k...so what are you suppose to do when your parents don't believe in you?

when they tell you school is everything? and that serving isn't important? that I can't put much time into fellowship as I hoped or as I did last year? that I'm not allowed to think I can do something big because I just can't since a 90 average is the MOST important right now. What in the world are you suppose to say to that? How are you suppose to bargain your way out of it.

Serving God without your parents supporting you kind of sucks. I mean...I'm getting scoulded at because I want to see my fellow brothers and sisters grow...because I feel like I can and truly want to make a difference. ouch...that hurts man.

I've prayed about this so much, which led me to the decision of writing the cabinet thing in the first place...and now I'm back to where I started...wondering...confused...

So God...what am i suppose to do? Honestly, I don't know which way to go anymore. :(

Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not men, - Ephesians 6:7

hoi sum day :)

k so i had the greatest day today : ) haha my "hoi sum day" haha with the coolest mistake ever : ) (aka darren tsang)

HIGHLIGHTS of my hoi sum day
- lunch @ marlowe's : ) soo yummy it made me happy : ) haha
- the interesting spread for our bread...it has alcohol in it! so i didnt like it
- i showed him my seahorse poo : ) i am no longer a deprived child ahha
- amazing talk about so many of my problems : ) thanks boy
- me not able to finish my food and me bargaining with him to help me finish it : ) i was SO full man.
- darren treating me to lunch :)
- "shortcuts" when he drives hah
- went to the park, where i went on the swings and darren pushed me too high, from the front, and got sand all over his face >=) serves you right for pushing me :P
- tsang: man how could you ditch me & mel and not go to loo?
senga: yo man this is my future we're talking about
tsang: this is our friendship we're talking about
guilt trip darren tsang? :P

- called cheryl li and found out she's failing cuz she has to go out :P yes cheryl li u failed! XP
- went to darren's house and played mario 64 and supersmash...oh my...words cannot describe how BAD i was
- darren suiciding a buncha times...and he still beat me! : ( that was SOO SAD and i was sad by it
- realizing i got sand ALL over darren's couch :P
- went over to cheryl li's where we talked about xmen, my future ahha, & a whole buncha stuff
- cheryl...shocked at the weird conversations that goes on between me & dt haha "gimme my seahorse back NOW"

is here anything else i 4got? not really...haha today was a lot of fun. haha i haven't had this much fun for a while. :P...well no i lied...but it's been rare this summer to have this much fun

so this weekend has been awesome :) God has truly blessed me with A-M-A-Z-I-N-G people and events.

Friday: Grad night
It was so hectic i think was going to cry. haha i remember worship practice not going so well and sound and video not going so well...i was soo freaking out. (ask mel & darren, they would know) im sorry for all those who i yelled @. sooo we ended up starting @ like...8..and everything just went smoothly. God is great, and truly He provided. There were tears, a huge buncha laughs, and amazing memories :) It was a blessing planning grad night for people you care so much about. I love you guys : ) each of you have impacted my life and i don't know how to thank you for that.

Saturday: softball & mad nintendo fun.
so woke up at 10, went to softball @ 11:30, iwas like the first person there! haha so i threw around with jt and eric..aww man i think i almost like broke my hand. haha but yea. i think before the game i was SOO out of it. soo tired man haha but then the game came, and it was fun. haha and popsicles are yummy (thanks freddy) and stealing darren's popsicle is also very yummy haha (the red & white parts are still the best) so after softball, we had devos led by freddy and then we decided to go to market village and as we were leaving...or about to leave..me and darren experienced very scary things (well i did, darren found it funny) so i was scared. and david thought it was funny too : ( not funny boys!) so then me, darren & mel sat in dt's car and sang far away and photograph the ENTIRE time there because mel didn't konw any of the other songs. so now our song is far away :P

"cuz YOU KNOW YOU KNOW YOU KNOWWW" : ) haha aww i miss you mel.

so then we went to market village, where we were in awe of some people who were skipping rope haah it was crazy! ahaha and they're going to b in the olympics & stuff : ) haha it was so cool haha then we decided to go 2 darren's house and since my parents were still @ lakeshore, i could go : ) yay soo off in darren's car to darren's house we go. or..i go. haha omgsh...darren is a very scary, angry driver. and i learned something new : ) that it's illegal to talk on the fone while u're driving. haha darren is very educational. then we talked more about my issues : ) thanks tsang. and we got to his house, where david, mel & jason joined us : ) haha we played mario cart, super smash bros, & awesome AWESOME mario 64. haha AMAZING haha it's fun! haha and melody was hogging it haha we had these really good jam cookies and darren owned me with the cloud on super smash. then i showered and went out for dinner w/ my family. Then i went to my aunt's, where i ate cake.
Sunday: church, shopping
so went to church : ) congratulated jess for being engaged :P haha went to sunday school @ timmies. ahha : ) then barry & osgood came. and me, issy, barry & osgood had quite an interesting boys conversation. i learnt a few things
1. barry is VERY observant about other ppl's lives.
2. osgood is oblivious :P
haha so it was fun. then i went out to lunch near markville so my cousins & i decided to go shopping and so we did haha : ) i helped my cousin buy 2 tops and i got nothing : ( i was quite sad, but it's okay! haha went home, watched a movie, ate dinner, played ddr, guitared and played piano : ) haha that's basically my sunday.

so God is good
i am no longer sick
i am no longer stressed
: )

hi.
my name is senga chung.
i spent the night (and day) over at the coolEST place ever.
i am cool.
(not really.)
because ACTUALLY, mel is cooler.
THE coolEST.

today i made breakfast, there was egg , sausage, crab meat, tomato, cheese and waffles.
yummy?
more like interesting.

i learned that mel is skillful in carrying a conversation while being 3/4 asleep. its quite the interesting story.

mel is awesome at monopoly, she owns all. better than me. better than grace. better than DARREN. (you suck dt.)

we played mario. i sucked. darren sucked, but mel was AWESOME.

we flew a kite. mel knows how to run, the kite was cool - it was elmo.
aw yiu fay gaw g-u. (pronounce imagining chinese language - ping-yum)
aw day fay g-u ho ho.
so really, there was no failure.

we were attempting to make cookes, but we learned how to relax each other by pinching ears. (hahha. ha.)

we watched many tv shows.

we played with toys.

darren got ADD.

darren got hurt.
many times, but i don't care.
the mobile in mel's room was quite dangerous, but it really only hurt darren.
HAHA.
okay.
that's all.

now what else.

darren doesn't know how to drive.
i am cool. (that i is referring to mel)
that's right, i tricked you.

hehehehehe.
ho ho ho.
i'm santa clause! here are your presents, this is a coal.
welcome to my coal life.

yep. welcome to my coal life.

people in mel's family are mean.
(this means silas.)
this means WAR.

mel: (after reading this) whoa senga, you're RANDOM.

_____________________________________________________________________________

sooooo FYI

the post written before was by ofcourse, melody ng, the most RANDOM girl i know : ) haha

but most of the stuff did happen..cept for all the parts saying where melody is cool and im random =/ haha but yes haha so joax that day

mario and the park and monkeybars and monopoly and just driving around : ) haha i love you guys

from mel's random comments to darren's horrible sense of direction to grace's attempt at those crazy puzzle things haha i love you all : )

soo today is going to be grad night. it will be fun. but im exhausted mann and im sick..and i got melody sick haha

VBC'06

so VBC is finally over...

the yelling, the stress, the fear of losing my kids, and ofcourse the awesome fun, the crazy laughs : )

so yes...i lost my voice but in the end, oh so rewarding :) i had an amazing time serving God with my awesome assistant crew leader jackie! : ) haha thanks girl! ahha for your first time, you were amazing. haha i loved my kids : ) i miss them soo muchhh haha it's like..every year you meet like...7 more kids...and you begin realizing how important they are to you. i love children! so innocent and so curious ahha. and oh so funny : ) and it's awesome just getting to know other crew leaders and people more : ) and it was always good to know my "oasis" (aka the AV room) was always open for me to chill and get a break : ) soo oh yes it was rewarding from michael's colourful fingernails to my awesome shirt which is now filled with little kids writing to watching my group and everybody else memorize bible verses, it was a happy week! : ) now that it's all over, the anxiety, the worries, the screaming, the ranting haha it all doesn't matter anymore because God has worked and that is my reward :)

soo here are some pix : ) haha i <3

aww kyle is soo cute :)


me & jc : )


michael & nicolas are painting me...yes that green thing..is me =/


my group : ) go fiji 2!


Janette & Kristy at the farm


Syndey and Nathan


Nicolas, me, janette, nathan, jackie


mike & i


kristy & michael and his lovely nails : )


michael, janette, nathan, nicolas


jackie & i

*edit* i finished!
100 random facts about me for you.

1. i stole this off of sharon
2. i tend to steal quizes and bored stuff from people :P
3. i am amused very easily
4. i've never eaten ice cream with a fork before
5. i think monkeys and penguins are the coolest animals in the world
6. i believe that cows go cow
7. i love to have time to myself even though im an extrovert
8. i like making stuff on photoshop
9. i like art
10. but im going into sciences
11. i have my guy friends than girl friends
12. i am more open with guys than girls
13. my best friend is a guy
14. i yell a lot
15. my favourite time of the day is morning : ) like 8 o'clock in the morning
16. i smile a lot
17. i predict that i will get a lot of wrinkles from smiling when i grow up
18. i predict that i may also develop abs (hopefully) from all the laughing im doing
19. i would like my future wedding reception to be outside
20. i don't want people to be all sad and crying when i die
21. i am actually quite selfish
22. i also judge people a lot : (
23. i hate people being angry at me..it makes me so upset
24. i've never really been angry before...
25. all my older guy friends are my ah gors : )
26. i can be quiet if i really wanted to
27. normal is not in my vocabulary : )
28. when i'm not forced to, i play the piano because i want to
29. when im stressed or sad, i play the piano
30. i talk a lot of chinese at school
31. im a safe driver..really i am : )
32. i love my family even though they do bother me sometimes....hey whos family doesnt?
33. i lovee corny movies
34. i wish my future boyfriend will not celebrate months with me
35. i'm happy very easily
36. sometimes, i just want to spend time with a person, regardless of what we do
37. i don't like people making a big fuss over me
38. im whiny.
39. i am cool : ) haha but not as cool as melody
40. i like hugs : ) so come hug me
41. im a crybabyy..i cry about a lot of things
42. i like being myself : ) it's fun
43. i love my friends
44. i try to love everybody..really i do
45. pessimists bother me
46. world poverty makes me really sad
47. i like to eat a lot
48. i like to swim and jog cuz it's refreshing
49. i like watching sunset and sunrise
50. i don't like people who badger at you when you just want time alone
51. i love taking pictures
52. i love looking at pictures : ) at memories
53. i think a lot...
54. i am a sucker for sweet movies
55. i love slow songs, some of them make me want to cry
56. i'm not girly...kinda...not THAT girly
57. i like skirts now : )
58. i don't date crazy hot guys...or i wouldnt...im scared i would get to self-conscious
59. i'm not like other girls
60. i talk chinglish..like melody : P
61. i love Christian songs
62. i really don't think i sing all that great...like...im okay la
63. im very hard on myself when it comes to singing
64. music videos with girls shaking their butts and guys with huge bling disgusts me
65. i rant a lot : (
66. i like butterflies
67. there's only been maximum 2 teachers i've truly disliked throughout my years in school
68. i don't really hate anybody
69. im scared for grade 12
70. im scared when im doing solo songs
71. i like PB&J sandwiches
72. i find great satisfation in serving
73. most of my friends are from church
74. currently loving Sheryl Crow - Always on Your Side
75. i love to go to the park : ) (especially with my 2 loo friends)
76. i love lunches at the park
77. i love my girls
78. i like to bake : )
79. i don't read magazines, but i have a huge pile in my room from before
80. i am having difficulty figuring this stuff out...
81. i love my VBC kids
82. relationships scare me...
83. hurting people scare me
84. hugging my teddy bear makes me feel better when i cry
85. i like telling my friends happy news then having them b happy with me : )
86. i'm nice unlike darren tsang
87. it's napoleon ice cream! not neapolitan ice cream!
88. i like to watch ANTM : ) haha
89. i talk about a lot of random things at home..like...the fact that monkeys fly
90. im a very sentimental girl
91. i don't throw things away
92. i hate inconsiderate people
93. i like to read
94. i sing in the shower
95. i want to go visit waterlooo
96. i feel lonely a lot =/ it's weird i know
97. i believe life is not about always having fun..and always something to do
98. i don't get bored.
99. i like dressing up..sometimes
100. i am done and relieved

haha : )

so...onto today....went to grandfather's funeral...i cried like a river...omgdness....i had so much tissue in my hand it was insane. *sigh...i miss you grandpa. i love you.

but God is good, He has taken care of my family, He has showed me so much.

but as i told darren, im hoi sum right now...found out my grandfather accepted Christ before He died...PTL : )

so...gramps i miss you, but i know you're going to a better place. it's amazing what you've done for the past 85 years of your life. Rest in Peace

coffeehouse 2006

last night...was exhilerating : ) absolutely not what i expected. God is great, truly He is.

So i was at church from 12 to like...10:30 yesterday haha and at the end of the day, man i was exhausted. haha cooking with keren was joax : ) haha making jello and then brownies ahha then grace came and we went to go buy MORE brownie stuff and hahaha so joax : ) i love shopping with grace haha. our highlights included seeing a girl that looked EXACTLY like annabelle..no joax, going to no frills and realizing that we totally forgot about money.hahah luckily i had money.hahah geez grace...haha when you go shopping, you need to pay! lolz : ) haha then we didn't know how to get to mich's house..even though i said i knew..yea dont trust me with directions haha : P so yess ahha soo joax. aww man. haha and after that, i was high for the rest of the day haha and cooking was cool : ) until i realized i got brownie mix all over me and grace drove me home to change : ) ahha then went back..had lampa practice with melody : ) haha soo sick of that song now. and we had worship practice..which didnt start until 6:45 because we had to set up and everything. but hte setup was so cool : ) haha with the drums in the middle & everything haha : ) woot woot so we had practice..for the first time together..and it went through okay..we ended up cutting God is great...but w/e

so after practice..i sat there for a while..thinking about God's will for tonight and then..got me thinking about my grandfather, looking down on me and being proud of me. I don't think he's ever seen me like.on stage before. I know he's watching over me. made me want to cry a little...hey but i gotta pull it together. so i drank a lito water...and i was okay

so coffeehouse...was about to start, we prayed, all the coffeehouse people and it began : ) haha man i must tell you, it was awesome. the hype..was incredible haha so im looking around..no darren tsang. haha me and mel..grr we'll kill him. haha so drama was pretty good. : ) you guys did awesome and it was very..down to earth..different from all the other ones. worship turned out good...i loved my team : ) i loved the energy. haha thanks for the great time guys. then we had the sermon that freddy gave and then me and mel went up..omgsh i was sooo scared..like..i was shaking and going insane! haha then when mel started playing i looked up..OMGSH DARREN TSANG HAHA so i sang...with as much confidence as i could possibly take outta my body and during the entire time...he was like..giving me thumbs ups..andi was trying hard NOT to laugh. haha by the end of the song..omgsh i was shaking...in my head..iw as like..omgsh i did it i did it..haha scaryy ahha aparently gencan thought it wasnt live. ahha and was amazed haha so yes : ) coffeehouse was awesome : ) God truly has some crazy plans for us : ) haha

and so joax with mel and darren after coffeehouse : ) haha good to chill with all 3 of us again : )haha just like last summer haha <3>

RIP

so i guess things do happen...

unexpectedly...out of the blue...things you thought could wait...but time doesnt wait for you.

Rest in Peace Grandpa

although we never really talked, you've changed me more than you know.

we'll all miss you.

life...

yayyy i got my G2 : ) woot woot

and thanks for the talk yesterday mel : ) haha our awesome 1hr phone conversation. man just so many things im discontent about...just have to get it all out. ahha and when dt comes back, we'll yell about it to him too.

so..my day was...very scary..and i don't know....so i woke up this morning to drive my brother to swimming and went with my mom to my grandparents where i had to sit there till like....12 with my grandma while everybody else took my grandpa to see the doctor to do an ultrasound or something. then i went out for lunch with my grandparents...only to have my grandpa come to the restaurant and not being able to exactly breathe properly because apparently he was lying down too long at the doctors..so my mom had to drive to the restaurant to get him home...but we realized something was wrong...cuz he was breathing abnormally and he was just weak...like my mom & my aunt had to literally lift him up. so they got scared...and decided to bring him to the hospital..so now im sitting at home..with both my parents at the hospital with my grandpa who is currently in critical condition and is staying overnight at the hospital.

so that's not exactly how my day was SUPPOSED to go..but it's amazing how God opens up your eyes. so before lunch, my grandma came and showed me all these photo albums of things like my mom's wedding or when my aunts were younger and things like that and watching as people change..and looking at the pictures of my grandpa and seeing how thin and weary he's grown, it made me realize the fragility of life (if that's even a word) I mean...when my brother and i got home, my brother asked me..."do you think he's going to live?" it made me angry..i mean how negative could u get..but at the same time...it's a reasonable question to ask. and it scares me. I've never been to a funeral my entire life...and God has truly blessed me. but today, feeling a totally different anxiety and fear for someone else's life...it's scary. I mean...after lunch when i went back to the apartment with my grandma to keep her company...i realized i couldnt sit still or stop worrying about my grandfather and whether or not he's okay.

life is precious...and God has showed me that. and He's also showed me that sometimes the only thing you could do is pray.

happy birthday jellody : )

Today is a special day : )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELODY!
the funniest, coolest girl around : )

i love youuuu. haha soo joax today haha okay so david picked me up at 1 to go to mel's house...and we found this lady who was lying there...and i thought that there was nothing wrong with her...few seconds later..u hear police and ambulance..we're like..uhoh. so now i feel bad..i hope she's okay.
so we arrived to mel's house...and david didnt tell mel we were coming. lolz failure. soo we said bye to tim & silas who were leaving to play tennis...and we went into mel's house...we saw the cheesecake : ) and we put it in the fridge and went up to mel's room :) where i played w/ some magnety things jc gave her and saw her cute lil kiddy pictures and talked to dtsang who wasnt there. then we went out : ) to....

glaze craze! haha..and during the ride there, mel was giving me a tour around the place she lives haha :P so joax haha her tour stops at centre point haha so we went to glaze craze..and i chose a turtle, mel chose a butterfly, and david chose a hippo. haha it was quite stressful for melody haha to decide on so many things haha oh dear. haha we have matching animals now : ) we decided to share colours haha. and it was so difficult picking tiles haha i think the woman was getting tired of us constantly showing up asking for more colours. haha and mel kept failing :P screaming when she messes up and moving the table all the time :P haha and asking the lady for 2 of the colours she JUST put back lolz! haha so that was fun : ) havent done anything artsy for a while..then we went to...

licks! haha aww man so joax..and on the way...riding dirty was on the radio haha : ) yesss me & mel's song haha soo joax. haha mel is gangstar : )
cashier person #1: Hi can i help you?
mel: yea well it's my birthday, and i was wondering if i could get anything for free?
cashier person #1: well i guess we can give you free ice cream
mel: okay then can i have the ice cream?
cashier person #1: okay then..go down there..to the ice cream place
*mel walks to the ice cream place*
cashier person #2: hi would you ladies like to get ice cream?
mel: yea umm the lady over there said i get the ice cream for free cuz it's my birthday
cashier person #2: who said that?
mel: that lady over there..you can ask her
cashier persion #2: hey! did u say she can have free ice cream?
cashier person #1: i said maybe
cashier person #2: she said maybe...
agnes: wow mel you're failing
*cashier person #2 walks away*
mel: wait so do i get my free ice cream?
agnes: i dont think you do...
*us standing there for a while*
cashier person #3: hi can i help you?
mel: yea i don't know if i get free ice cream cuz it's my birthday
cashier person #3: hey does she get free ice cream?
cashier person #2: just give her a double scoop
cashier person #3: okay..cup or cone?
mel: oh i get the ice cream?
cashier person #3: cup or cone?
mel: cup

hahaha wow after 3 cashier people haha soo joax haha and we get 2 scoops of ice cream : ) haha i like i like haha saving like......$3.50 haha good stuffs haha : ) the ice cream was good hahaha. then after ice cream, back to mel's house to decorate her cake...until we found out the whipped cream was expired jan 14 2005 haha or it could be jan 5 2014 haha hmmm so yea...so we told silas to go buy us some : ) and we had whipped cream and we cutted strawberries : ) mel was so angry...geez so demanding haha me and david got scared of her...goodness haha so joax though haha and we played mad gab ahha mel is so joax haha "supernatural fence?" haha <3>

happy 18th hun

bbq for walton : )

HAHA omgshhh soo joax at gordon's house today. haha i love my friends. so we had a bbq at gordon's house haha and it was alton's birthday thingy : )

i know it's early...but
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALTON : )

haha highlights of tonight
- me and natalie ringing the door bell and hearing beverly scream like a dog on the other side
-sisi and gordon taking out the turtles and bev and sisi being mean to them
- the turtle started sliding and "running" and me and natalie screamed
- listening to sisi and beverly karoke
-watching cinderella story and having sisi scream everytime chad michael murray was on haha he is SOO HOT : ) aww man SEXY
- water fight : ) soo joax haha
- watching gdon, camy, kenny, hollie, eva, & calvin drink and play games haha
- listening to calvin when he is drunk LOL

haha tonight was soo joax : ) haha pictures laterrrr hehe : )

ohhh and david wong, you owe me lunch cuz i got 95 in data : ) haha

summer...FINALLY

soo im at nat jeh's house right now :) haha and my back is sunburned haha greattttt

so here's my day
-had an easy, 2 hour exam with 20mins to spare
-went to wonderland with my favorite losers in the world :) my two daughters haha
-went to splashworks..which was almighty refreshing in 45 degrees weather
-bought a green tea frap : ) cuz i like those haha
-went on sledgehammer, vortex, and the fly

haha yayy start of summer FINALLY

cant wait till tomorrow! bbq at gordon's house! yayyy haha it's gonna be soo joax

so here's a glimpse at the rest of my week

wed - gdon's house
thurs - softball practice, worship practice
fri - fellowship ;) CGN :D
sat - drivingg
sun - church, double header for softball : ) anddd deeenerrrr

yayy : ) haha k nat's back. toodles