And today's message just totally reminds me of that whole outloving post i read on Tim Woo's blog a while ago :) imma outlove you all <3>

yay PA day friday! :) nat you're SOO coming over to "run" with me HAHA

2006-04-28T21:54:00.000-05:00

i just came back from fellowship..standing outside for like..30minutes waiting for the boys to figure out where to go..it's cold tonight lol. But yea..it was okay...watching joan of arcadia : ) i like that showw i want to watch nowww lolz just totally reminds me that God uses ordinary people and in today's worship set...

"You use the weak to lead the strong" - Your Grace is Enough

:) total awesomeness. anywhooss nothing really happened today...i think... not that i remember anyways lolz. i drove today! :) haha to church ahha it was fun :P but yes. i have a lot of homework this weekend too :( but it's okay! i shall finish it haha

yay bbq 2morrow.i wish i can go to the zoo with them : ( but i got work to do..so yes. time to go 2 bed..i'm crazy tired lately...don't know why...=/

assurance

2006-04-24T18:42:00.000-05:00

so i did my bio and math test today. I don't think i did too well : (. So i got sad. I got upset and fustrated and today just didn't seem like a cool day. Then a thought came to me in comm tech class. I was so happy last night listening to made to worship by Chris Tomlin (amazing song btw) and now because of two tests...two marks...I get upset? For a split second i totally loose focus on God, forgetting for one moment that He had everything in control. After that...a rush of assurance came over me. yea...i'm upset...i mean i could've done better right? and i'm just really tired, but God's got in all in control. He gives and takes away, but His will is perfect and pleasing.

And i read candy's blog just now...about being a servant. once again being reminded that marks and worldly things do not matter when it comes to serving God, and really that's all that should matter no?

Love God, Love people, nothing else matters.

when you do that...things just seem to flow into place. So I'm worshipping God no matter what. And I am not gonna doubt Him because He knows what's best for me.

worship night :)

2006-04-22T16:13:00.000-05:00

Praise the Lord for He is good :) Last night at fellowship was just COMPLETELY amazing. It's been a really...REALLY long time since i've seen the entire fellowship worship God with their hearts :) true worship right there! Last night was just amazingggg :) mann i can't even explain my continuing awe after last night. God really works, and last night was a total challenge for me to just put it all in God's hands. At the end, everyone was like...oh good job on worship night. ahha I'm thinking...why thank us? God did it all. I mean cummon..our songs...totally spontaneous order =) and just what i said and what i prayed about...just all came out...and just seeing so many people touched, not afraid to praise with their hands lifted high, I am totally amazed. And when we prayed as a group, when we sang spontaneously..THAT's true fellowship :) I haven't felt the Spirit work SOO evidently in a while :) like fo'real man that was the night :) I loved it. And haha as mel and jw knew, i was stressing like mad before it....haha not being able to find sheet music and what not....but God led it...God told me and showed me that everything turned out okay..I just had to trust in Him :) Praise the Lord. now THAT's true worship.

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the things I've made it
When it's all about You
All about You, Jesus

the fellowship accomplished that last night

and all fear was swept away

the fears of not singing good enough

the fears of what others thought about what we did

the fears of speaking out

all gone

barriers were broken
hands were lifted

all towards the same loving, amazing God

now THAT's unity :)

sunshine :)

2006-04-21T09:03:00.000-05:00

so everything's good now :) I am happy :) we're all happy :) yayy haha

i've been tired...and sick :( but that's okay..im getting better! haha and so jokes eating lunch with nat and edwin outside AHHA nat stories haha and pieces of the wall at school LMAO! ahha i love you guys. haha

AND...my daddy is home! :) yayyy haha i feel happy =) so it's been good...because God is good =)

so...tomorrow is ...worship night...im scared..excited..worried..happy...
kinda glad for a time to just..reflect even though i'm leading :) it's gonna be awesome because it's gonna be God-led =)

totally lovin' the sunshine

God above all the world in motion
God above all my hopes and fears
I don't care what the world throws at me now
I'm gonna be alright

'Cause I know my God saved the day
And I know his word never fails
And I know my God made a way for me
Salvation is here
-Hillsongs United

true dat yo'

so assured that God has everything in control :)

untitled

2006-04-17T08:59:00.000-05:00

haha okay so i learned something new....

silas ng doesnt go to ryerson HAHA where does he go?

haha anywayss yeaaa easter dinner last night =) it was so awesome and the food was good! :) thanks anita! haha getting to talk to everybody for like...1 hr cuz eric, candee & kitty never came..haha PRESTUDY at 7 not DINNER at 7 haha gosh eric get it right! hahaha anywayyyss =) it was so much fun haha talking about our childhoods and what not hahha good times :) i love k-cab!

and then we shared and it was cool just a time to pray with ivan, mel, and grace and just listening to how the rest of the cell groups are doing =) and we found a youth pastor!!!! haha well he's coming to do prestudy on sunday :) excited to meet him..

and then..well the night didn't end so well i guess...with what happened and what not and me crying my eyes out so much that this morning i woke up with my eyes three times smaller. lolz but it's okay! because i have AMAZING friends =) i love you guys for just sitting there and listening when i was such a mess last night =) thanks mel, anita, eric & david =) yea boys officially suck haha and history is repeated..and mel laughs at me =(

then i got in trouble with my mom cuz i came home really late..but i talked to her about my problem and what not..and she listened...and i felt a little better

yea wasn't able to sleep that well last night..but it's okay i feel a lil better now...but now i gotta fix it....*sigh God i guess it's time right?

chapters =)

2006-04-14T20:17:00.000-05:00

Today was such a cool day =) yes it was raining..i think and it was really cloudy, but it was still a good day =) so i drove this morning. I'm getting better! haha i like driving now :P haha did a lot of parking and turning and what not. =) i have to learn to let the wheel recover itself. lolz anywhoosss

met up with candyy at starbucks/chapters. haha candee: look the book is $3.99 and it's so thick! haha

we talked at starbucks for like...one and half hour until we saw mich and cheryl =) haha they went to go look at books and we talked a little more...im so full ><>< good =")" chiu =")">
me: where would mich and cheryl be?
candee: just find the place with the smartest books.

haha and we found them..at fiction and literature haha michelle knows like..all authors HONESTLY haha me and candee are just like..huh? haha and candee doesnt read and doesn't know books unless if they're from movies hahah right? haha manhunt and in her shoes haha then..MAGAZINES hahaha we are hopeless...apparently really bad according to cheryl and mich haha so joax dough =P and mich going angry over not being able to buy books is really scary hahaha she won't get themm from the library till she's 80 poor girl

then aww man my favourite part...the KIDS SECTION! yayyy haha Dr. Seuss and the science book LMAO! yayy story time with mich haha we all just sat there and read them..aha me and candee were sooo amused at the Dr. Seuss pop-up book HAHA we're like.."michelle! POP UP POP UP! OVER THERE *grabs and opens the page* haha OMGSH they move!" HAHHA cheryl i want those pictures! :) and i love the olivia book haha soo cuuuuuute and if you give a mouse a cookie :) haha my comment: why are mice so ma fan? haha

i love children's books ^^ good childhood memories. hehe we stayed there till 5. haha woww i had so much fun =P we should sit in the kids section reading books again girls :) aha honestly it's fun haha sitting in a circle together reading books to each other =P haha total and utter amusement =P

my favourite book :P

all better =)

2006-04-12T17:51:00.000-05:00

wow God works miracles alright

i woke up this morning to find that my fever was gone :) woww a one day fever. Who honestly have one-day fevers. haha man i feel so much better today =D so much more alive! haha anywayyss yes yes haa so joax with trisia today "am i going to get pregnant?" LMAO! haha trish those are flower sperms HAHAHA soo joax hahaha and having lunch with jenn, gordon, nat, alton, monique & hollie aww man started talking about elementary school haha me having no friends..thanks for reminding me everytime hollie..and hollie being whitewashed HAHA so unbelievable haha

so yes i feel 10 billion times better today :) thanks to all those who cheered me up yesterday!

God's will vs my will

2006-04-10T10:01:00.000-05:00

*sigh sunday school made me think yesterday. Yes we didn't really talk on topic...as usual :P but iuno it really hit me when we were talking about friends with benefits. And i mean..it's bad. and i don't know..got me thinking about emotions and feelings and people and stuff.

had a talk with silas

thanks :) lolz better than david forcing me to do stuffs :P

but yea really praying on it. thinking on it. I need time...

I need space

I want God's will because it's so much better than mine.

He knows what's best for me

He knows what i have to do

He knows when i'm ready

vroommm

2006-04-08T16:44:00.000-05:00

wow this week has been hectic..but it's okay! it's kinda over now :) i'm okay now :) God brought me through it! :D omgsh did the scariest thing today...

I DROVE

as in behind the wheel of a real car haha (no natalie not a fisherprice car)

so scaryyy :(

driving is scary..kinda fun.but scary haha especially the highway..yes the teacher is crazy..making me go on the highway *sigh..but it's okay! i survived! yayyy haha and i didn't kill anyonee :) yayy haha (see eric and david! i can drive! hahahaha)

that is my story for now...

sunshine :)

2006-04-02T21:04:00.000-05:00

rwar rwar rwarrr

wow today was such a nice day =) and i got to enjoy it too! Today's nooma was "Noise" the topic being silence and solitude. and you know what our cool sunday school class did? we went to the park! yayy i loved it! it was sooo nice outside..and i got to sit outside and not do anything for a good 20 minutes :) silence is amazing. like i just sat there...and i prayed and i listened. And I heard God in the gentliest of all whispers :) I love it when He speaks through silence. I love looking around and being in awe of all the things he created. I mean WOW. It's not like i've never been at the park before..i've been there a billion times. But...everytime i'm amazed because he made it all..ALL OF IT. not some of it...ALL OF IT. Wow....I love nature :)

our sunday school class is oh so very cool :)

judged

2006-03-31T21:56:00.000-06:00

I have this huge urge to blog before i keep rethinking and bursting into tears.

I feel so empty right now...i felt so invisible tonight. It was kind of like walking into fellowship and even though people talk to you, i don't know..i had this lonely feeling....or maybe it was just me in a bad mood. but keeping that smile on works..until you just cant keep it up anymore. When you don't show sadness...just...no expressions.

Sometimes i feel like i've done so many things wrong to other people....like i always constantly mess up...saying the wrong things...doing the wrong things. and it's like..constantly being judged for it. iuno ..i got my bio test back today..highest mark in the class...and my teacher says it outloud too..and even before he said it..heard people saying...."Oh it's going to be Agnes again" and it hurts. I mean...you're not supposed to be ashamed of good marks right? but when people look at you like...they hate you and judge you because you're trying your best..like it hurts. It's not like i want to beat everybody. I just wanted to do good. *sigh I don't know...i wasnt feeling so great the rest of the day.

*sigh...i feel so alone right now. =(

=) b-e-a-utiful

2006-03-30T21:44:00.000-06:00

this week has been..really slow haha I don't know..but everyday felt like friday...but it's okay. This week's weather has been absolutely amazing =) 17 degree afternoons yayyyy haha loving the cool breeze with the sun on my back on my way home =) hehe so currently obsessing over the movie...high school musical haha aww mann soo cuuutee :P the cutest cheesy movie ever ahaha =P haha yes i am such a sap. Anywhoosss

I felt happy to find my test easy to me today. SO couldn't have done it without God. Honestly...I don't understand how i ever got to cram that info all in my brain. There's a lot of stuff to Judaism. but yea =) It's actually pretty interesting...considering I don't really know anything about other religions. but yea =) thanks Jon for helping me study last night haha you now know everything i know about judaism haha =P Praise the Lord for giving me such an awesome friend =)

Today was my first ever promotions meeting for our spring production...Draculaa =) oOooOO im sooo excited haha I got so hyped over it. ahha Man thinking about like decoration ideas and what not =) I get to paint a big poster =) like BEDSHEET size..tha'ts preetty huge hahaha im oh soo excited! and im helping out selling tickets...which means i get to wear costumes haha and paint more posters haha eeeeeeee^^ oh so excited. Anddd I'm helping out with the program =)

I think i'm going to tutor gr 10 science this semester. I feel like I'm joining so much stuff, but I want to =P i don't know...been praying about it....and i have the biggest urge to tutor =/ kinda weird. well God will pull me through my busy schedule =) just like He has pulled me through everything else.

Thanks to my girls for being there for me when i was feeling a lil bleh this week. I love you girlss =) you know who you are.

excited for tomorrow and this weekend because
a) planning worship night with mel tomorrow =D haha our stacked team
b) imma get my haircut =) more layered and shorter
c) not so much homework and with the lovely weather well...=) time to go out for a jog

haha the simple things of this weekend that makes me look forward to it...and maybe insurance class...yes it's boring..but i have natalieeee =) that's al that matters LMAO! and our cool drawings hahaha eric you would know about those =P

i want to watch She's the man! =) natalie..you have a date with me for that during easter

a story

2006-03-28T20:03:00.000-06:00

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His father gave him a bag of nails and told him that everytime he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence. The first day the boy driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few week, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammer gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.

Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper. The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there.

cafe night =)

2006-03-25T17:18:00.000-06:00

Praise the Lord!

God is truly amazing :) Last night was just absolutely amazing! Man we rocked! Honestly...I don't know how we pulled through it. One really bad practice + one practice w/o sound = an amazing worship? yea God is TRULY in that equation! He never ceases to amaze me and pull through :) You just gotta learn to trust.

Cafe night was awesome! :) awesome job drama, food, speaker, av :) drama was amazing :) it felt good jus watching instead of being part of it. amazing job guys!

Thanks darren for helping me out :) honestly w/o you i'd be soo screweddd. Thanks a billion!

God truly works :) just keep your eye on the prize and everything will b a-okay =)

*and janice, i want a copy of that video!

2006-03-24T09:43:00.000-06:00

im so drained :( been trying to do so much this week and as darren said.."working in teh worst case scenarios" *sigh i hope worship works out tonight..all God's man :) float sale ends today..kinda relieved...hahaa but yea okay in comm tech...i should go :P haha im xcited for cafe nite tonight =)
im lifting it all up to Him...